Nightstorys

Thoughts| Memories| Poetry

[nightstorys]

I wish I wouldn’t care this much, cause I care too much

[nightstorys]

If you share something, be aware cause the whole world is going to know it too.

[nightstorys]

Never share a story you’re not ready to.

[nightstorys]

I found you. Finally, right?

Wait.

You don’t answer anymore. You don’t care right?

I’m a burden to you, I knew it. Say it.

No wait.

I’m in love with you.

Please don’t leave me like the others did.

I need you. Even when I don’t show it. But please stay.

I love you.

[nightstorys]

My biggest fear is to be alone.

I’m preparing my self for it. Like I don’t meet anyone of my friends. I’m just Alone do it wouldn’t hurt that much when I’m really alone.

[nightstorys]

Well I’m a disappointment to my family.

My mom tells me every time we see, like 5 mins ago she told me.

But I’m acting fine.

I have to act that everything is fine.

[nightstorys]

You kept ignoring me and choosed to lose me and our friendship because after all I don’t love you back.

Well I’m sorry but if you choosed once to leave me, then do it and don’t change your mind like a Girl which can’t decide what she wants to wear.

I’m not a clothing, not a hoodie.

I’m a person with feelings.

I was always there for you when you needed me, and now you’re leaving me. So don’t cry after me it was your Choice not mine.

[nightstorys]

Well I should stop getting some Hope

-Me still hopefully

[nightstorys]

I should hate you, but I can’t.

I should stop thinking about you, but I can’t.

I should delete your number, but I can’t.

I should stop looking at our photos, but I can’t.

Do you know why I can’t?

Because I love you after all.

-Me

[nightstorys]

I’m laying in your arms.

Feeling safe

Feeling home

But you, you cheated on me while I was in your arm.

And I was sorry for it.

I was sorry for trusting you

For feeling safe in your arms

For feeling something for you

-Me

[nightstorys]

I hate you, but I also love you.

I don’t miss you, but I also miss you.

I don’t need you! But sometimes I wish I had you by my side.

I wish I’ve never met you. But I’m also happy that I met you.

You make me life complicated, but also easy.

You make me float in my own feelings and thoughts.

[nightstorys]

I’m swimming. I’m swimming in my feelings and thoughts.

Well, I’m drowning in myself

[nightstorys]

Just need a place where I can be myself without caring that someone would think I’m weird or something like that.

Just need a place to be free.

Just need some space

[nightstorys]

In the past week I thought a lot about suicide because I wanna Fcking end this shit.

Maybe the last Time.

bye

[nightstorys]

Is there someone I can talk to?

I’m feeling real lonely.

He’s always running trough my mind, I can’t stop it.

I always think of him and miss him.

I know I’m not the best girlfriend, he deserves a better girl.

Who is not hurting him. I did it once and I wish I never had.

He deserves a girl who is always answering and writing him.

He deserves so much. He deserves things I can’t give him. But other can.

Why the heck chooses me? I mean I’m a really bad girlfriend. I NEVER cheated on him and I will never do! But I’m not as that friendly or happy all the time.

I love it to cuddle with, to kiss him, or just to talk to him.

Every time I see him on FaceTime, tears come up to my eyes. I don’t even know why but I fucking happy every time he looks at me or tell me that he loves me or that I’m beautiful.

Damn I love him with every pin of my heart!

[nightstorys]

Sometimes I’m feeling sorry.

Sorry for all the bad things I have done.

Sorry for all the bad words I said.

Sorry for the way I live.

But after this thoughts, I think:

Don’t be sorry for the way you live.

Don’t be sorry the words you said.

Don’t be sorry for the things you have done.

We all make mistakes, no one is perfect.