Not to be evil and radical on main but I fully think porn should be like so so able to be accessed, legal and consensually made porn is actually the most important thing in the world. Y'all wanna say the body is a temple and then get weirded out by sex, you disgust me, love the body in its entirety or not at all.
I think so so much about the idea of phm being one of the only *happy* statements in the archives, how would it get there, no fucking idea just let me romanticize this stupid au okay???!
Anyways I argue phm would be The Extinction bc of the plot but the horror of the film itself comes from The Vast so Idk which fear would actually be the one in control, I'd like to think The Extinction though
not to be weird on main but I hate hate hate how I'm like kinda really attracted to my friends, I love them as friends yes, and hell I've dated one or two and it broke off clean and nice. One of my friends, who is also my ex, I have started to fall for again, and I have no intention on acting on this, but it's weird to feel because honestly, I didn't feel like this when we were dating, so why now???
Doesn't help that another person I'm kinda into is never going to date me, and that's okay and fine I just wish they would break up with their current partner because they are low-key miserable in the relationship. Again not saying that they should break up and get with me, I think those two should just be friends and not date but it's not my place so....
I have like one normal crush and its a friend of a friend So it's not like world shattering but I'm also never acting on it bc there is no world where he would like me back lol, fun little juggling act I have going on rn
is there a name for the mental illness that makes me yearn to be put down like a dog everytime I get too happy, this feels like it is not The Normal Experience(tm) when it comes to having emotions
Okay motm update goes fucking crazy, nort and fly out-fucking-did themselves and now I'm gonna go cry thank you. Anyways cw for suicidal ideation and extreme depression under the cut, bc I have to talk about cuphead again
I am glad that astro was able to actually step in and give him something nice to dream about, even though that memory seemed to be bittersweet at best too and I will dissect it later. But the scene with different versions of cuphead playing Russian roulette is going to be my main yapping point in this post at least,
Also to clear up my yapping I am going to refer to the different cuphead by their ages range ( + brother) but young adult cuphead refers to the one in the suit while just cuphead is the one that is like current times (I know they would both be young adults, (I imagine young adult being probably early twenties if not like 18-19) but I gotta separate them somehow).
The first shot being of young adult is really interesting, and the fact that he seems so afraid of where he lands, which is a giant roulette table, and the outfit plus the fact that it seems very reminiscent of the king dice battle suggests that there was a brief time that cuphead worked for the casino, or at the very least, was at it for a long enough time to probably get recognised by a few people. Which likely lead to a fight breaking out and who fucking knows how that ended, but if his mind is supplying him with that memory right after falling asleep while being in a lot of pain, probably means it didn't end too well for him. Something else is that young adult has diamonds for pupils, which is certainly odd but again suggests (to me) that he had some time being under the devil. My running idea is that young adult either is a actual time in cuphead's life when he was working at/visiting the casino, or that young adult represents what could have been if he and mug didn't do mercenary work. I'm leaning much more to the idea that it was an actual time in his life but the pupil thing kinda makes me think that young adult is not like an actual version of cuphead. Having young adult fall through the roulette table, only to land in this dark void and Immedently be shot and killed is so brutal and I love the imagery. And cuphead doesn't even look upset, he just seems bored, like he was waiting for this to happen with annoyance.
Cup seemingly snaps out of this little daze and we pan out to see three other figures (and young adults dead corpse on the ground) which are all in handcuffs and the other three have hoods on, like you would do leading a criminal to an execution. Young adult didn't have a hood and neither does cuphead. Anyways cup goes to pull one of the hoods off of the one behind him, which is kid, and blood comes pouring out from the bag, soaking kid in it. Kid looks up at cuphead and is crying and this is a fucking call back to chapter one right after cup got shot, mug started having a memory of when he lashed out at cup and kicked him out to go get the contracts himself. Time seemingly passed and mug was tweaking out, anyways the scene ends with him opening the door to see cuphead, covered in blood and crying, and asking if mugman still loved him. Kid is crying and clearly scared and doesn't even say anything the whole time, just has his head bowed in seemingly defeat and the other three fight, I imagine this is probably supposed to be him after his first fight, shell shocked and unresponsive, the first actual break in cuphead's mental state. Which would lead him down the path of thrill seeking and self-destruction, probably chasing that feeling of the first life he took.
Teen interrupts cuphead and kid by ripping off his hood and announcing "it's okay! Don't worry, the fun part is coming!" Which I took as implying as his turn in the roulette game they seemed to be playing, each lined up for their turn to play the game of life and death. Teen's careless behaviour is probably him at his most "thrill seeking" phase, which I can assume he probably played this exact game a few times over the years to get a kick, if the idea of the 'winning streak', which was mentioned both in the prologue and here in this little sequence. My guess is that he probably played Russian roulette a few times and didn't die, leaving him with a winning streak which cuphead then mentioned later when Boris refused to shoot him, because in that moment he didn't know Boris, he did know if he was going to shoot, he was literally playing Russian roulette then and once again didn't die. Teen also throws a bit of a fit when brother skips him in line, seemingly upset that he didn't get a chance to risk his life again and get that little thrill when it comes to winning. Teen, to me, seems to be the first time cuphead probably played Russian roulette, or something similar, where his life was on the line but he lived and was upset about that. Teen is probably more a representation of cuphead's adrenaline junkie time when he would seek out trouble and extreme danger. But I like to think that everyone (minus brother) represents a specific event in cuphead's life so just roll with me.
Brother skips over teen and goes to immedently to shooting cuphead, which the barrel is empty, and he announces "Winner!". Interestingly, he isnt broken here and is showing up to cuphead (reminder that brother is a hallucination by Mugman that represents this idea of cuphead) which means that both him and mugman likely have a similar opinions of himself. Brother isn't bound in this shot, he doesn't have the handcuffs anymore and has a regular gun, not the straw gun. He also puts up zero fight when cuphead tries to take the gun, just kinda let's him take it and start firing it. Cuphead's chains also break once he takes the gun which is neat, and as he's trying to kill himself the gun is completely empty, the only bullet in there being used on young adult, so there's no bullet that comes and kills him. Cup gets pissed that the gun won't fire and tosses the gun to the void as he is now standing on a ledge with no bottom to the void below him in sight. The other three are gone and now cuphead is just with Astro, who seems so genuinely worried about him. Astro comments that cuphead's dreams are scary, which is fair because that Russian roulette scene was upsetting, and says he tried to bring cuphead to a place that would calm him, but that place turns out to be a fucking cliff. He is calmed by the idea of dying.
Not to get all personal but when I severely depressed one of the things that comforted me in the face of feeling like a complete fuck up, was the idea that none of this mattered because one day I'm going to die. The scene with him sitting on the edge, staring down into the void and astro mentioning that this place "calms" him, I can't help but think it's the same thing. Repeatedly in motm cuphead is shown to have zero self preservation instincts, throwing himself into as much danger as he could before he finally actually dies because he sees himself as a massive fuck up. So of course he is comforted by the idea that someday he won't be a bother to everyone around him, especially mugman.
Thank you for coming to my ted talk, sorry if this makes no fucking sense, I read the updates and had to talk about it lol. Nort and fly have genuinely given me brain rot with motm and i have to talk about it or i die
please proceed with caution, under the cut I talk about episode nine of tadc, love yall and finding want to ruin it for anyone but I desperately need to talk about it
Are you sure? Okay, yapping begins now
oooh the shippers got FED with this episode, I think it was a really beautiful way to end the show and I'm so fucking happy Caine got to be happy
That being said I have a few.... critiques, Jax abstracting off screen felt a little like a cop-out, I think it could have worked a little better with no narration by Pomni, where instead it was just a hard cut to him being abstracted, or show him abstracting if you wanted to keep the narration. Also I LOVE the in his mind scene, great part of storytelling, I do wish that his death was more... fitting? Just getting flash banged felt almost silly and like a 'oh shit we need to end this scene' instead of a proper send off. Also I wish there was an explanation for why the circus finally got back to colour? Did the people do that or was that Caine coming back, how did Caine get out?
My only other major issue with the episode was that Pomni saying what everyone's life was like in the real world at the end felt a little weird, I think it would have worked better with everyone narrating their own life but that is personal opinion.
I do absolutely love the bit where Caine is in the void, separating from Able and having to fight his way to the internet, and how he has to problem solve and then learns about everyone's life. Ugh how I love him so much! That's my boy! Anyways I also really really loved the ending shot with all the people around, getting to see everyone be together without even really realizing was so amazing and ahhh kinger has kids and a wondrous wife and oh my god my BABY. Caine got to be happy, truly, he got to be seen and loved and I genuinely cried a little at the end with him getting to be happy because I just relate to him a crazy amount and going through a depressive episode and then getting to watch a character you kin get to be happy gives you a little hope for the future.
Due to the logic of batdr and how the ink world can exist in a parallel to the real world, motm and tma can all exist in the same universe and it be completely logical
Actually, let's just keep going!
Motm exists as the ink world to tma
Supernatural is just what happens in America in tma
Digital circus is made by C&A in America too
Mouthwashing is a fear domain of the extinction
Sfawtde/dawtde & Aregect are both manifestations from the web
And all of this can exist in the SAME universe without it actually being too crazy, all of my hyperfixations are connected you don't even understand, also any motm aus can just be different cycles of the ink world, I could go on for hours and connect so many things to one world, oh my god I'm insane
Somewhere else au where Jon and Martin get up in America, the story beats happen the same but now they are gay from the start and they have guns do you see my vision
Welcome to me having an stoke over a Tumblr ask series, once again I must remind y'all that I do not know any sort of dandys world lore, also all of this is me just fucking yapping.
Cuphead is hopefully going to get his body back, which would be nice but I do kinda hope they explore the tiny ghost form first, I just want to know what is up with that and why doing the possession thing caused that to happen.
I do where they have been keeping mugman while they dealt with cup, because I HIGHLY doubt he would just.... leave him willingly alone. There is no way he is not being like locked in a room or something to keep him away from the medical staff so they can do their jobs.
Also... what happened between dandy and shelly??? It has me worried that she seems so... scared or embarrassed by it, and I do wonder how the gang will be able to convince her to leave gardenveiw with them. And I was right, everyone in gv seems to be very isolated from the rest of the world, and are all a bunch of antisocial guys, which means they probably don't know much of what's going on outside and also, more importantly, do not know about the collectors, which is good for mug and cup but is also kinda really funny to me that they just have basically serial killers in their place and have no idea, and have been actively pissing one of them off.
DYLE MY SON WHERE IS HE, where are they keeping dyle because he's not exactly room sized anymore, and I can't help but imagine he's probably still a little violent, where are they keeping him.....
I know that people want to ask the gv gang questions and focus on cup and mug but I am really itching to know what's going on with the b-bros, also bendy actually admitting he's a bad person is wondrous, thank fuck he's self aware, but I do wonder how Boris might react if he told him the truth about what happened with dyle,
Thank you for coming to my ted talk, I'm stupid and brain rotted and I need to yap sometimes
Oh joys the boys are fighting, this will end well I'm sure. Neither of them will do anything reckless because they are both level headed and calm all the time. This will be fine
So so so I have ONE MORE DAY and then I'm FREE, I'm taking few days off from work too to I will be successfully recovered from school burn out and I'll have awhile to write the fanfic, hope y all are ready for a lot of not talking about feelings :D
