chaotic stupid

21. unprofessional girlblogger. lover of antiques, classic literature, and media with easter eggs.

[obsessivelydiaristic]

ok finally making an about me post!

hi, my name is jackie! i'm 21 and graduated spring '24 with a bachelors in history and a minor in french (which i hope to be fluent in one day!). i'm cishet and though i would consider myself an ally, i also feel like that's something one can't decide for themselves tbh.

here's some fun facts about me/my blog!

i've been using tumblr in some form since late 2015, but i've changed blogs a few times! i don't remember exactly when i made this one

i've lived in three states and traveled to/through 46 of them!

i've also traveled to five countries outside the us!

my top 4 on letterboxd: the haunting of hill house, murder on the orient express, band of brothers, and barbie princess and the pauper (although i've been thinking of changing these!)

some fav books: the count of monte cristo (alexandre dumas), burned (ellen hopkins), and a study in drowning (ava reid)

fav artists: been a swiftie my entire life!! i also looove fall out boy! some other favs of mine include halsey, p!atd (problematic fav fr), and marina and the diamonds/marina!

aesthetic: i absolutely love any sort of academia aesthetic, although it doesn't resonate as much since graduating lol. i can honestly get behind any aesthetic but my favs are def coquette/girlblogger, downtown girl/rockstar gf, and euro summer/messy french girl vibes

ok and then some less fun nitty gritty:

i don't think i have any nsfw posts (nor do i necessarily plan on making any), but i'd prefer that minors dni

open to messages/becoming moots but if i seem apprehensive, it's bc all my prior convos with people on here ended up turning sexual :( not only do i have a bf, but i'm NOT sending pics of my bits to strangers on the internet

also open to asks (again, keep it appropriate) bc lowkey i love to talk about myself/my ideas

ok that's all for now :)

[scramratz]

I think people would be less suicidal if they were allowed to talk about being suicidal without risk of being sent to the Torture Dungeon

[achillesinhighheels]

Training my nervous system to choose an unfamiliar heaven instead of a familiar hell

[dragon-in-a-fez]

keep thinking about how I wrote in my dissertation about how every time a new form of public/social space emerges it's immediately popular with kids and teenagers who see it as a chance at freedom and then adults colonise it and kick them out. this happened with malls in the 80s and diners in the 50s and pool halls in the 20s. my dad was doing research on this trend in like 1975. and I was like "yeah so this is going to happen to the internet" and then five years later every government suddenly decided to ban kids from everywhere online. I hate being right especially when I don't even get paid for it

[literaryvein]

L. V., excerpts from the afterword

[lamignonette]

[bardace]

Shut Up, I Don’t Care

[csny]

everymorning: i think im about to die. i think im going to die. im actually going to die. this is it. im going to die. im going to die immediately.

every single night: lock in. OK. Lock In. Change your Life. I love you. Lock in. This is going to be big. I’m going to change the world. Ready? I love you. Lock in. I have an idea. Lock in.

[oldbutchdanielmolloy]

omg you people can do anything

[corvid-language-library]

The sooner you start, the sooner you'll be done with it and the sooner you can stop thinking about it. Go on, up you get, it won't be as bad as you think.

[corvid-language-library]

You won't want to do it later either. You might as well just do it now. Even if you don't finish it all, anything you manage to get done now is something you don't have to do later (when you still won't want to do it)

[radiation-baby]

[digitalmyyth]

pinterest simulator

[depsidase]

[donniehaspronouns]

also (and I feel the need to add this to every AI post) it is incredibly bad for our environment and is actively stealing water away from people’s homes.

you cannot argue away the environmental damage.

[coolthingoftheday]

Trees, like animals, can also experience albinism, though it is extremely rare.

[jumpingjacktrash]

the reason it’s rare is because without chlorophyll, the plant can’t get energy, and dies shortly after sprouting unless it has some other source of food. so if you see a plant as big as the one in the picture that doesn’t have any green in its leaves, it’s getting its nutrition from the roots of a neighboring plant of the same species, feeding on the sugars created by the other plant’s photosynthesis.

albino plants are basically vampires.

[heywetotheotherworld]

For a long time, scientists thought they were parasites, and couldn’t figure out why the bigger plants didn’t release chemicals to kill them.

Turns out, the lil’ ghost redwoods benefit their hosts by filtering toxins and acting as a sort of backup immune system.

They’re vampires, and they’re commensal, symbiotic mutualists!

[carnivalseb]

this is super cool! I had no idea

[monticellomarshmallow]

This is among the coolest things I’ve ever seen.

[weaselle]

we’ve already discovered forests where trees share nutrients with young or disadvantaged trees and forests where trees can ask their neighbors for some extra food (they literally send a signal requesting aid, via the web of fungus that connects their roots) and forests where surrounding tees will keep a tree alive even when it has been reduced to a stump through some tragedy…

so, while i love the playfulness of “vampire” and i commend the specificity of “commensal, symbiotic mutualists” i think it’s worth considering, at this point, if “member of the community” might not be at least as apt

[baybelletrist]

The world is so much more beautiful, fascinating, and complex than we know.

[herssian]

"there is no way you're not using chatgpt for at least a few things here and there no matter your stance on it" what the FUCK are you talking about

[bovineblogger]

this is what i was talking about by the way

[teaboot]

Thinking back to the good early days before my skin grew back when people could shake their heads at me and say "masks are a government conspiracy" and instead of navigating the bullshit like a normal person I could pull mine down and say "I have chemical burns on my face"

[teaboot]

things people expect in a political confrontation:

Facts

Logic

Emotional outbursts

Things they are never prepared for:

Open sores

[headspace-hotel]

This post: "Thinking back to the good early days before my skin grew back"

Me: off to a compelling start