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Friendly reminder that the reason you feel so much better is because of your meds, don’t stop taking them unless you talk to your doctor first, you really do need them, I promise.
Around June I stopped taking my eye medication because I hadn’t had a problem with my eyes in months. I got really lazy about doing it; then I stopped them altogether.
Turns out, the reason I stopped having problems with my eyes was because I was religiously taking my medication. Whodathunk. Now I have to work to get back to the place I was before I decided I was “better” (I wasn’t!).
If you thought this post was just about anti-depressants or lithium, it could be! For me, this post is about eyedrops, for you it might be about antibiotics, or it might be about zoloft. Whatever it is, please consider talking to your doctor before making a sudden shift to stop taking it. It’s not bad to be on medication. It’s not bad to need it.
Most of my original blogs became no more than shitpost accounts, in hindsight. Nobody's gonna see anything I post.
How does anybody tell the difference between shitposting and anything else anymore?
The notes -um, tags?- for this went off the rails. I'll quote them up here:
"sidenote: i wish doctors would stop giving me antibiotics…. #every time i take them i actually almost die #from allergic reactions to my gut expelling everything that enters into me as soon as it goes in #also big fat OBVIOUSLY if you can't afford medication it's okay #don't feel guilt for that #but if you can stay on it#please consider doing so #im trying so hard not to be condescending #also i don't have any mental medication #cuz mental health doctors are literally the worst #but god i wish i was"
Fine fine fine, probably the ramblings of a 20-smthng or college teen. "Take your meds. My doctors are the worst. Healthcare is important. But we can't trust them anyway. It's too expensive. It's great and the worst."
Is this black and white thinking run amok? If you don't like your doc or other clinician, switch if possible. If you have access in the first place, tell your doctor what's happening, keep them in the loop. Seems like half of us have poor access to health care, the other half don't use what we've got...
US needs universal health care.
"__________ is too expensive! But don't get the gov't involved, they'll just fuck it up." Look, I've got state health coverage where I am. NOT federal. Not "insurance." It's coverage. Dental included, except full crowns, which sucks. But it's better than no dental, which is what most folks have.
It took me too many years to get properly medicated. Can I blame the health care industry? Not directly. But my access to health care was spotty at best after I graduated from college. I honestly don't know what services I could have sought during college. I was in that goofball stage, and nobody there to say, "Hey go to a therapist," which I so badly wished had happened. I didn't even know I was bipolar until years and years later. Over 15 years.
In short, I had resources I either didn't know about or didn't appreciate/ take advantage of. I had needs and problems I didn't understand. I didn't appreciate their depth or severity. I've lost years of productivity and quality of life to mental illness and addiction. Not productivity for the sake of the system, but for my own sake. The mass of lost potential makes me grieve my self, makes it hard not to lose what I have today when I become bitter, angry, hopeless.
100 demons test #2
having cash is like having secret money. like whos gonna find out i’m buying tacos with this crisp $20 bill??? not my bank account, that’s for sure
No way I can trust myself with too much secret money. Having a bank is like being married. They keep you out of trouble. Staying in increases interest.
You pay for early withdrawals (wait, is that- what?)
The less you withdraw, the bigger the surprise (hey, now)!
And going in person is always better than using the machine or doing it over the phone... ;)
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On Consciousness
According to systems theory, there are three key determinants of a system’s purpose. The first is the inputs — what comes into the system. Then, there is the stock — what the system holds. Last, the outflow. Your brain works the same way. The information you take in is kept as stock and then the information flows out if it is not serving you. But the brain has a unique facet, setting it apart from other systems. Take petroleum, for example. The more we use petroleum, the lower the stock goes and the more we need to drill. Information, however, is the opposite. In our brains, the more we use information, the better it is maintained in our brains, and the less we need to work on attaining new data. That’s revolutionary: information turns inputs and outputs on their head.
Of course, this isn’t anything new. The information age has allowed for infinite replication and distribution. The more something is used, the more it is replicated and distributed. Our brains don’t work exactly like computers. They have substantial rule sets and paradigms that moderate how we process information. But, each of us has incredible power over our brain systems.
The brain’s system of information gathering and retrieval is clearly imperfect. How many times have you worried about trivial details? How many times have you thought of a pointless moment from your past? A system is defined by its purpose. And the main purpose of the brain is to keep us alive: that’s it. It’s great at it! Yet, the baggage that comes along with that purpose (i.e., the ego) can often stand in the way of the purpose we want the brain to have: using information to better the world.
Control of consciousness is essential. It allows us to understand the inputs, outputs, and stock of the brain. It runs through most, if not all, ancient traditions. Whether it be meditating for enlightenment in Buddhism, directing your actions towards God in Christianity, or controlling your passions in Greco-Roman philosophy, there is an emphasis on controlling your consciousness: to hold certain beliefs that should pervade your life. These traditions argue for a regulation of the brain system we all are part of.
Obviously, the best way to control one’s consciousness has yet to be determined. It probably will never be: we are stilling grappling with defining consciousness. We could argue that it is the inability of science to define, measure, and create consciousness in which modern-day spirituality arises. Science can argue that consciousness arises from material, but that has yet to be proven. “The view that all mental processes are,” The Dalai Lama argues, “necessarily physical processes is a metaphysical assumption, not a scientific fact.” At the moment, consciousness is ineffable. But it is the system we inhabit. It is the system we must learn to control.
By Ben Heim (Medium). Image: Oska.
Why America Has So Few Doctors
As a matter of basic economics, fewer doctors means less care and more expensive services.
By the time Elizabeth Erickson was a freshman at Davidson College in 2002, she knew she wanted to become a doctor. Because she understood that the earliest health interventions are among the most important, she set herself on a pediatrics track. After four years of premed classes, she went straight to medical school at Wake Forest University, which took another four years. Then came three years of residency at Duke University, plus one final year as chief resident. In 2014, she joined the faculty of Duke’s School of Medicine. Her dream was realized at the steep price of 12 consecutive years of learning and training, plus about $400,000 of debt.
Erickson’s story would be exceptional in just about any other country. But it’s hardly unusual in the United States, which has the longest, most expensive medical-education system in the developed world, and among the lowest number of physicians per capita. “There is a huge scarcity of primary-care doctors, like pediatricians, and many of us are operating in a scarcity framework without enough resources,” Erickson told me.
America needs an abundance agenda—a plan to attack the problems of scarcity in our housing, infrastructure, labor force, and, yes, health-care system. As the pandemic has made clear, we need medical abundance in the 21st century. That means more high-quality therapies, more clinics, better insurance, and better access to medicine. But it also means more doctors.
Why does America make it so hard for people like Elizabeth Erickson to practice medicine?
Imagine you were planning a conspiracy to limit the number of doctors in America. Certainly, you’d make sure to have a costly, lengthy credentialing system. You would also tell politicians that America has too many doctors already. That way, you could purposefully constrain the number of medical-school students. You might freeze or slash funding for residencies and medical scholarships. You’d fight proposals to allow nurses to do the work of physicians. And because none of this would stop foreign-trained doctors from slipping into the country and committing the crime of helping sick people get better, you’d throw in some rules that made it onerous for immigrant doctors, especially from neighboring countries Mexico and Canada, to do their job.
America has already done all of this. Starting in the late 20th century, medical groups asserted that America had an oversupply of physicians. In response, medical schools restricted class sizes. From 1980 to 2005, the U.S. added 60 million people, but the number of medical-school matriculants basically flatlined. Seventeen years later, we are still digging out from under that moratorium.
The U.S. is one of the only developed countries to force aspiring doctors to earn a four-year bachelor’s degree and then go to medical school for another four years. Most European countries have one continuous six-year program. Then come the years of residency training. Many graduates have $200,000 to $400,000 in outstanding student loans when they enter the workforce. Medical education is a necessary good; nobody wants charlatans in the OR and snake-oil salesmen prescribing arthritis medication. What advantage do these additional years and loans get us? It’s conceivable that American doctors are 33 percent better than Swiss doctors, given our 33-percent-longer medical schooling. But good luck trying to find a national health statistic where the U.S. is one-third better than Switzerland. Americans die earlier than their European counterparts at every age and income level.
Overburdened with debt and eager to translate their long education into a high salary, American medical students are more likely to become specialists, where they tend to earn some of the highest doctor salaries in the world, in part because the U.S. does such an efficient job at limiting the supply of their labor.
As a matter of basic economics, fewer doctors means less care and more expensive services. A 2016 survey of patients in 11 countries—the U.S., Canada, New Zealand, and eight European nations—found that the U.S. trailed in providing timely access to primary medical care. High educational debts and fewer physicians push more health-care spending toward intensive and specialized services, which are more costly.
Naturally, some doctors might object to more competition for the same reason that some homeowners object to more local construction: They’re afraid that abundance will eat their wealth. But they should consider the other side of the coin, which is that having more doctors might make life better for doctors, who work much longer hours than their European peers. Doctor burnout and brutal 16-hour shifts for residents and M.D.s aren’t necessary tests of willpower; they’re just the inevitable result of not having enough people to do the work that today’s hospitals demand.
The most obvious reason America needs an abundance of medical practitioners is … just look around. If COVID continues to be a problem for the U.S.—and that seems likely—we’re going to need more physicians, clinics, and therapies. Even if COVID disappears and the U.S. never faces another pandemic ever again (fingers and toes crossed, after throwing a whole thing of salt over his shoulder), we’ll be an older and aging country with more sick people. The census projects that in 12 years, there will be more senior citizens than children in America for the first time in history. No matter what the pandemic future holds, we need more doctors to be part of America’s health-care system.
“The first thing I would do is to expand the residency system so that more doctors can become residents after medical school,” Robert Orr, a policy analyst who studies health-care policy at the Niskanen Center said. “This might be the key bottleneck. The medical schools say they can’t easily expand, because there aren’t enough residency slots for their graduates to fill. But there aren’t enough residency slots because Washington has purposefully limited federal residency financing.” The arithmetic is simple: More funding means more residents; more residents allows medical schools to grow; more medical students today means more doctors in a decade.
Countries get doctors in one of two ways—by training them or importing them. We’re bad at both. When NAFTA was negotiated, Canadians and Mexicans didn’t want to lose their doctors to the American market, and the U.S. didn’t want immigrant doctors to threaten U.S. physicians. As a result, to this day Mexican and Canadian doctors have to jump through special hoops to practice medicine full-time in the U.S.
Beyond increasing the number of doctors, states could increase the total supply of care by allowing more nurse practitioners to substitute for doctors. They could also expand legal telemedicine, which would extend care to rural and other underserved areas. “The low-hanging fruit is to change Medicare rules so that the government would reimburse for all online appointments,” Orr said. This would drive the permanent adoption of telemedicine throughout the system.
Finally, Orr said that we can’t expand the number of doctors unless we also expand the number of clinics and hospitals, particularly in the most underserved parts of the country. That means we have to build. “We need a system of health-care-development banks that issue guaranteed loans for infrastructure projects,” he said. “That’s how the health-care system was originally built up until the 1980s, with government-backed finance.”
More doctors, more clinics, more care, better health outcomes. It all sounded so obvious—too obvious. So, what’s the problem with an abundance of doctors?
We thought of several downsides. More physicians could mean lower wages for doctors. If wages dropped before student debt declined, that would mean a generation of doctors graduating with hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt that they are unable to pay off in a more competitive market. Orr said that expanding the role for the nurses we have might be politically easier than radically changing medical education to grow the number of doctors, and that tweaking immigrant-doctor rules could raise the ire of physician groups. “Another steelman to my case that you might hear is that America should focus on prioritizing high-value care rather than just aimlessly expanding medical providers who do a lot of low-value stuff,” he said.
But overall, the case for doctor abundance is strong. Sick, aging, and buckling under two years of pandemic mayhem, America desperately needs more physicians. But we choose to make becoming a physician a painful experience. Today we are reaping the harvest of our deliberate policies: fewer doctors, higher prices, and worse access to primary care.
By Derek Thompson (The Atlantic). Image: Getty; The Atlantic.
Tatiana Maslany was literally insane for playing like 12 different people with the same face and then interacting with multiple versions of herself for five whole seasons
she really Did That™ and we are all incredibly grateful
No! No, but here's the important thing! She did it so flawlessly, that you would actually forget these characters are the same actress.
I found myself feeling bad for the actor who plays Alison's husband, because "he never gets to work with Maslany," because in my head I kept equating her with Sarah, when literally he only worked with Maslany!
The special effects were so seemless, and her performances were so flawless that we have never seen this gimmick done this effectively, this naturally. And I don't think we ever will again.
She deserved that emmy.
It’s impossible to describe how phenomenally good a job Maslany did with these characters. Like, it wasn’t just that she played every one of these characters so genuinely and distinctly that you forgot they were the same actress. It was also that the characters, being clones, would deceive people by playing each other.
Alison would be on the screen, and you’d be like, “that’s Alison”. Then Sarah would be on the screen, and you’d be like, “that’s Sarah”. Then someone who looked exactly like Sarah would be on the screen, and you’d be like, “Oh, Alison is pretending to be Sarah.” And some of the clones were better at pretending to be each other than other clones were. And you could always tell who you were looking at and who they were trying to imitate.
I really have to watch this. Nobody told me what that show was about it anything.
For Decades, He Had Strange Episodes of Utter Exhaustion
What was causing these spells, and why were they now more frequent?
The 51-year-old man sat at his desk preparing for his next online meeting when he suddenly became aware of a familiar stiffness and exhaustion. Had he slept badly? Or was this the beginning of one of his strange episodes? As the symptoms worsened, he had his answer. He knew that when he started to feel this way, the only recourse was to get into bed before he got any weaker. As he made his way slowly down the hall, his legs felt heavy, as if he were wearing ankle weights. Just lifting them was real work. He passed his wife’s home office without a word. She knew just from looking at him that he would probably have to spend the rest of the day in bed.
For much of their 30-year marriage, he had these strange spells; he would suddenly feel exhausted and weak and have to lie down. He couldn’t work. He was a software engineer, and any mental exertion was too much for him. Once the fatigue fully set in — maybe after the first hour or so — he couldn’t walk, couldn’t stand, couldn’t even sit up. It was as if his body was totally out of gas, worse than how it felt when he ran a marathon. He would lie in a dark room, too weak to even hold up a book and too tired to think. But by the next morning, he would usually be fine, brimming with energy and enthusiasm, like normal. It was so strange.
After more than 20 years, they both had come to expect these episodes. For most of that time, the spells were infrequent, maybe once a month. But recently they became more frequent. The monthly episodes became weekly, then a couple of times a week. They often came, as they did that morning, out of nowhere. Just before leaving his office, he sent an email to the woman he was to meet online. Sorry, he wrote, I’m not feeling well. Could we reschedule?
Seeing a Psychiatrist
Over the years the man saw many doctors. They had their theories, but so far none panned out. A few were convinced that he had periodic paralysis, a disorder sometimes linked to thyroid disease, where patients become temporarily paralyzed by too much or too little potassium in the bloodstream. But his potassium was always normal, even during these episodes.
He had EMGs, looking for problems in the way his nerves communicated with his muscles: normal. He had EEGs, looking for problems in his brain. Those scans were normal too; he wasn’t having seizures. Out of desperation, he went to the Mayo Clinic. Doctors there repeated all the tests and added a few more. They had no answers, though they did suggest that he exercise more. He did, and that did help. Indeed, he came to suspect that the reason these periodic exhaustions became more frequent was that once Covid hit, his gym closed down and so did his trainer.
Time after time, he was asked if he was depressed. He didn’t feel depressed. But he started going to a psychiatrist just in case he was wrong. It didn’t take long for the psychiatrist, Dr. Sanjay Patel, to determine that the man was not at all depressed. Even after that diagnosis was ruled out, he continued to see Patel. It made him feel like a real New Yorker, he joked. At the very least, the doctor could listen as his patient tried to understand why he had these strange spells.
If not exercising could affect the frequency of these spells, so could exercising too hard. After a really long run, there was a good chance he would end up in bed the next day. Because of that, he thought for a while that he might have chronic fatigue syndrome, which is also known as systemic exertion intolerance disease (S.E.I.D.). But he usually recovered within 24 hours, and that wasn’t true for those with S.E.I.D.
At his rescheduled meeting, he apologized for the sudden change in plan. No problem, his colleague told him; she said that she had migraines that could come on suddenly and forced her to cancel meetings every now and then. The comment resonated with the patient. A few months earlier he saw a neurologist who said that these transient episodes of weakness sounded like migraines, but thought it unlikely because his exhaustion didn’t come with a headache. The man used to have migraine headaches — the pain in his head was throbbing and intense and was often accompanied by nausea and vomiting. These episodes of debilitating tiredness seemed nothing like those. Still, could these be related to migraines?
One Benefit of Online Meetings
At their next online therapy session, he mentioned the comments about migraines to Patel. The psychiatrist was intrigued. Could you have a migraine without the headache? Patel typed “migraine without headache” into a search engine and clicked enter. Reference after reference appeared for what was referred to variously as silent migraines or acephalgic migraines (literally migraines without head pain), usually describing a migraine that starts with preceding symptoms called an aura but then never becomes a headache.
Four out of five migraineurs may have symptoms that herald the onset of the migraine before the headache itself. The first signs often arrive with a change in mood, food cravings, light sensitivity or fatigue. One in five can have additional symptoms that are more localized and last anywhere from five minutes to an hour. The most common are visual, often with shapes that appear before the eyes and enlarge — but aura can also manifest as ringing in the ears or difficulty speaking.
Could the man’s day of exhaustion be the precursor for a migraine headache that never arrives? The more the duo read, the more convinced they were that this is what he had. Patel did a little more searching and referred the patient to a headache clinic in Boston.
Part of a Bigger Picture
The patient was able to have his first video visit with a headache specialist two weeks later. He described his symptoms and the timeline. It starts off with a feeling of malaise, he said — as if he were coming down with something. Then after half an hour, stiffness arrives in his neck and shoulders, sometimes even his jaw. Another half-hour later, the weakness kicks in and he has trouble even sitting up. But he didn’t get headaches and hadn’t for decades.
The specialist had been seeing migraine patients for more than 30 years and knew that migraines came in many shapes and sizes. What the patient described wasn’t an aura: It lasted far too long. It was as if he had a long episode of the preliminary symptoms but never quite got the headache. Moreover, he had a history of migraine headaches and, over time, a patient’s migraines can change so that they have many of the symptoms but not the headache. Indeed, experts in the field no longer call the disorder migraine headaches but rather migraine disease, because the headache is only a part of the bigger picture. And the way these debilitating symptoms came out of nowhere and then resolved completely was consistent with migraine disease.
There are no tests for migraine — it is a diagnosis made based on the patient’s story. The story this patient was telling didn’t make the diagnosis certain, but it was possible. To test the diagnosis, the headache specialist suggested that they try treating the episodes with medications that can stop a migraine from progressing. A new medication, approved by the F.D.A. just over a year earlier, called ubrogepant or Ubrelvy, had been effective for many. The drug blocks a protein that promotes the inflammation in the brain that is thought to initiate the process that produces migraines. When taken at the very start of the symptoms, it can stop the episode in its tracks. The patient needed no persuading. Anything that might free him from the unpredictable tyranny of these spells was worth trying.
The medication was life changing, the patient told the specialist at their next appointment. He took it when the stiffness was first starting to set in, and within a couple of hours, it was gone completely.
For decades the presence of the typical headache was the defining quality of migraines. Experts like the one who saw this patient now recognize that migraines can change over time so that sometimes they aren’t even headaches anymore.
By Lisa Sanders, M.D. (The New York Times). Image by Ina Jang.
Vertigo-Inducing Room Illusions by Peter Kogler
whaaaaaaat
Wow, this blog that I haven’t fucked with for over 2 years is a dumster fire. Blecchhh
Why does the grotesque fascinate us? Simple, and I'm not first to point this out, but we are reminded of the morbid splendor of not just ourselves, but of the world, all of its creatures, creature comforts, and beyond our planetary system to all unearthly, earthly, and
I dunno, but it seems like the sorting and various crap tasks are easier for me when I'm poorly rested, somnambulant even...
When I'm fully energized, I can't stand dopey tasks that have no meaning for me. But I think I can reorient that...
If you keep someone from dealing with their shit or getting their shit together, don't go complaining when their shit smacks you inna face, uhkay? Maybe it'll take longer than it usually does for you. Maybe shit's more fucked up than it seems, old injuries and whatnot.