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I made an even newer intro to cope: 

Overly intense, overly emotional, talks too much, something like a party. 

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Pronouns: Que/quir/quir/ques/quirself, sae/sair/sair/sairs/sairself, zombie neopronouns, and zombie nounself pronouns. I'm willing to get more pronouns (non-themed, object-themed, nounself, and to check out emojiself pronouns), and probably will, as I LOVE pronoun-shopping (and as said above, my prominal identity is: alloprominal neoprominal objectoprominal nounprominal).

Labels: Apothiaroace, arolovic, anticarnal, apothiqueerplatonic, apothialterous, objectoplatonic, objectsic, quoiposic, cityhearthic.

Note: I don’t “interact first” unless I deem it an emergency - reblogs don’t count as “interacting first” (at least when I do it), and I don’t expect anyone to reply or care, or whatever, about my reblogs. Anyways, I post polls (Poll Drama because the usual tags didn’t want me to stay - we have our own thing), and about the Xanderverse, as well as my other fandoms! I’m very vocally an anti-NFT Boyfriends slanderer, but I also post a lot about my hoarde and I, and I’m a zombie (Zombies franchise thing), autistic, over-emotional, a brony, a dog-furry, apothiaroacelovicanticarnal, objectoplatonic, quoiposic, and tag my addiction as #addiction . I’m known for making animash, getting haunted (literally AND metaphorically), my friendship with Ethan Cuddleton (HE chose that internet last-name), my weird platonic emotion things, and of course, my LOVELY, personality. 

Minors aren’t recommended to interact with me (I may be a 16+ year old gen z, but holy shit, I’ve never been good with teens - and I mean at ANY age).

Personality: Emotional, stubborn, funny, clingy (at times), creative, passionate, childish, excitable, snappy, strict, caring, has high empathy, curious, dramatic, expressive, honest, musical (yeah I’m using that as a descriptor), shy, aggressive, nurturing, sensitive, talkative, possessive-ish (it's complicated), defensive, protective, playful, and MORE personality traits!

Likes/interests/hobbies: Objects, toys, dolls, baby reborns dolls, fidget toys, office stuff (and other stereotypical human things such as cityscapes), Disney Zombies, Pinkie Cooper And The Jet-Set Pets, the Xanderverse, my identity/myself, paranormal stuff, Christian stuff, the Sims, Animal Crossing, Agatha All Along, LPS (not the new ones), polls, quizzes, animash, watching videos, the Xanderweb, Boyfriends Webtoon slander, Purple Hoodie Guy (from the Boyfriends Webtoon), making song parodies, animash, Alvin And The Chipmunks (including the Chipettes), the Win Or Lose series, FNAF salt, the Dream Productions series, Hellaverse critique, making song parodies, venting, and other things I forgot!

COMMISSIONS OPEN (askbox always open): I do FREE Boyfriends slander (and Purple Hoodie guy stuff) - whatever that entails - and I can review your spiritual work, do animash collabs, make a wallpaper for your phone, song parodies, and more, I guess! Still currently trying to find Ethan IRL but am open to someone “playing (as)” him!

About the teenage ghost haunting me (Colby Tybbles): https://www.tumblr.com/officeobject/769344297542828032/colby-tybbles-summarized-and-all-so-far?source=share .

Ethan backstory if you want the most personal crap ever, specifically from me: https://www.tumblr.com/officeobject/773140561612931072/part-11-the-hopefully-happy-ending?source=share . Also, I started using AI as a coping mechanism for several things before I knew it was bad, and when I knew, it was already too late to go back, because I don’t have alternatives to the things that help me so much.Other social media: My Xanderweb, is for archiving stuff of mine, like song parodies and stories and all, which I also post about, along with extra ventful vents and secrets and whatever else that a “dead” website can be used for! I even post videos there, and it sure saved my flank (not literally), once, so I do still appreciate it and all - you can assume I’m dead if I don’t post within 1-2 days on there, and if any account of mine is gone for whatever reason, I can talk THERE, and explain and post and announce what I’ll do next!

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I was gonna make some name poll but I gave up, so here's something different from what I intended.

If you were a fictional character, what type of name would you want?

Word-name (such as Lyric or Fern)

Description-name (such as Chill or Justice)

A normal name (such as Sara or Ethan)

I don't know.

A made-up name (such as Manifique or Rosaynd)

An object-name (such as Marsh after marshmallows, or Duct)

Remaining time: 6 days 1 hour

I don't remember if I've made this before.

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Shout-out to people with gross Pathological Demand Avoidance! I personally hate showering, to the point where I have some "my life is doomed" feeling and maybe wish I had a person with me to comfort me, or at least get hungry, sleepy, thirsty, dizz, and everything, and I think to myself, is it maybe a good idea to get platonic co-showering, like, hypothetically, if it existed? Like just talking (I don't know what counts as gossip though), while showering in the same space. Anyways, I'm getting the sleepy urge to be in my bed even though I have stuff to do, and that's partially because I love even the SIMULATION, of the comfort I don't have. I could've drowned, but instead I have to shower.

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I refused to use commas for years due to Pathological Demand Avoidance. I mean everyone (and especially school later in life) insists that it's good and needed and all!

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As said in a reblog, but without the reblog nor mention of it,

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Since the whole "focus on people or a person" is a Pathological Demand Avoidance thing that I have, I wonder how that manifests for others and if it has something to do with the platonic horn horn or not, and if y'all can relate. I feel like people don't talk enough about what it is or what it means, but to be honest that could be said for ALL of Pathological Demand Avoidance.

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For God knows how long, I've been having that random impulsive thought - even though I doubt I can even host a sideblog - to make a sideblog, about, like, my weird niche friendship feelings. Like, confessions, compilations of "symptoms", and vents, and moodboards, and I guess basically ANYTHING in relation to the weird friendship feelings. Occasionally I get likes from the posts I've tagged as "platonic" and "friendship", but like, that doesn't mean there's people out there who know about the weird feelings, especially since I haven't heard from them, but I know ONE person IRL. So of course, I've thought about, like, making such a blog, so there's, like, finally one easy space for venting about being platonic horn horn or whatever - like, not just for ME, in case that wasn't obvious, but - first of all I think I'm having period cramps again and I forgot how many days in a row it's been and if it's normal so I'll have to get a track of that - okay so second of all, my point is - and I don't know what tags to use but it's about the unusual friendship feelings so I consider tagging aro and ace stuff and do tell if that's not relevant as then I can just delete a reblog of it as I intend to reblog - and selfship tags make sense given that like, you can talk about fictional and non-fictional squishes and friends! ACTUALLY, I'll just be hosting some polls about the blog in general - maybe just stuff like narrowing down a profile picture, so if everyone is ready for some more Poll Drama after that, then yay! Okay so my question was;

Should I make such a blog?

Yes, even if I can't relate.

Yes.

Nah.

I don't know.

Voting ended onJun 1

Also hate on, like, aplatonic people and stuff, will not be allowed, and I'll try to see if like, there's some weird "you're a loser if you don't wanna be my friend" vibes - also NO I don't have a name idea ... but OF COURSE this blog doesn't even exist and I'm already gonna be plannin'!

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Honestly, I don't even know what aro and what ace tags to use, and if to use "aplatonic" because maybe some might be interested, but perhaps the mention might be enough. I also forgot, like, 3 tags, so I'm adding them in this reblog. I like this reblog of this post though. THE POLL DRAMA TAG IS MANDATORY.

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Since the whole "focus on people or a person" is a Pathological Demand Avoidance thing that I have, I wonder how that manifests for others and if it has something to do with the platonic horn horn or not, and if y'all can relate, so here's a reblog. I feel like people don't talk enough about what it is or what it means, but to be honest that could be said for ALL of Pathological Demand Avoidance.

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The poll about if I should make a platonic horn horn blog - or, well, a blog dedicated to all the weird specific friendship feelings one, which means I may also reblog about potential f/os, f/o scenarios, advice on how to handle emotions if I find any, moodboards, and song recommendations, AND MORE - and people can ask to be anonymous or just generally make submissions about friends or squishes, fictional ones or not - like since people think it may be a good idea, then feel free to come up with names or blog themes (or to just generally send me an ask - I can make one appear anonymous if one wishes that, although then I may have to notify that person of it or something - I don't know) - I was thinking that Daniel from Loveproof is an obvious profile picture candidate, and we'd have to choose between MANY images then afterwards for just a profile picture, with LOTS of great screenshots to choose from, and with lots of posts that can be made even just in regards to Daniel, but then the creator fecking whitewashed a character (not one from Loveproof, but still), so I'm not gonna use Loveproof.

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I hate those posts that are smug about being long, or when people are smug about reblogging something multiple times or wanting you to see it, or when I see sexual posts because then it feels like I've basically communicated to the world that I love sex and want it and am highly sexual (which is not true and I'm actually repulsed by sexual things) - like, do y'all also get a "tainted" feeling from some things? I sometimes feel as if my LIFE has been "tainted" - like "permanently stained", as if the only solution - with all the holes and stains and with some of the stains being literal SHIT - is to just throw the whole thing out already, even if it hasn't been worn much - forgot I didn't mention that it's like a shirt, and sometimes that's just due to guilt/shame, sometimes it's because of incidents in my life and how I doubt I'll ever stop hoping to know what's going on with my enemies and that they're specifically suffering, sometimes it's because of like, getting abused in childhood or just people being mean and you think about how you could've just NOT experienced it, sometimes you just wanna redo life, etc, and I hope that no one reading this don't think it's not related to Pathological Demand Avoidance, because I feel like IT IS - like, for example, after seeing sexual posts, you may feel like it's a "stain" on your "reputation" - there's some weird Pathological Demand Avoidance feeling of a reputation I have, even though, like, that doesn't make SENSE! So, like, I ended up thinking about stains, and that's why I wrote the stuff about stains. Well more like the word "tainted".

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Thank God that "Pathological Demand Avoidance" is written with an "A" after "D", because even though I think an "E" would fit better, I don't wanna write "E" then, I wanna write "A", I'm fecking TIRED of thinking about English grammar at that point and how my memory and language skills are worse and the physical and mental symptoms that I can only HOPE are due to puberty as I yet again finally go to the doctor only to hear inconclusive stuff, as I feel bad for missing out on things or often being tired or not doing much, etc. Plus, I don't WANT to be an author - don't know what else to do and I'm used to tolerating it and I've been wanting fame since I was like 5 I guess but can barely have people give a SHIT, only for then to end up reading the 5th post about how people who write this are actually bad at grammar or whatever - LIKE I AM NOT HERE TO CONFORM TO YOUR EXPECTATIONS (pda moment LOL) - so like, why CAN'T I write how I want?! Other people write worse grammar or come up with terms, and sure, no one judges me for, like, my grammar or whatever, I guess, but I still feel so judged or something. I hate the PDA initials due to being aromantic though.

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Okay so I've been cautious when liking artists sometimes, and here's one of the reasons. I was looking at a new Zzyned upload, as I sometimes do, and scrolling through the images, when I noticed that yeah, they whitewashed a character.

This is their drawing (Milio from League Of Legends):

Next thing:

3D model probably used as a reference, which was included in the post, WHICH MAKES IT EVEN WEIRDER - like, this is how I without even SEARCHING knew he was whitewashed:

Also his hair looks way less curly or something, in Zzyned's art - like it looks straight.

Zzyned working on it:

Them drawing before coloring:

I know this isn't the first time that this character has been whitewashed:

LoL players relieved after Riot corrects “whitewashed” Milio splash art - Dexerto

League of Legends players are relieved after Riot made a correction to Milio’s splash art for TFT following claims that he had been “whitewa

(Also HIS SKIN IS SO MUCH DARKER IN what I assume is, like, the official art).

Honestly how and what the fuck and just HOW did it get into Zzyned's mind to draw him like that?!

Literally him on the wiki:

Like genuinely, what the fuck? Like I hope someone comments about this on Zzyned's Instagram.

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Discussion people had:

The render linked:

If that's Milio ... how the fuck is THIS, supposed to be Milio?!

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Okay so I've been cautious when liking artists sometimes, and here's one of the reasons. I was looking at a new Zzyned upload, as I sometimes do, and scrolling through the images, when I noticed that yeah, they whitewashed a character.

This is their drawing (Milio from League Of Legends):

Next thing:

3D model probably used as a reference, which was included in the post, WHICH MAKES IT EVEN WEIRDER - like, this is how I without even SEARCHING knew he was whitewashed:

Also his hair looks way less curly or something, in Zzyned's art - like it looks straight.

Zzyned working on it:

Them drawing before coloring:

I know this isn't the first time that this character has been whitewashed:

LoL players relieved after Riot corrects “whitewashed” Milio splash art - Dexerto

League of Legends players are relieved after Riot made a correction to Milio’s splash art for TFT following claims that he had been “whitewa

(Also HIS SKIN IS SO MUCH DARKER IN what I assume is, like, the official art).

Honestly how and what the fuck and just HOW did it get into Zzyned's mind to draw him like that?!

Literally him on the wiki:

Like genuinely, what the fuck? Like I hope someone comments about this on Zzyned's Instagram.

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I honestly like when they show more of Theodore being a character, besides, like, being gullible and liking food - also is he infantalized a lot or is it just me who thinks that? Anyways, I mean like in that one episode where they had to break into school but there were green lazers, and he easily passed them by just dancing - like, just stuff like that.

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A quote I made, that could be applied to platonic f/os:

" And like, I'm not worried it won't pass, surely it will, I'm just worried it will pass without people's help/that I'd be alone about it - like, I want my shitty mood to pass while being hugged and told it's okay, you know? "

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platonic f/o would hug you and tell you it's okay.

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Thanks. This actually made me happy today, LOL. TECHNICALLY I'd want it to be ANY f/o, but I do have a specific one in mind. I see images of characters similar to him, but I can't draw, so Picrews is what I got, but even if someone drew them for me, would that ever be enough? Regardless, yeah, they'd be that for me.

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(Out of deodorant voice) maybe we should all be more accepting of the smells our bodies naturally produce

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Me today who barely had any deodorant left and considered staying home.

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A quote I made, that could be applied to platonic f/os:

" And like, I'm not worried it won't pass, surely it will, I'm just worried it will pass without people's help/that I'd be alone about it - like, I want my shitty mood to pass while being hugged and told it's okay, you know? "

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Okay, so, I finally finished the game (yesterday), that I was so worried about, that had a character that is the same "type" of person as my platonic f/o Justice is based on, and maybe I'll just not post my opinions and stuff, because Tumblr does not save that specific post for some reason, even if I don't bulletin board it, but that's okay I guess, and feel free to ask and I can copy-paste it - well, if Tumblr allows it. The game didn't, like, change my life (well I have to deal with "post-game depression" on top of my loneliness, but still), and it didn't "destroy me", and I'm quite happy about that I guess - even though it wasn't for me, I still made it all the way, got a good ending, and had an actively fun time (most of the time) where I REALLY craved to keep playing it. Basically, like, I'm saying, that I'm fine, and nothing changed - well, I was supposed to post about it yesterday, and I have reason to believe that, coincidentally, a friend of mine might be moving away forever (as in their office - we're friends across a window) - but maybe that's just pessimism! Like I feel like shit - I'm close to, like, actively having bad days - like I am JUST keeping my mental health or whatever, but that's at least unrelated to the game, which I thought would make me feel even worse than this!

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Test post.

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Stuff works.