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i just gonna leave a TRIGGERWARNING right here . So this is my personal blog where i write and post anything i like and dont like . from anime to my deepest thoughts and prayers amen . Stay well ! something to us : we are fine . just needing some sleep and fruitloops apperently . 22 yo. they them .

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When it comes dowm to try new meds...

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I stopped takeing my adhd meds after experienceing something like " no shame " . It was frighteneing for me . Like no.. two people asked me before " what ? Did you walk around naked in the city ? " nah . It was more like i screamed a funny sentence in the store and felt no shame . I was loud . People stared and looked at me . And i just made a face back . It also didnt help anymore . So i decided i stop . Since then i have one depressive episode after the other . Its almost two weeks since i took it last time . Bit i feel like crap . Maybe its realy jist an episode . But i feel shit . I screamed at myself what a pussy i am for not ending myself today . For fucks sake . I feel misreable . My fiance is there to help me .. my child is here ( wich i hsve to help bit i cant .) I cant look at my mother and i rather stay alone for a while . Wich i cant . I am seeing things again from stress . And they wanns raise my anto depressent dosage . To 75mg sertralin . I hope its okay . Otherwise i will likely fuck up . Wish me luck or something .

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Its REDICIOLOUS. On how much better i feel with a low dose of MPH . Like... i was .. shakeing on the inside like i was on something . Like drugs or shit . While i was tired. And i took it and i feeeel so calm inside now... rediciolous .

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Lets see if she grows on .

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2.5 mg methylphenidat felt okay today. My uncalm in chest was a lil better . Not gone tho . Im hopeing for it to mormalize .. when my body got used to the pill again...😣 im angry because it did helo me . Mostly with my anger and impulsivity . And that was so oerfect as a single mother . And i wasnt robotoc either... so im jist oraying for normalization .

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Today i felt offish on my methylphenidat . I only took 2.5 mg . But it didnt do anything .. besides give me a bit of a heart rate... i think i have to decide between the pill and the adhd pills... but i jist try again .. not tmrw.. i wont take it tmrw . ( doc said ok called him up .) Its gonna be 35 degree tmrw and i dont do well in heat anyways .. my doctor also buyd me a pack of lithium 5mg . So hes gonna give that to me next appointment . Hes realy nice like that... so he said i can take ome day lithium . And the other medikinet no biggy :3

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Today is a New Day ! Decided further lower my medikinet ( methylphenidat) from 10mg to 5mg . To give my body a good space from the slinda 4mg pill , i did had a chapuchino in the morning just now at 8 am . I will take my medikinet at 11:30 am .

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A soft reminder to always listen to your body ! I have ADHD and take methylphenidat 10mg in the morning and in the mid day since my body gets rid of it in about 3 hours . ( i take retard ) i recently started to take 5mg at around 4 pm . It was always without any problems but today was diffrent . I had the feeling i dont realy need the third dose , but out of fear i could be quite unstable in the rebound i took it anyways . Turns out my body was warning me about this . I had heart raceing , a short panic attack and overall i felt verry overdosed . ( awake etc . Wich is usually not the case for me at all . As i tend to get calm and my inside rush starts to vanish on MPH .) These symptoms faded in the first hour luckly . But im still a bit on edge . Always listen to your body about these things , even if the medicine helps you usually , there are warn signals that your body dose not want it . Today was also a verry hot day .. wich could have indicated to this outcome . ( starting the pill slinda 4mg again too today ) . I will take it as usual tomorrow 10mg at 11:30 and 10 mg 3 hours later . And thats it . I think my body is alright with this only . And i will comsult my doctor about this . Dw . Have a good day ! And stay safe .

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I started beef because i wanted to make someone angry . Not feel bad . Yeah thats the only time i ever did this that was incredibly childish and mean . Ayyy .. instead of trying to have a conversation in the first place . And when i notoced how bad i was 🤡😮‍💨 . Yeah . Never again . But i liked the answers . I realy hope they get help . Got blocked tho .

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Yo guys im back. And im changeing this block to a vent block . Get depressed if you want.

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Terry Pratchett understood time blindness

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What ?

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This is beautiful .

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My cat just tried to murder me..

This is him

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Boooshh.. my vent account got banned :( . I wasnt even promoting anything . Just venting . Common tumblr .i stop posting memes that get my mood right .

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Spooky season ~♡

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I am realy scared of myself and everyone around me right now ..

Also i picked delicious Apples With the Dog im careing for sometimes and my daughter . That was .. actually fun .. ! But i think i fucked Up when she Had a Nightmare and i was to scared to actually Help her .. because she screamed at me .. and i got so scared... Im sorry ..

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