finally making a pinned post ! the banner contains all of the many moods found on this blog <3
hi i'm nyxi !! certified but semi retired bsd-canon fucker who needs to get less annoying about it but is incapable. currently fixated on stray kids rpf... lord help me. i do also sometimes yap about weak hero, yellowjackets, bbc merlin, lotr, arcane, my ocverse, and hotd & got.
feel free to send dms/asks or come and bother me about anything ever !! ESPECIALLY. if you suddenly get possessed by evil spirits telling you to think about hotd & got. u must share this suffering with me.
my ao3 !!
And a quick summary of some of my fics under the cut ♡
- your autonomy's on a grindstone (my life is in your hands) Soukoku 3 chapters, 11k words, pm era, exploring what would happen if chuuya had been subjected to Q's ability.
- Five times Double Black make a bet, and the one time neither of them lose. Soukoku WIP, mostly an excuse for me to write endless unserious skk arguments tbh. but lots of fun!!
- a leash binds both ways (drag me with you hound, I've nothing to do but follow). 18 soukoku oneshot, 8k words, exploring Corruption, humanity, and the odd balance of skk's relationship through porn. naturally.
- Five things Morgana says twice over, and one thing she'll never repeat. Morgwen during The Dark Tower episode, 7k words, my loveletter to the concept of doomed toxic yuri.
- The unsinging canary. 22skk, 19k words, mission fic plus skk getting haunted by their dead friends. what more could you possibly want?
- Five times Chuuya compliments his partner and the one time it doesn't cause Dazai to malfunction. skk, 40k words, exactly what it says on the tin. my most popular for a reason shes just so funny
- a macabre symbiosis. kousano wound sex, 3k words. randomly got possessed by a freak toxic yuri poet and this was the result <3
I'm following blogs that haven't posted in like eight years but I don't care I shall never unfollow them because I am a true and loyal knight #loyalknight
like the betrayal’s always going to be worse if they cared about you and it didn’t matter. someone discards you because they didn’t give a shit, then you can be angry about that, you can feel vindicated in that, you can get over it. but if they can look you in the eyes and say “I love you. I would make the same choice again.” You will never sleep peacefully again, is all.
“I thought they cared about me, but they were lying this whole time.” <- tired. boring. removes all the nuance of this relationship to make it easier to move on from.
“I thought they cared about me, and I was right, and every minute they were there for me, every time they said they were proud, every laugh we shared leaning against each other bruised and breathless, all of it was real. and they still left me behind. They could put their love aside. I couldn’t.” <- insane. will never leave you alone. reminds you that even the worst people are still people and can still care about even the ones they hurt the most and that undoes neither the harm nor the love.
i really think making a character a hat guy is just so good like any character w design including hat is never normal abt the hat unless its like a uniform sort of hat that everyone wears. anyway i think this is very fun more characters who are a little bit annoying fashionista diva but only abt their hat
you have to make friends online so you can see stuff that reminds you of the kinks and fetishes they have and you can think of them fondly with a little wistful sigh
