Before i met you i am strong. Yes i am, strong and tough enough not to break the rules of my parents. I don't want to ruin the trust that i earned from them. Our story happened when we were in highschool. The time when my parents wont allow me to enter a relationship because 1. I am too young 2. Too young to handle commitments in life 3. They don't want me to fall in love with the wrong man at my early age and be broken and 4. lastly they're afraid that someone might ruin my future because of what they call "puppy love" . But then again there you are, you knocked once but i don't let you enter at your first knock. Then you've been patiently knocking like a man who knows there is someone who would be tempted to open it for you and tadaaah you're right! I am tempted and let you in my life. That time i am afraid that my parents would discover it because they are a good snooper that's why i told you you cant tell anyone that we are in a relationship. I hope that those memories will last, you and i talking like bestfriends, talking about music(which is our same interest), those times that you supported me on all my decisions (even though it would hurt your feelings but still you're there to protect me), you performing at our school program and i know that those songs were for me, your eyes that stares at me every time you sing like you're not on that stage neither with those people, students and teachers around who are also watching but i remember that feeling LIKE we are the only people inside; just me, you, your guitar and your sweet soft voice. I hope those moments were forever, i hope those feelings: joy, protected, special, butterflies in my stomach not only in my stomach but all over my body and specially LOVE, I HOPE THOSE WERE INFINITE. Until our first dilemma came in: things change, feelings fade and Love i don't know what happened to your Love for me. You told me that you are tired of waiting, tired of hiding, tired of my immaturities, tired of everything. My world goes down, my world collapsed, my world was like a theme park full of colors full of happy thoughts and feelings before but now it is like an abandoned theme park dark, dull, full of dismay, full of junks that has been left out after the abandonment of the people. Yes i accept every reasons you gave me about this dilemma. I accept it because i love you. I accept it without telling you i really want to introduce as my boyfriend to my family(though i know my brother knew it already) i really want to make our relationship be legal to my parents. i am also tired of the waiting game. I want to fight for our world. I want to ask you to please give me some time we were graduating students that time and i am planning to introduce you to them right after the ceremony. That time i am thinking and asking myself am i that selfish or is it right that after you've waited for a couple of years there you are giving up, there you are: TIRED. But then i believe that love isn't always about holding on and fighting for each other, sometimes love is love when you let them go, freeing someone from a bondage that hurts them, love is giving them the freedom that they ask for. I let you go because I LOVE YOU. After that life goes on, you and i inside one classroom that has an invisible walls between us... I never knew that you have fallen into another girl, not just a girl but one of my closest friend. I never thought that letting you go and seeing you with her would hurt me million times not just million but more than you could think of. Seeing your "ex" with your closest friend inlove with each other in the same room is like there's a demolition inside your body. Different kinds of emotions: sadness, anger, brokenness, anger, sorrow, anger, sadness, depressed, blue, heavyhearted, down and every synonym of sadness. (to be continued)
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