#invega

[auntbibby]

my medication Abilify that i added to my med regimen is..... mayb helpin me a bit....

so.....

i tried puttin on makeup again....

altho i completly forgot most of what i learnd about puttin on makeup since i havnt done it in so long (or very much overall) becuz of my disabilities

[schizophelia]

June 29, 2025: Journal

Since I’m not doing well, I might ask the ACTT people to see me more often. Jen saw me last week and said they’ll try to see me more often.

I see Jen on Tuesday and Doug on Thursday.

I need to book a blood test to check my CBC now that I’m off the Clozapine. I have to go for 3 more weeks. I hate blood tests.

My friends think I left the hospital too early. I spent 3 1/2 weeks there. I wanted to go home.

Doug is taking me to see the CMHA house for people with mental illnesses. There will be 3 of us I think. It’s a women’s house and it’s geared to income. I know the ladies that live there.

I’m really struggling with lack of motivation, personal hygiene, flat affect, etc.

My thinking is also really slow.

I also want to stop my medicines. I hope my doctor doesn’t make me have injections. I don’t want injections. I think my mom wants to me to have them though. Screw that.

My doctor has me on Abilify and Invega. I also have an Olanzapine PRN (that I haven’t been taking because I don’t want it anymore).

My friends also said that I’ve been hallucinating a lot and have paranoid delusions. My thinking is really slow and I’m really struggling with motivation, personal hygiene and flat affect. My memory is also shit.

I heard patients talking crap about me and my doctor said that the program doctor wouldn’t put up with it. He said that it was the schizophrenia talking. I told him “schizophrenia fucking sucks.” He laughed and said it does.

One of the social workers at the hospital said I looked “disturbed.” The nurses told me to take the Olanzapine PRN when I need it. One of the nurses asked my doctor to keep the PRN as an outpatient (he did).

My mom asked me to feed the dogs and I had to ask what bowl goes to who like 3 times because I couldn’t remember. Sometimes they tell me I repeat myself a lot. I don’t remember though.

The program doctor said I’ll probably always hear voices and stuff. She said the medicine will help lessen things. My doctor said I have to learn to live with my hallucinations like John Nash.

The Invega and Abilify haven’t kicked in yet. My friends said I’m not well.

The nurses usually gave me 10mg of Olanzapine. I can take 5-10mg every 4 hours up to 15mg in 24 hours. My doctor said if I run out of my Olanzapine PRN to call his office for more.

One of the social workers in the hospital has me on the list for CBT-p group sessions. Jen from ACTT is going to do CBT-p again soon one-on-one.

I see my doctor again on July 21st at 10am.

[ididntorderthesoup]

Today I learned some antipsychotics raise your hormone levels in a way that causes lactation...in totally unrelated news I'm switching from invega to latuda. Hopefully it's a better fit.

[lycarael]

At this point I don't know if I should keep my blog name and URL. My psych team said I don't exactly fit the criteria for a psychotic disorder since they now have me on the lowest dose of Invega Trinza and I even smoke weed every day (they also know about this and since I am 25 and live where it's legal are okay with it) but my symptoms haven't gotten any worse, and the fact that I know the things I experienced weren't real, and sort of knew they weren't in objective reality the whole time (the "insight" I mentioned in my last post) made them question the diagnosis I came here with. My next dose of Invega is my last, and while they do think I have a severe case of C-PTSD, major depressive disorder and anxiety resulting from the C-PTSD, and ADHD, they think my (what may not even technically have been) psychosis was a temporary trauma response and not a psychotic disorder. The program I am in has basically told me that I went through things that are considered psychological torture for years, which I knew, and that I never should have been on the medications I was on starting at 5 (not typical ADHD meds--things like Seroquel and antidepressants for "childhood-onset bipolar" which is NOT in the DSM-5). Panic attacks. My parents had me drugged (among other things such as sending someone who is, as far as my psych team can tell not on the autism spectrum, developmentally divergent, or has ever suffered from a severe behavioral disorder, to a school for kids with severe autism, developmental disorders, and behavioral disorders) for having panic attacks because I was bullied a lot due to a medical condition...God, I don't even know how to feel at this point. My therapist has been extremely validating the entire time, but the fact that I was actually right about how fucked up my life has been is also extremely disturbing. I'm going to change the blog name, I think, to something reflecting the fact that I have survived extreme trauma/torture but that is more accurate to what I have been going through. I'm sorry to anyone I may have hurt in unintentionally misrepresenting schizoaffective, I genuinely did not mean to.

[gendont]

my dr told me if i wanted it i needed to deal with the pain. i threw up everywhere.

I'm so sorry you had that experience getting an IUD. I was told I "might" experience some cramping. I don't understand why women are expected to just grit our teeth and bear it for this while every other normal procedure uses anesthetic. Not only is it an easier experience for the patient but it's less dangerous too! I couldn't imagine going through the incapacitating cramps I had while also throwing up. It's so unethical to subject patients to this when anesthetic is available!

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[thetigerlady]

Invega update...

OK. So I've been on invega sustenna for about 3 months now. Of course, haven't seen much of an improvement. Actually, almost as soon as I thought that the docs said it "will" work, the main voice in my head said very distinctly, "I'm not going anywhere! ". I hate that voice. The doc said If it still hasn't gotten better by next month, he will up the dose. Also, started getting some td from this shot. My leg started jiggling all the time, and I started trembling in my hands and such from time to time. Doc started me on Austedo. Of course, I went and looked up austedo uses and side effects, and almost immediately I thought maybe I have Huntington's disease. Lol I should know better than that by now. Anywho, I'll keep y'all updated... ❤️ Jen

[schizophelia]

Started 9mg of Invega today. Sigh.