a brown haired adventure

dorcas meadowes. sixth year gryffindor. seeker. half blood. couch sleeper and ice cream eater. the clash, firewhiskey and hollyhead harpies enthusiast call me doe.

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

This was not something Dorcas had expected. She had expected him to be angry, nonchalant maybe, but not hurt. In silence, she looked how he moved backwards, how he spoke, seeming sincere. And she knew he wasn’t lying and she knew that she had been when she said she...

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

Watching him like this – confused, tired, exhausted – made her feel uneasy. To see him like this seemed to be a constant reminder that she care about him, so much that her stomach hurt at the sight of him. "I don't know." She said helplessly. "I just want my life back. I don't want to think about not wanting you even though I do, I don't want to think about you hurting Mary, I just.." Her voice trailed and she pushed her lips together, losing all words. "Then run, run and don't look back because I can no longer go on like this." Her voice felt weak, just like her arms and legs and a part of her just wanted to collapse on the floor. She couldn't stand this, the endless confrontations that were supposed to put an end to whatever this was, but only seemed to make everything worse. She was tired, tired of fighting with herself, with feeling angry, powerless.

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[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

She waited a moment before she replied, her tone not completely cold, still having that little break in it. “I regret everything. I regret the good things, the bad things — I regret allowing myself to feel a certain way about you, I regret looking past the rumours, I...

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

This was not something Dorcas had expected. She had expected him to be angry, nonchalant maybe, but not hurt. In silence, she looked how he moved backwards, how he spoke, seeming sincere. And she knew he wasn't lying and she knew that she had been when she said she regretted everything. She didn't, but telling him that would do no good, right? Especially not now. It would be better to just leave it like this, to let it go and give in to what she was supposed to feel, unlike what she really felt. And she pushed herself to say something sassy, to smash his heart in pieces for real, she couldn't bring herself to do it, because she did still care for him — deep down. So she bit her lip, and looked at him, the fire having left her eyes, which were now tired and sad. "Don't say that - please don't." She mumbled softly. "Don't make this worse, just please don't. I can't listen to this, Evan, I can't do this anymore."

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

His words made her head spin. All the guilt and disgust she had been feeling because of what she had done with Evan seemed to be awoken, this time bigger than ever before. Her stomach twisted. “Shut up,” she almost growled, clenching her teeth together. “Shut up, shut...

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

She waited a moment before she replied, her tone not completely cold, still having that little break in it. "I regret everything. I regret the good things, the bad things — I regret allowing myself to feel a certain way about you, I regret looking past the rumours, I regret, somehow and very strangely, that I hurt you." Her voice trailed off and he tried to get herself together, but anger, sadness, confusion and more emotions were streaming her through her, making everything she said feel wrong, but so right too. Tears were silently leaving her eyes and she cursed herself for always crying so easily. "I regret every single thing, Evan. I wish I had never kissed you that one day to prove you wrong, because it fucked my whole life up."

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

Dorcas whirled around and let her hand smack against his cheek loudly. Her cheeks were flushed red, her eyes almost shooting fire as she glared at him in disgust. Shaking her head, she spat at him angrily. “Heartbreak? Don’t fucking lie to yourself, Evan, you are a monster,...

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

His words made her head spin. All the guilt and disgust she had been feeling because of what she had done with Evan seemed to be awoken, this time bigger than ever before. Her stomach twisted. "Shut up," she almost growled, clenching her teeth together. "Shut up, shut up—shut up!" Her eyes were burning but she couldn't cry, she wouldn't cry, not in front of him. "Don't you think I know? That this is all my fault? I fucked everything up, I know! I was stupid and naive and I don't need you to tell me that it's my fault because I am more than fucking aware! It makes me sick to my stomach that I let you touch me, kiss me and that I did the exact same. It makes my stomach twist and my insides hurt and I hate myself for it so you do not have to remind me. So shut up!" Fighting against tears proved to be hard and there was a crack in her voice as she yelled. She felt her chest tighten at his laughter and his smirk. "Perfect. Fucking perfect."

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

"I have not been properly fucked since my summer vacation." She snapped back, narrowing her eyes. Her lips were thin and Dorcas had to suppress the urge to slap him for that comment, anger heating up her entire body when at the same time it felt like ice cold water…

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

Dorcas whirled around and let her hand smack against his cheek loudly. Her cheeks were flushed red, her eyes almost shooting fire as she glared at him in disgust. Shaking her head, she spat at him angrily. “Heartbreak? Don’t fucking lie to yourself, Evan, you are a monster, you lack a heart. Stop acting so goddamn pathetic and just leave me the /fuck/ alone!” At this point she was almost yelling, frustrated because of the whirlwind of emotiona rushing through her and the fact that his words not only angered, but also hurt her.

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order of the phoenix part one

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

"If I would accept your offer, I would probably use your alcohol to drink myself to sleep. Or death, which is at least better than the other things you’re talking about. Piss off, Rosier."

[evanaresrosier-blog]

Pretty pissed now Evan rolled his eyes at her and grit his teeth. “Looks like...

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

"I have not been properly fucked since my summer vacation." She snapped back, narrowing her eyes. Her lips were thin and Dorcas had to suppress the urge to slap him for that comment, anger heating up her entire body when at the same time it felt like ice cold water streamed through her veins. "Killing a cousin, torturing a close friend – it's all very similar, you dick. But I don't expect you to know that, seeing you miss a brain that works properly." She huffed and turned around to walk away, raising a middle finger.

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

[forevermarlenemckinnonold]

"Or maybe you’re just a drama queen and an alcoholic," Marlene chuckled. "Ah, yes, all of those things are the bane of my existence. Did you exams really go that badly that you’ve restored to pulling a Marlene and getting drunk off your arse? Although, at least when it’s my time of the month I make up for all the associated nastiness by being an even bigger bitch than usual. It’s quite satisfying, really. Shame about your fatal illness, but at least when you finally cark it I won’t have to share my alcohol anymore," Marlene teases with a grin.

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

Nope, that’s you, the drama queen alcoholic.” Dorcas pointed out with a grin. “And no, I didn’t ruin them, or so I think - see, I revise unlike some people,” she gave Marlene a knowing look, smirking afterwards. “I just don’t like the stress that comes along. And I know, you don’t have to remember me I those five horrible days I have to live through each month. Horrible. And psshh, you wouldn’t last two seconds without me, so don’t act cocky.”

[forevermarlenemckinnonold]

"Someone’s impatient," Marlene chuckled as she pulled out both items from her bag and handed them over. "Care to tell me what’s driving you to such desperate measures, Doe?"

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

"Maybe, I am badly ill and my life is depending on these two petty things. Would you risk that? My life? Hurry, woman." Doe chuckled before shrugging. "Exams, boredom, I don’t know. Cravings that come along with periods.. My fatal illness."

[evanaresrosier-blog]

"Your disadvantage that you’re not talking to me, seeing as I could provide you both. And more."

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

"If I would accept your offer, I would probably use your alcohol to drink myself to sleep. Or death, which is at least better than the other things you’re talking about. Piss off, Rosier."

[jlot-memories]

Dorcas and Marlene on holiday

Taken by a charmed camera

[forevermarlenemckinnonold]

O Macbeth. Figure it out. Don't kill me.

Prompt: O macbeth, write about my character killing yours.

Pairings: Platonic!Dorlene, mentions of mcrosier & mcmalfoy

Warnings: Mentions of abuse/torture, character death general hearbreaking sadness

Word Count: 2556

Under cut due to length. Mar I tried not to kill you please don’t hate me.

I won’t run, I won’t flyI will never make it byWithout you, without youI can’t rest, I can’t fightAll I need is you and I,Without you, without youI won’t soar, I won’t climbIf you’re not here, I’m paralyzedWithout you, without youI can’t look, I’m so blindI lost my heart, I lost my mindWithout you, without you

Without You - Glee Version

Blood was everywhere; it splattered the alabaster walls red, and forever stained the ice cold floors with a dull burgundy. The temperature in the room was so cold, and the tension was thick enough to be cut with a knife. Outside, a storm raged on, thunder booming . The wind whistled eerily through the slightly ajar window, darkening the already tense atmosphere and heightening the fear of the two girls in the back corner of the room.

Both girls were huddled against the wall, both were drenched in their own sweat and blood with tears streaming down their ashen faces. Hours upon hours of torture they had endured; partly because they were order members and partly because of their connections to Evan Rosier and Lucius Malfoy; two of Voldemorts’ most prized death eaters. Their relationships with Dorcas and Marlene respectively were, to the Dark Lord, unnecessary distractions that needed to be dealt with. Despite that, they hadn’t said a word apart from their screams, sassy smart alec retorts and the occasional plea for mercy. Neither would ever reveal Order secrets. Neither would ever be sorry for being their boys’ humanity. Neither would ever give up without a fight.

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[peterpettgrw]

"How’s it going, Dork?"

"Sirius, you’re either going to call me Dorcas or I’m going to use the Horn Tongue Hex I found in the library last week. Mind you, the book’s a thousand years old, so I don’t know the countercurse."

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s):

"Okay, so Marlene's hair is amazing - like holy shite, it's not even okay how amazing it is. I am convinced she keeps it so pretty with a billion spells, but she keeps saying that it's natural. Bollocks. Another thing about Marlene, is that she's a stupid fuck who keeps telling herself not to cry, and tries to be a big girl all the time, which guess what, you amazingly-haired idiot? You don't have to be. You're sixteen. Oh! Also, she's an amazing kisser, like it's insane. I mean, most kisses without feelings are complete shite, but those with her are pretty great. Mm, another thing about Marlene, is that she is one of the most amazing people I know and I seriously would not know where I'd be without her. We're the two badasses from this school, we definitely beat James and Sirius with our friendship and awesomeness, everyone knows that. And lastly, the most important thing about Marlene, is that I love her quite a lot and will go to the end of the world to make sure she's okay and alive."

[ofdoesandmeadowes]

194-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for?

Dorcas laughs and puts her hands together. "Mm, a mass murder, torture.. Everything." She snorts. "Probably for robbing a candy store, or something. I'm too nice to do bad things."

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Personal

1-How are you? 2-Post a picture of yourself. 3-Do you ever wish you were someone else? 4-What is your entire name? 5-How old are you? 6-Age you get mistaken for: 7-Your zodiac/horoscope and if you think it fits your personality: 8-What did you do on your last birthday? 9-What is one thing you would like to accomplish before your next birthday? 10-What is your hair color? 11-Have you ever dyed your hair? 12-What is your eye color? 13-If you could change your eye color, would you? 14-Do you wear contacts/glasses? 18-Do you have any tattoos? 19-Do you have any piercings? 20-Left or right handed? 21-What’s your sexual orientation? 22-Do you drink? 23-Do you smoke? 24-Do you have any pets? 25-Where do you work? 26-Something you are working on right now: 27-Do you have any “rules” about food? 28-Where are you from? 29-What would you say is your best quality? 30-What do you think you’re really good at? 31-What do you think you’re really bad at? 33-Are you a bad person? 34-Are you nice to everyone? 36-Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you? 37-What is your ideal bed? Why? 38-Did you wake up cranky? 39-Do you sleep with a stuffed toy? 40-What do you think about the most? 42-What you want to be when you “get older”? 43-What are your career goals? 44-What is your ideal career? 45-Is your life anything like it was two years ago? 46-Do you replay things that have happened in your head? 47-Have you ever had an imaginary friend? 48-Say 10 facts about your room: 49-Do you have any phobias? 50-Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist? 51-Are you allergic to anything? If so, what? 52-Ever broken any bones? 53-Ever come close to death? 60-Do you have a facebook? If so, would you add the person who sent you this? 61-Do you have any pictures on your Facebook? 62-Describe yourself in one word/sentence: 63-A quote you try to live by: 64-A famous person you’ve been compared to: 65-Weird things you do when you’re alone: 66-Something you do without realising: 68-Someone you’d like to be for a day and why: 69-Leave me a compliment:

Favorites

70-What is your favorite thing to do? 71-What’s your favorite color? 73-What’s your favorite movie? 74-What are your favorite books? 75-What is your favorite quote and why? 76-What is your favorite word? 77-What is your least favorite word? 78-What is your favorite type of food? 79-You favorite ice cream? 80-What’s your favorite animal? 81-Dogs or cats? 82-Describe your favourite texture: 83-What is your favorite flower? 84-What’s your favourite scent? And on the opposite sex? 85-What is your favorite season? 86-What are the top five places you wish you could go before you die? 87-What are four things you can’t live without and why? 88-Which mythological creature are you most like? Why? 89-What’s your favorite television show? 90-Favorite place to shop at? 91-Say 2 facts about your favorite things:

Friends

106-Would you ever smile at a stranger? 107-Do you prefer to be friends with girls or boys? 108-Who is someone you never tire of? 109-Do you have someone you can be your complete self around? 110-Who is your most loyal friend? 111-Is there anyone you can tell EVERYTHING to? 112-If your best friend died, what would you do? 113-Something you’ve lied about. 114-Have you ever felt replaced? 115-Say 5 facts about your bestfriend(s):

Relationships

116-The last person you hugged? 117-Story of your first kiss? 118-Do you like kissing in public? 119-Have you ever kissed someone older than you? 120-You have a preference for boys or girls? 121-Is the male or female body closest to perfection? 127-What is the first thing you noticed in someone? 128-Are looks important in a relationship? 129-What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for? 130-What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships? 131-Would you ever date someone off of the Internet? 133-Do you have a crush on anyone? 134-A description of the girl/boy you like: 135-Say 1 fact about the person you like: 136-If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say? 137-When was the last time you told someone you loved them? 138-Do you think someone has feelings for you? 139-Do you think someone is thinking about you right now? 140-Have you ever cried over a guy/girl? 141-Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have? 142-Anyone you’re giving up on? 143-Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to? 144-Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated? 145-Have you ever liked one of your best friends? 146-Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you? 147-Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for? 148-Is there someone you will never forget? 153-What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you? 154-What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you? 157-Are you in love? 158-Are you in a relationship? 159-If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her? 160-Are relationships ever worth it? 161-Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are? 162-Can you commit to one person? 163-Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat? 164-Do you ever want to get married? 165-Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years? 167-Do you get jealous easily? 168-The last time you felt jealous, and why? 169-What is your definition of cheating? 170-Have you ever been cheated on? 171-Do you forgive betrayal? 172-Have you ever cheated on someone? 173-Why did your last relationship fail? 174-Things you want to say to an ex: 175-A description of the person you dislike the most: 176-If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept? 177-How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had? 178-How long was your longest relationship? 179-You’ll love me if… 180-Share a relationship story:

Music, movies and books

181-How often do you listen to music? 182-What kind of music you like? 183-Do you like to dance? 185-Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? 186-Share a song that takes you to a certain memory in the past: 187-A song that’s been stuck in your head: 188-Put your music player on shuffle and write the first ten songs that play: 189-A book you want to read/have recently read: 190-Describe your dream library: 191-Last movie you just watched: 192-Do you like watching what type of movies?

Situations and crazy things

193-You’re in a tattoo parlor about to get inked. What are you getting done? 194-What’s something you can see yourself going to jail for? 195-If you could be any character, from any literary work, who would you choose to be? 196-You’re given $10,000…under one condition: you cannot keep the money for yourself. Who would you give it to? 197-If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be? 198-If you were an element on the Periodic Table, which would you be and why? 199-If you had to delete one year of your life completely, which would it be? 200-You’re an Action Movie Hero. What’s your weapon of choice and the line you scream when defeating your arch enemy? 201-If you could design an amusement park ride, what would it be like? 202-What is the first curse word that comes to mind? 203-What the last party you went to was… and when the next will be… 204-Halloween costume idea? 205-How you’d spend ten thousand bucks? 206-Press ctrl+v and post: 207-Would you rather be stranded on a desert island with someone you love for ten years or someone you hate for a month? Explain why. 208-5 things within touching distance: 209-A drunken story: 210-What are you supposed to be doing right now? 211-Currently wanting to see anyone? 212-Why you follow me? 213-If you met me what would you do? 214-Leave me a ridiculous question: 215-Leave me a cute message:

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