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Snowy spring

Is life really getting worse and worse every year?

We're just drafts of our future selves.

There's no worse feeling than the feeling of loneliness.

Actions speak louder than words, but sometimes, actions are easier.

I'm tired of this life. I can't even read posts here. I'm just scrolling through the feed without trying to understand what is written.

I hope I hear you say that you love me one day.

I feel like everything that makes me go on living is gonna disappear soon.

I pretend to be happy, but I feel like killing myself every minute of my life.

“Nothing haunts us like the things we don’t say.”

— Mitch Albom

Just wanna kill myself, but I can't afford it.

I deserve nothing. I can only destroy.

I'm a waste.

I should die alone.

I'm walking alone, but we could be walking together.

We won't, though.

There's no way forward.

For a long time, I've been living the life I don't want to live. I was driven by the rule "I should", "I have to", "I must", etc.

I was doing what I should, not what I wanted to. I couldn't realize that, though.

Now I realize. I want to stop it, I want to do what I want, and I want to live how I want to.

But I'm afraid I won't.

just a story