non @nonsal - Tumblr Blog

hello! welcome to my blog! :D

im non/maty. im borderline, so please be patient with me :')

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my current interests:

deltarune (i <3 spamton)

the magnus archives (i <3 martin blackwood)

the magnus protocol

disco elysium (i <3 harry du bois)

i like to draw! my art tag is #gehnon art

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other tags:

#non rambles (my thoughts on various topics)

#non labels (labels i resonate with and feel like they explain my complex feelings on myself and my identity)

#gehnon art #non rambles #non labels #actually bpd #intro post #non sketch #gehnon doodle

buwheal

so anyways thinking about. the pinup. i dont think he is actually that wonderful and fat and round (exception of his gut ❤) in his situation.... and also thinking about. his Eyes. He was hard to draw without his glasses because it felt Wrong and Evil to do.. THATS NOT HIM!!

#love love love how you draw him!!!#his ponytail in the upper image #wonderful #his large cheeks #brings a tear to my eye #love him #spamton #deltarune fanart #and the teeths and jaw as well #fav spamton design!!

ecto-hazard

genuinely cannot get over how much tenna's size changing with emotions resonates w me. like thats just how it feels. i cant just feel anything normally. i cant just be sad or exhausted im Small and pathetic and need to be held by someone. i cant just be angry or stressed im Big and take up too much space and cant hide away from anyone. emotional dysregulation representation at its finest imo

#i can relate as well #tenna #deltarune

eurovamp

Sometimes I think about the time I mentioned that I thought Spamton could not successfully participate in cryptocurrency because he is canonically a failure at scamming others and people took this to mean I was saying he was too moral to do it. And it's like 'no no, he would if he could. He would do anything to make money and you know, not be homeless, but he can't'. This isn't about morality, it's about, ability The man tried to make an NFT and it was a piece of paper he put his face on and described as fungible instead of non fungible so you know....not an actual NFT

He failed to make one. He just can't grasp the concepts correctly which is...why he lives in the trash without the phone. But the level of like 'um of course he would' made me feel like people are almost....emotionally invested in him as a successful conniving scammer? I can't explain it as anything else

#spamton #deltarune analysis

im so deep in my fixation on "my comfort character" that im forgetting spamton is an antogonist who does bad things and scams people... i have to replay chapter 2 and read more analysis on his character to remind myself!!!

#im so fucking scared of mischaracterisation #i tend to woobify my favs #non rambles #~spamton

im away from home, so i couldnt celebrate spamton's birthday with my spamton plush... he's home alone :'(

#non rambles #~spamton #modifying the tag bc i don't want to tag it #with the main tag #but i still want to blog abt him

happy birthday, spamton!!! (one day late...)

my favourite character for the last 8-9 months. he's so complex and interesting!! i wish he could feel how much he affected and charmed all his fans, maybe feeling slightly less bound by the narrative of a failed bussinessman...

#shitty sketchbook sneo with shitty acrylic markers #i forgot his heals #non sketch #sneo #spamton

today i brought my spamton plush to therapy and talked abt him (bc she asked abt him)... afterwards she said "hm, interesting..." and wrote down some notes lolll

#non rambles #when she asked me it was like as if a sleeper agent was activated #also the plushie thing wasnt weird bc ive been bringing my BPD plush for a while #~spamton

electricdreams-84

Dear Angel,

#ough this hurts me #he was so devoted and hoping for freedom :((#i love the atmosphere!!#deltarune fanart #spamton

yesterday my mother called FRIEND beautiful...

new deltarune fact: FRIEND is beautiful

(i was trying to draw sprite accurate FRIEND for practice)

#deltarune #device friend #image friend

boogerboyfunhouse

doodles from the Evil Fucking Math Class

such fun guys

this one is from my Heavenly Divine Free Time rather than that wretched class

#i love spamton neo!!!#deltarune fanart #spamton #tenna

all the recent news, for the past few years are making me really hopeless and its making it difficult for me to go on. i know im mostly recovered from the worst of my mental health issues but i still feel really hopeless abt the future

i dont even find any motivation for drawing, my only hobby. everything feels pointless

#vent #bpd #non rambles

monstriframinerva

do you all see the vision. transgender everyone

btw all transfem ralsei evidence is from this video!! theres a lot more evidence in the video than in this chart, so definitely go and give this video a watch!!