There will be a day.

This is a place where I feel like I can exhale or bleed out my thoughts without speaking. Genuine happiness is my prey. I want to connect with people, learn new things, experience adventure in both the light and darkness. Give me a chance and be patient. It will be worth it.

[nostalgic-reflection]

It is 2:17Am as I start this on February 15th, 2021.

Krissy Lazelle,

I love you with every part of me. You have made me a better person and I want to continue to get better but with you. I want to grow our relationship into the best there is. You are my everything and you mean the absolute world to me. You are my queen. The love and care you have shown and given me is beyond anything I could of ever imagined. You showed me life, love, care, dreams, and most importantly what it is like to conquer a world with a significant other. I do want to marry you. Forever and always. I appreciate you so much. You’re absolutely incredible. You’re talented and so good at everything you do when you put your mind to it. You destroy obstacles in your way. You inspire me. I want this to last forever.

Unfortunately you broke up with me. I can’t stop the pain, and nor can you. I keep playing in my head where I went wrong and all the things I could have done to make it better. I wish I would have told you I loved you sooner. I wish I never said that I wasn’t sure if I could give you what you wanted. You’ve protected your heart from me.. because I hurt you over a period of time by keeping you unknown about the future. You feel like you wasted your time. Holy shiiiiitttttt.. I’m hurting.. but I’m hurting because I hurt you so much and I wish so badly that we had stayed together. 2021 was going to be the year.. we were gonna fight out of covid and continue to be together. I had faith, I had hope... but I guess I made you lose yours. It’s been 3 weeks and I still cry a lot. I really am disheartened by how this all went.. and I do blame myself a lot.

I’m not mad, I’m just hurt. I hope you find a way through what you are going through if it is anything.. and find a way back to me. I’ll always be here for you, and I’ll be ready with open arms should you ever need me again. Please. I miss you so much. 😭 I love you so much. I really really really do. Why would I ever settle now, when I’ve had the best. I promise you, there’s no one I’d rather be with. There’s just no shot. I hope to see you back one day... and that you’ll remember everything we had together. I love you. I love you. I love you.

[doddleville-deactivated20170829]

I know I’m better off without you but i still miss you…

(via doddleville)

[nostalgic-reflection]

Some people are subconscious bitches

You’re so nice to them all the time and they got their fake ass higher pitch voice on..

You do nice things for them and they just take you for granted and act like they care one second. Cut that shit out.

You’re not “the Shit” because you’re landing all these great things happening to you. It’s just inflating people’s heads up to make them more of a bitch because they think they can be.

[nostalgic-reflection]

Mods and vaping

[dexterfuckingmorgan]

[skitzymedeanie]

[http-adxh-blog]

I long for that feeling to not feel at all. The higher I get the lower I’ll sink I can’t drown my demons they know how to swim.xx

[letherainefalldown]

[lover-notta-fighter-deactivated]

And eventually time makes you forget about the pain.

C.D. (via lover-notta-fighter)

[nostalgic-reflection]

I hate a lot of things

I just want things to be okay. So much on my mind. Let me find some peace. Please.

[nostalgic-reflection]

Patience

Some day hopefully. Some day.

[drkshade-deactivated20171012]

[lancasterwaters-stars]

Yes. The fundamental mistake I had always made—and that she had, in fairness, always led me to make—was this: Margo was not a miracle.

[declancmkenna]

The town was paper,

                      but the memories were not.

[lancasterwaters-stars]

[stuck-soul]

[loveistheworstkiller]

this is very important