spent my 20s doing fuck all and now I'm trying to do stuff but I'm bad at it. wanna do burlesque but I've got a bum knee now and I'm not as flexible as I was when I was 18 bc I didn't keep up the training. have trouble even liking myself most days bc I was so preoccupied with being "cool" in my 20s that I only thing I liked about myself then was that I could handle hella weed, and now I don't even really like weed anymore. I amassed a collection of cool bullshit but that just feels like it's weighing me down most days. I'm trying to make friends bc I barely have any but I'm so judgemental of everyone, not to their face but still in a way that makes me think I don't want to hang out with them even when I do in fact like them! I'm trying I guess. idk. I was gonna say I hate everyone in this stupid trendy lodo bar but the girl at the bar was sweet to me. there's always glimmers to hang on to


























