calvin

mw vent acc bff 😳

[novennium]

dependency is a curse

[novennium]

Can I ever wash myself clean of the sins committed around me?

[novennium]

i want hamburger helper and a gun

[authoratheart]

YOU ALL WANT ME DEAD

[novennium]

ending on a good note is terrible can you please hate me

[authoratheart]

the universe is sending us signs and we both know it. i try my hardest to ignore them but I'll never stop thinking about you,, I don't think I'll ever have what we had back. I lie about missing you and i lie about hating you, i lie about feeling nothing for you at all and i lie about never wanting you back. I hope one day i move on and i hope i haunt you forever

[authoratheart]

Whenever i try to act normal i feel like an alien coming down to earth to study humans & having to learn all their social cues, tendencies and mannerisms but the alien was only sent down because it was a defect and the others didn't want to deal with it anymore

[authoratheart]

the universe is sending us signs and we both know it. i try my hardest to ignore them but I'll never stop thinking about you,, I don't think I'll ever have what we had back. I lie about missing you and i lie about hating you, i lie about feeling nothing for you at all and i lie about never wanting you back. I hope one day i move on and i hope i haunt you forever

[novennium]

i hate myself so much

[novennium]

it all seemed very mundane. but now, i certainly miss it.

[novennium]

everytime i miss you i feel disappointed in myself

[authoratheart]

Everytime someone tries to befriend me i feel like a stray animal who's been on the streets their entire life who just got brought into a loving home with an abundance of food and treats and warmth but they still run off anyway because they're scared that once the owner kicks them to the streets they won't be prepared for street life again

[novennium]

whole house mad

[novennium]

i wasnt built for human connection honestly

[novennium]

haha sorry for disappearing for 3 months were still chill right

[novennium]

when he says some shit like "you deserve this" but i cant even argue

[novennium]

if the price of being loved is hating myself then im not sure i want it at all