Night Owl Studies

TJ 🌻 | She/Her | 📍YYZ tired wannabe scientist

[retrievablememories]

while everyone's tripping over themselves to defend the white man with tourette's screaming slurs at black people all night, I'd like to remind folks of some of the mentally ill/disabled black people who received no such grace while having mental health episodes or simply existing

Who is Jordan Neely, the man killed in NYC subway chokehold death?

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Opinion: Remembering The Life And Spirit Of Elijah McClain

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Who Was Sonya Massey? An Explainer Of Her Life And Tragic Death

Sonya Massey was the latest Black woman to be murdered by police in Springfield. Here's a breakdown of her life and death.

[creatingblackcharacters]

And I REMEMBER how horrific a lot of yall were about Jordan Neely. That's one of the few times I was so sick to my stomach on here I almost left.

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[treecitysessions]

“Goonbait” and it’s just photos of teenage girls and women in their early 20s smiling and being happy because they’ve each just accomplished one of the biggest moments of their respective careers

[treecitysessions]

It’s not even because her style is alternative or whatever bc they were saying the same thing about the other girls above it’s literally just that young women can’t be seen by these people as anything but a vessel for their sexual desire to the point that they can’t even see a 20 year old make a silly face while smiling during one of the happiest moments of her life without being like she is clearly doing all this just to make me horny.

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[awakefor48hours]

Not just "fuck ICE" but also "love immigrants"

[awakefor48hours]

ICE is a domestic terrorist group that promotes behaviors similar to literal slave catchers and nazis that needs to be stopped yesterday.

and

Immigrants are human beings who deserve no more or less love than anyone else on the planet.

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[creaturefeaturecommando]

It really bothers me because I thought that after Get Out came out it would let black people finally break out in horror and it did but every black horror movie after Get Out is a Get Out knockoff that always has to do racial horror and I’m actually fucking sick of it. Like whenever Jordan Peele releases a new horror movie and everyone wants it to be another Get Out that they get disappointed and don’t even give movies like Nope a chance. Let black people fight aliens, let them fight zombies, let them fight ghosts that aren’t racist white people trying to put them back into slavery or some shit, give us more black slashers or something. I don’t fucking know.

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[ryan-sometimes]

It’s wild to me to see transvestigator conspiracy theories online that could be so easily explained by natural human variation. That woman has a deep voice? Yeah, sometimes they do. A woman has broad shoulders?? Maybe she plays rugby or hits the gym a fuckton. There’s a “bulge” in her tight pants?? Maybe her vulva is just fat. All the “markers” of trans woman that transvestigators use to harass any woman aren’t even things unique to trans women.

[ryan-sometimes]

Transphobes talk about women like they’re Barbies. Have you forgotten the existence of cameltoe? Tiny boobs? Narrow hips? Broad shoulders? Why do you think choirs have altos and not just sopranos? What do you think female athletes look like? Do you think a woman that lifts weights and plays contact sports will look like a 90s supermodel? At what point in history did we collectively forget that human bodies have natural variability???

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[anti-terf-posts]

official anti terf post

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[lesvegas]

A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

[nightowlstudies]

Resurrecting this blog from the dead b/c PhD is PhDing and I need some will to live™️

[nightowlstudies]

White girls in STEM are the very definition of Gaslight, Gatekeep, Girlboss. Especially when they’re in positions of power as Teaching Assistants.

[acaemia]

let me just talk shit lol

Money guilt is just...it sucks okay? Let’s drop my anxieties and look at this objectively. Aren’t parents supposed to provide for their children? Like above all else, parents are caretakers right? Ideally, you have a child and you raise them right and you give them a good life. Then let’s factor society in. Capitalism makes shit difficult. It’s not easy to have a good life under this unfair system. Parents will struggle to provide for their families, etc. Then let’s factor in the parents themselves. Some of them weren’t ready. Some of them don’t love their children. Some of them see kids as this investment. Some. Which means there are “bad” parents out there. Then there is a unique breed of parents who use these “bad” parents as a threat to children. “Be grateful we take care of you because some children don’t have parents.” “We send you to a good school. Not all kids have the chance to do that.” My dad loved to show me documentaries of children struggling to go to school then make me feel bad because I have a better life. I have all the means to get to school so I should work. Whether the child agrees or not, that sense of guilt-tripping gets internalized in them. It may not always manifest in them working harder in their studies or chores like parents intend to but it can seep into other areas of their life. Relationships with others might be difficult because they do one favor for you and it feels like you have to make good on it and repay it. Just to physically show how grateful you are. Relationship with money can be hard because if you don’t do “enough,” you don’t have something to justify your purchase. It’s like...there’s always a need to justify everything when you parents make their responsibility of providing to you as a blessing instead of...something they should do. So when we go back to the simple “parents are supposed to provide for you” it really gets muddled because of everything else that got in the way. I would pay for small school fees without telling my parents. I wouldn’t get new clothes or invest in hobbies because I felt like I would just waste their money on things. My relationship with my expenses is just...difficult because so much unnecessary guilt and doubt gets placed on me. Even when I spend my own money it just gets scary. I just wish the next generation of parents will stop making being a parent their personality trait in a sense that they’re saying we take care of u in order to manipulate kids. Love your children right and they will be grateful. No need to bring other kids with absent parents or bad lives in the mix just to make your parenting seem “better”. You have a responsibility to care for your kids. No one said it’ll be fair or easy and there /are/ difficult kids out there but damn idk welcome to my brain this isn’t supposed to make sense I wish I had a matcha latte right now I just want to buy craft supplies without visiting the nether of my consciousness

[astudyingdemon]

DEAR FELLOW STUDENTS,

I need your help 🥺

Can you comment topics and post ideas for my studygram?

*not linking it because I don't want you to see this as a cry for attention I'm genuinely interested in your opinion

Reblogs will 100% help

Thank you 🖤

[nightowlstudies]

You could do a lil’ day in the life; some Bujo (if you Bujo), talk about how you plan