Consciousness must Leak.

I spill thought from this cup of insanity

[notionwrites-blog]

Freedom ¿

Growing up I always felt like I needed to prove myself. Due to the constant pressure from family members and family friends. I was called names.

Told I was to skinny and I needed to eat more. Little things that build up over time and cause a boy to grow up to fast, you see I never wish my past would be undone. No I am the person I am today because of the evil that came my way.

Don’t say that words do not hurt because they slice, and words kill. The worst torchere that a person can commit is saying harsh words so purposefully.

I decided to say fuck the planet and I have suffered from it. Being angry is not the answer when you are wronged. That is what the enemy wants. Chaos. Think and think again and then re think what you were just thinking. Then make the choice. Hear my voice and know that I know what pain feels like.

Jumping off that ledge hurts you and then they laugh at you in the after life.

So frantic and in panic you are, just ease, breath.

Think simple and smile with that dimple even when you know you can’t.

Stand and rejoice for you are alive and life is good if you make it.

Forget about society, please forget about society.

Wake up people wake up

[notionwrites-blog]

(:

[notionwrites-blog]

Talk to me

[notionwrites-blog]

It’s been to long for me, I choose to return to my words.

[notionwrites-blog]

This mess that I live in could have came from me. I stress about the man I should be, because the key I don’t have. So I’m locked in.

Born into sin is this life, look how it’s dim. Rarely I win. Never that in my mind, I can not dwell on the past crimes.

All I hope to find is time alone.

[notionwrites-blog]

I just want to be loved, that’s my issue

[notionwrites-blog]

Some time away please

[notionwrites-blog]

I’d like to run away

[notionwrites-blog]

Go fuck yourself

I feel a mood as a cloud that made his home above me.

It’s like the way I am isn’t me but still they judge me.

Speak to me, only I see how the storm leaps to action, grab your jacket, heavy rains and commotion rackets in my place of peace.

Raindrops are the thoughts and they really sprinkle to my mental.

Came off as hot, but cold is where my heart is.

I shiver as I hold a temper of this is the start of my confliction

Outcast because I see it and then choose to walk life different

You people make me sick and I wish for endings..

[notionwrites-blog]

Oh let this cold that came as a wind mold to your skin.

Nearly a million little chills come with real, it’s happened before you know the deal.

Fall in line to find what may?

A flow was the way the mood has fold, please let the light dim.

It’s hard to breath here, this is my home I have formed to it. Above the norm, this storm is like the mouse trap, cheese oh so sweet. Now I’m glued to it.

Accept my blanket of joy, I give it to you.

Reject my depression, I live it. I wouldn’t wish it to you.

Neglected for forever and unprotected so what is settle? I project that I’m nearly slumber, came to a low. The past a flash so fast I now remember.

I was made to roam where there is nothing steady with my home. Forever alone is the way to where I zone but never alone is where my heart will always come.

Disappointed with the outcomes of what my actions have done.

Heavy breathing when I’m in my zen?

Not content when I’m supposed to represent?

Lacking faith, and not wanting to gain.

Flustered with pain, oh how to maintain.

I don’t think anyone understands and that’s why I tuck my brain and I hold this shame

[notionwrites-blog]

Writing gets harder

[notionwrites-blog]

Follow passion, words to the master be passive

[notionwrites-blog]

Never mind what happen. For it’s the next life that matters. Be wise of thy actions.

Bailey James markis

[notionwrites-blog]

I wanna get away

I want to run somewhere, anywhere. I want to go far from here, it’s not that I don’t want to see you. it’s that I have to go.

I am not sure when, things get in the way. My days are filled with worry that I won’t make it to my place.

Solidarity isn’t scary when it’s filled with Farytales and new blank lines to fill I feel that I am only so close, I can almost, be happy.

It’s a room. Away. My days filled with my stage.

This place is a wonderful grey, feel welcome

If I let you near, I got away from fears

I don’t like to show my pain, nor my rage or tears

Yet here it is. Me looking for ends on my page of sin.

Off I go again

[notionwrites-blog]

A little bit

I need you a little bit of you each day

Soft to my lips as it transmits to grey, a fade

black as the night is the home to breathe

I need you a little bit each day

Connection or obsession, I can’t tell but in your love I bathe

Rejection without direction the path I’m slave, but to you a crave

[notionwrites-blog]

Forks in the road

This road you have been walking has nothing to give

Dangerous and Lonely, is that the way you must live?

Two steps from death as you crept through the terror, the issue is the man in the mirror

So why hold a temper?

just forgive and forget, oh never relive what was misgiven, please stiffen and hold your vision before you are forever lost in this self confined prison

-bjm

[notionwrites-blog]

She wants me on the side, she wants to take a trip.

-bjm