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final birthday present tally :)
The realization that wearing a magen David or otherwise being clockable as Jewish means that every tiny thing you do in public is being used to confirm people's antisemitic biases. Like if I am not a Jew and my card doesn't read immediately it doesn't matter. If I ask if there are coupons available it is mundane. If I ask someone to respect a quiet/study zone it's normal. If I accidentally take someone's seat (happened today) it's either ignored or I'd be asked if I could move (happily!). Nothing odd.
But existing visibly as a Jew it's just... you always must be Up to Something. Tiny, meaningless actions, habits, mistakes you make are held against the whole people. I took an empty seat today and learned that apparently this is somehow proof that Jews Steal Land. Your chair isn't Palestine, dude. Just let me know you were sitting there like we do in society. Ffs.
This is textbook but it's exhausting.
I try regardless of whether or not I think I seem Jewy looking to do kind things because that's how I was raised, luckily. But if I let someone in front of me in line is it being twisted in people's minds? Am I up to no good to them? My community volunteers and all of a sudden we're just "doing PR?" It's "hasbara" that my synagogue helps clean up a mosque? We'd have done it 2 years ago. We'd do it for the Sikhs across the street, too. It makes no difference, but is that how we're perceived?
We can do no right?
if you feel like you're having a "PR" problem or are being publicly read in bad faith a pretty low-hanging olive branch would be the cessation of genocide denial.
i sometimes wonder if max thinks about or regrets suddenly ghosting me after 10 years of deep friendship.
the flip side of being quietly abandoned right as I got diagnosed w/ diabetes is that my recovery process hasn't been interrupted. not having my focus taken up by someone with such an outsized negative effect on my self-confidence has helped me resume making music again like I haven't been able to in literally years.
My record is done and is currently being mixed btw
i love that if you have my skin color/hair texture/nose shape/ethnic origin of name you're actually required to be abused by institutional care providers starting from an extremely young age, and the more you're aware of it the more they have to do it.
eclectic taste (not to be confused with good taste) is the only thing you actually need to be a good artist. i don't care if you like the right things, i literally only care abt the multitude of experiences and practices you have ingested.
so many common anxieties about art just crumble when you finally step into the wild side and make consumption as much a part of your job as creation. "my art sucks" gain a taste for art that sucks and employ it with intent. "i don't have a style i can call my own" consume everything and deliberately pick the elements you like. "i'm afraid of accidentally plagiarizing" plagiarize a second thing at the same time and then its yours
you will not survive the winter
Wish I wasn't so easy for people to just let go of.
Well, at the end of the day, one thing remains true: This was a sudden and needlessly vindictively cruel thing done to me in a manner purpose-built to gravely wound me as effectively as can be done based on my personal history and maladaptive anxious beliefs about myself, and it worked, as it traced the precise path of the catastrophising done two weeks prior; which I had wise-minded myself one week prior; into believing were unrealistic fears that did not match up to who I knew someone to be and how they might treat me.
Wish I wasn't so easy for people to just let go of.
well, T-Minus 1 hour until what promises to be a very ~interesting~ conversation with my ex-'codependent situationship'.
that was almost impossibly normal
so turns out their most recent ex - the breakup from whom inspired them reaching out to do a relationship post-mortem 5 years on - is a trans guy i used to hook up with/play DIY shows with 10~ years ago, who just moved back to our old area, and is now housemates with my buddy who's best friend's with my sister and also friends with their (situationship's) other ex who is also close friends with my best friends who live 2 doors down from my other friend (buddy who's BFFs w/ my sister) and those friends (2 doors down) just hosted her (situationship's other ex) for a weekend while they (situationhip's most recent ex) moved into the house with said buddy (sister's BFF).
I won't be "Posting" but cohost dying in the most predictable possible fashion means that my only web outlet is now here.
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Jung Sungyoon (́ •́„±́œ¤): 'Super Segment', (installation views), Whistle, Seoul, July 19 – August 24, 2024 [Images courtesy of the artist and Whistle, Seoul. Photos: Ian Yang]
Happy 94th, Sonny Rollins.
Photo by Michael Ochs.
Frank Lloyd Wright was inspired by an Mayan temple as.,the Ennis House, 1924.
pic by ©Alexander Vertikoff
well, T-Minus 1 hour until what promises to be a very ~interesting~ conversation with my ex-'codependent situationship'.
that was almost impossibly normal
Instagram credit: exploringedinburgh
well, T-Minus 1 hour until what promises to be a very ~interesting~ conversation with my ex-'codependent situationship'.