Your Local Kusuriuri

I’m like a religious art piece. grotesque, haunting, full of melodrama and guilt and unsettlingly horny.

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❝ welcome to.. enigma's bio ❞

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↳ ꒰ names ;; Enigma, Castiel, Randvi, Revel, Hell, Vergil, Sunday, Dina, Cantarella, Virgil, Lycoris, Phrolova

↳ ꒰ age ;; 23

↳ ꒰ sexuality ;; Demigrayromantic Lesbian

↳ ꒰ pronouns ;; It/He/She

↳ ꒰ gender ;; Transmasc Agender Woman

↳ ꒰ interests ;; Gacha Games, The Last of Us, Bleach, Black Clover, D.Gray-Man, Danmei, Devil May Cry, Platinum End, Wind Breaker, Diabolik Lovers, Devilman, Mascot Horror, Assassin’s Creed, Demon Slayer, Mycology, Hetalia, Supernatural, Yuri!!! on Ice, Red Dead Redemption, Gachiakuta, Mononoke

↳ ꒰ disclaimers ;; Pro-Endo, Pro-Ship, Pro-Palestine, Neutral/Undeclared on Most Discourse, Mind your own DNI

↳ ꒰ other things to note ;; Histironic Narcissist, Plural, LSN AuDHD, Caretaker to My Partner

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❝ nobody knows where i came from i just showed up one day and started doing my thing and god was like who the hell is that i didn't invite them ❞

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↳ ꒰ Other blogs under the cut!

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↳ ꒰ poverty culture blog ;; @poverty-culture

↳ ꒰ graphics blog ;; @the-hell-graph

↳ ꒰ kin blog ;; @awkward-angel-from-hell

↳ ꒰ 18+ blog ;; @lycoris-bloodlust (block if uncomfortable with taboo/dark fiction content)

↳ ꒰ my partners ;; @officials-of-heaven @healingwatersystem

↳ ꒰ help me out here ;; Venmo: MysteryEnigma, Chime: Enigma-Hell, PayPal: bcpboy

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[officials-of-hell]

GenAi so damn unregulated it’s got me missing Anne Rice low-key

Rest in Piss Anne Rice you would have loved telling the CEO of OpenAi to kill himself

[the-quasar-hero]

You can make a movie with where the only white character is a man named Ray Cism whose one line of his 16 seconds of screen time is “I seriously hate women and minorities.” and you’ll find fifty bajillion reader x Ray Cism fanfics and renaissance style drawings of him with a halo of golden light

[officials-of-hell]

New hyperfixation = new tumblr theme I guess lmao

Stay tuned I’m under construction right now

[aquaflv]

really recommend getting a partner with a different religion than you and very little knowledge of your religion because the opportunities for explaining things to each other are just exquisite

[aquaflv]

yesterday she told me some story about the Buddha's wife and child and I was like. Wait. He fucked? And she was like yeah of course he fucked, why wouldn't he, he was the most attractive and loveable and and wise and etc. person who ever lived. why would he not fuck.

[aquaflv]

this morning she looked perplexed in the kitchen at me and said "did Jesus not fuck?"

[officials-of-hell]

Does anyone have an information on menstrual psychosis. Like actual information, studies, anything???

Please I’m getting desperate I can’t find anything

[officials-of-hell]

There’s an aspect of misogyny in gacha fandoms that I am incredibly tired of so today I’m going to talk about it.

There is an insane double standard that many fans hold female characters to that they do not hold male characters to. It drives me insane. Incoming ramble copy-pasted from a conversation I had in a discord server about this because I do not feel like typing it again.

It is incredibly weird of you to be perfectly fine with a male character being professional being interpreted as flirting but how dare a female character breathe near them MC lest she get called “waifuslop”. It’s actually really weird that you say that every single gacha woman ever all looks the same but you have no complaints about how even less unique the men look. It’s really weird of you to have such double standards, where a female character cannot be confident without being accused of flirting but everything a male character does is “oh my God he wants to fuck the MC so bad”. It’s really fucking weird and the worst part is these fandoms at large think it’s okay because “well at least I don’t do the harem shit” (<— they ship every single male character with the MC not realising or caring that a reverse harem is still a harem).

The way gacha fans treat the female cast is fucking awful and I’m sick of it. Obviously, there’s some valid criticisms that I have seen and I do agree with, but I’m not talking about those before you even attempt to bean soup me. I’m just so fucking tired of how female characters in gachas-or really any media let’s be honest here-are never good enough.

She’s too covered, she shows too much skin. She looks like a child, ew why are her boobs/thighs/ass/hips so big that’s disgusting. She doesn’t look unique enough, why is her design so weird. She’s too confident and therefore flirting and therefore waifuslop, oh she’s too awkward and shy therefore she’s flirting and therefore she’s waifuslop.

Meanwhile the male cast is the same four guys in a different wig and suit 99% of the time and can’t breathe around the MC without Twitter having a porn explosion.

Like, do y’all not hear yourselves? Do you not see why this double standard is a problem? Are you even paying attention?

I’m tired of this. I’m so tired.

[officials-of-hell]

I’m amplifying these tags because you could not be more correct here

A favourite comparison of mine is how the WuWa fandom reacted to Brant vs Cantarella

No one cared that his shirt is open. Everyone happily drooled over that clip of the wine spilling on his chest. Everyone was so eager to ship him with Rover

But Cantarella? “Ew whats with the closeup of her mouth? Ew why is her Tacet Mark on her tongue? Ew why are her boobs so big? Ew she won’t stop flirting with Rover I feel so violated. Ew no one’s body actually looks like that that’s so disgusting. Ew ew ew! Anyone who pulls for her is a disgusting gross obese incel pervert who lives in a basement! Ew ew ew!”

Mind you, I have her body type. Mind you, she’s not even actually showing that much skin. Mind you, she has a gripping and tragic backstory that left me in tears. Mind you, flirtatious personality does not equal flirting.

You see what I mean?

[officials-of-hell]

Another thing I would like to add too is

That is actually

So fucking weird to assume that someone who is just generally flirtatious is automatically flirting

Like

That’s

Bro

Do you not hear how weird that line of logic sounds

[officials-of-hell]

There’s an aspect of misogyny in gacha fandoms that I am incredibly tired of so today I’m going to talk about it.

There is an insane double standard that many fans hold female characters to that they do not hold male characters to. It drives me insane. Incoming ramble copy-pasted from a conversation I had in a discord server about this because I do not feel like typing it again.

It is incredibly weird of you to be perfectly fine with a male character being professional being interpreted as flirting but how dare a female character breathe near them MC lest she get called “waifuslop”. It’s actually really weird that you say that every single gacha woman ever all looks the same but you have no complaints about how even less unique the men look. It’s really weird of you to have such double standards, where a female character cannot be confident without being accused of flirting but everything a male character does is “oh my God he wants to fuck the MC so bad”. It’s really fucking weird and the worst part is these fandoms at large think it’s okay because “well at least I don’t do the harem shit” (<— they ship every single male character with the MC not realising or caring that a reverse harem is still a harem).

The way gacha fans treat the female cast is fucking awful and I’m sick of it. Obviously, there’s some valid criticisms that I have seen and I do agree with, but I’m not talking about those before you even attempt to bean soup me. I’m just so fucking tired of how female characters in gachas-or really any media let’s be honest here-are never good enough.

She’s too covered, she shows too much skin. She looks like a child, ew why are her boobs/thighs/ass/hips so big that’s disgusting. She doesn’t look unique enough, why is her design so weird. She’s too confident and therefore flirting and therefore waifuslop, oh she’s too awkward and shy therefore she’s flirting and therefore she’s waifuslop.

Meanwhile the male cast is the same four guys in a different wig and suit 99% of the time and can’t breathe around the MC without Twitter having a porn explosion.

Like, do y’all not hear yourselves? Do you not see why this double standard is a problem? Are you even paying attention?

I’m tired of this. I’m so tired.

[officials-of-hell]

I’m amplifying these tags because you could not be more correct here

A favourite comparison of mine is how the WuWa fandom reacted to Brant vs Cantarella

No one cared that his shirt is open. Everyone happily drooled over that clip of the wine spilling on his chest. Everyone was so eager to ship him with Rover

But Cantarella? “Ew whats with the closeup of her mouth? Ew why is her Tacet Mark on her tongue? Ew why are her boobs so big? Ew she won’t stop flirting with Rover I feel so violated. Ew no one’s body actually looks like that that’s so disgusting. Ew ew ew! Anyone who pulls for her is a disgusting gross obese incel pervert who lives in a basement! Ew ew ew!”

Mind you, I have her body type. Mind you, she’s not even actually showing that much skin. Mind you, she has a gripping and tragic backstory that left me in tears. Mind you, flirtatious personality does not equal flirting.

You see what I mean?

[officials-of-hell]

There’s an aspect of misogyny in gacha fandoms that I am incredibly tired of so today I’m going to talk about it.

There is an insane double standard that many fans hold female characters to that they do not hold male characters to. It drives me insane. Incoming ramble copy-pasted from a conversation I had in a discord server about this because I do not feel like typing it again.

It is incredibly weird of you to be perfectly fine with a male character being professional being interpreted as flirting but how dare a female character breathe near them MC lest she get called “waifuslop”. It’s actually really weird that you say that every single gacha woman ever all looks the same but you have no complaints about how even less unique the men look. It’s really weird of you to have such double standards, where a female character cannot be confident without being accused of flirting but everything a male character does is “oh my God he wants to fuck the MC so bad”. It’s really fucking weird and the worst part is these fandoms at large think it’s okay because “well at least I don’t do the harem shit” (<— they ship every single male character with the MC not realising or caring that a reverse harem is still a harem).

The way gacha fans treat the female cast is fucking awful and I’m sick of it. Obviously, there’s some valid criticisms that I have seen and I do agree with, but I’m not talking about those before you even attempt to bean soup me. I’m just so fucking tired of how female characters in gachas-or really any media let’s be honest here-are never good enough.

She’s too covered, she shows too much skin. She looks like a child, ew why are her boobs/thighs/ass/hips so big that’s disgusting. She doesn’t look unique enough, why is her design so weird. She’s too confident and therefore flirting and therefore waifuslop, oh she’s too awkward and shy therefore she’s flirting and therefore she’s waifuslop.

Meanwhile the male cast is the same four guys in a different wig and suit 99% of the time and can’t breathe around the MC without Twitter having a porn explosion.

Like, do y’all not hear yourselves? Do you not see why this double standard is a problem? Are you even paying attention?

I’m tired of this. I’m so tired.

[officials-of-hell]

Okay so it’s 1 am and @officials-of-heaven made shrimp and scallop fettuccine alfredo right? I hand him cheese for topping and this mf looks at me and says

“I mean I already added a lot of cheese to the sauce so idk if you want to add more”

LIFE IS BUT A FLEETING THING HAND ME THINE BEST GOUDA

Listen

I know I’m lactose intolerant. I know I’m going to be in pure agony after eating this. I do not fucking care. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO GIVE UP CHEESE

[officials-of-heaven]

In my defence. We have a 1bath house. And you constantly need the bathroom when I’m having diarrhea. You insisting on cheese actually does affect me smdh

[officials-of-hell]

LAKALALALLALALALALA IM NOT LISTENING IM TOO BUSY EATING CHEESE

[officials-of-heaven]

I’m banning you from cheese

[officials-of-hell]

TRANSPHOBIA I TELL YOU

[officials-of-hell]

Okay so it’s 1 am and @officials-of-heaven made shrimp and scallop fettuccine alfredo right? I hand him cheese for topping and this mf looks at me and says

“I mean I already added a lot of cheese to the sauce so idk if you want to add more”

LIFE IS BUT A FLEETING THING HAND ME THINE BEST GOUDA

Listen

I know I’m lactose intolerant. I know I’m going to be in pure agony after eating this. I do not fucking care. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO GIVE UP CHEESE

[officials-of-heaven]

In my defence. We have a 1bath house. And you constantly need the bathroom when I’m having diarrhea. You insisting on cheese actually does affect me smdh

[officials-of-hell]

LAKALALALLALALALALA IM NOT LISTENING IM TOO BUSY EATING CHEESE

[officials-of-hell]

Okay so it’s 1 am and @officials-of-heaven made shrimp and scallop fettuccine alfredo right? I hand him cheese for topping and this mf looks at me and says

“I mean I already added a lot of cheese to the sauce so idk if you want to add more”

LIFE IS BUT A FLEETING THING HAND ME THINE BEST GOUDA

Listen

I know I’m lactose intolerant. I know I’m going to be in pure agony after eating this. I do not fucking care. LIFE IS TOO SHORT TO GIVE UP CHEESE

[rupurteblr]

i call this one “using tumblr as a person of color”

might update with more images at some point

[the-uncanny-dag]

Some of the ones I've accumulated

[kawaiiunii]

uhh evenings everypony . not really make post like this really and not been keen on feel rather bad do but is comsiderably important for me

i have severe autism . recently again heatwave and higher temp come up . generally significant significant struggle in heat due my chronic illnesses and severe sensory issue have . also have severe sleep disorder and lot lot struggle sleep and for me be able need sleep due my severe autism need pressure but only way for me available and able do is blankets

blankets dont work for this weather . overheat worse which make chronic illness symptoms worse and cause me meltdown due overheat and sensory issue . been need weighted specifically cooling blanket which will work very well with big fan have but this cannot afford . am person on disabillity benefits reliant but recently been lots need buy needs and food go on right now money

id high high very much appreciate if anyone able and be kind to buy me weighted cooling blanket from my wants & needs amazon wishlist which will link below and is also in pinned post . dont expect much happen from this but thought worth shot as im really really struggle at this time

ruru's needs, wishes & wants 🩷 | Amazon Gift List

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Please give my lovely friend help if you can!!!

[officials-of-hell]

Coming back from the grave because I need to rant about something that is really pissing me off

Can people please stop focusing on the burqas themselves when talking about the things happening in Afghanistan? Can we please focus on the fact that the issue is Afghan women do not have a choice in wearing them? Also can we highlight some of the other issues they are facing such as not being able to attend school past the sixth grade, not being able to speak in public, having no routes to report abuse, not being able to go anywhere without a man, and many other issues?

Also can we please stop with the casual Islamophobia when talking about this issue? Why the hell are we blaming a religion-a man made concept-for the actions of a violent extremist government that is twisting that religion into their own narrative for their own gain? You’re giving them an escape from consequences and not holding them accountable by doing that.

All in all, please just. Can we actually focus on the issues instead of focusing all of our energy onto the garment itself? The burqas themselves are not the fucking problem it’s that women do not get to choose if they wear one. The issue is the complete lack of autonomy which is showcased in multiple other ways, not just the burqa.

Idk I’m just so fucking tired of feeling like many people are not actually understanding the situation here and are instead jumping on a reason to hate on a style of dress that many people choose on their own for their own reasons. I’m tired of seeing too many people-usually white Westerners like myself-jump at the chance to be Islamophobic and racist and blame the religion and culture of the country rather than the fascist extremists running the place. Allah isn’t the one making the law here-humans are. Yes religious fascism absolutely exists and as an American I’d be dumb as fuck to deny that. But religion is also a man made concept. You are blaming a concept for the actions of man and that does not hold the human beings committing these atrocities accountable like you think it does.

[kawaiiunii]

i really dislike what the term neurodivergent has turned into. i dont think term neurodivergent is at fault itself, i think it is as term good term to describe " other than neurotypical " essentially.

but what people have done with the term has done lot damage imo and continue do so. people use neurodivergent to mean autism and or adhd which i feel like in turn has feeded peoples confusion how some conditions are neurodivergent and them believing some things cant be called that and how since the term has been used in very specific but at same time meaningless misinformed ways.

which this in turn, in my opinion might also fed this whole idea people have that autism and adhd are same disorders and theyre so so same when they far from same just looking at criteria itself.

" neurodivergent people do this " " this is trait of neurodivergents " " neurodivergent people think this way " "neurodivergent people act like this because of this " all these type statements dont make sense. as neurodivergent is term for wide range conditions autism adhd dyslexia dysgraphia down syndrome alzheimers borderline personality disorder synesthesia dyspraxia narcissistic personality disorder. so on and on and on.. just examples but see how with examples can tell range is so far? you cant say neurodivergent people do this and this as blanket truth statement as it consists of all these ways brain function that arent same thing at all.

if you mean autism say autism. if you mean adhd say adhd. if you mean dyslexia say dyslexia. if you mean schizophrenia say schizophrenia! cant say that autism criteria symptom is what neurodivergent means, when you trying spread awareness you wont spread it well by making vague video post text slide whatever by lumping all these different condition traits into one blob, sometimes, even including things that arent even considered an actual autism trait at all, when thats what you trying to talk about without using word autism but "neurodivergent" instead.

[liquidstar]

"only 90s kids remember-" wrong, if you're poor and/or rural enough, old tech and fashion doesn't just disappear when it stops being trendy. We had dial-up until 2012