one never knew, after all

[nowdidone]

“recovery”

I almost fainted in the car today. My head has been spinning nonstop. 

Sometimes I forget that bad things happen when I don’t eat.

Sometimes I forget I’m not eating.

[likeafieldmouse-deactivated2015]

[stephaknee]

The Spoonie Life ^

[theloveyourselfchallenge]

[nowdidone]

I need someone shouting this in my ear.

[nowdidone]

and so it begins

my first day of proper recovery has sucked. SUCKED. been in almost constant communication with my doctor, trying to haggle away meal components but she never budges. it took me so long to get through each meal, it seemed like I was eating all day. I honestly have no idea how I'm supposed to do the exact same thing tomorrow. I have a feeling I'm just going to wake up and start crying. I want so badly to talk to my boyfriend about all this, but I don't feel like I can right now. my main goal right now is probably to stay out of inpatient/day treatment.

seriously: how do you guys do this?

[nowdidone]

hello darkness, my old friend

let's talk about eating disorders.

[onlinecounsellingcollege]

As long as you make an identity for yourself out of pain, you cannot be free of it.

Eckhart Tolle (via onlinecounsellingcollege)

[sunlight-spirit]

Nothing like super hot showers to drown your troubles in.

[clarenashphotography]

Riverside

[clarenashphotography]

Molly

[clarenashphotography]

Friends

[katenash]

I wanted to write a blog post about last night because I’ve definitely got a lot more to say than 140 characters.

The last year has been so interesting. It’s been tough, challenging, weird, thrilling, wild, exciting and a storm. You all know what I’ve been up to, what’s changed, what’s been...

[nowdidone]

I went. it was wicked. love you, kate.

[nowdidone]

static on the radio

I've been hearing whispers lately. I've been taking a lower amount of depakote than usual, and I think the voices are starting to creep back in. I want this to stop, now. I've already emailed my doctor. God, I'm so afraid of the voices.

[lightningstump]

the problem with reading a good book is that you want to finish the book but you don’t want to finish the book

[nowdidone]

via On Wanderlusting.

[nowdidone]

new meds

here goes nothing...

[kacidiane]

I love the person I’ve become, because I fought to become her.

Kaci Diane (via sorakeem)

I hope I get here one day.

[enjolras-everdeen-deactivated20]

This is one of the most inspirational stories ever.

[find-y0ur-freedom]

Oh. My. God.

Is this a true story??

[happyzanna-deactivated20150825]

It is indeed. (x) And she’s written a fantastic piece about body image. (x)

EDIT: This is the specific article from which the above story is taken.

[nowdidone]

so awesome.