the way that I am seen as an autistic person by some allistic people is so difficult and frustrating.
close friends and family see me moving and holding myself physically differently than they do and see me struggle to participate in conversations the way they do and see me miss jokes and get overwhelmed and will treat me as if I am stupid, childish, less than, or fragile.
among people who understand me, I am capable, intelligent, compassionate and interesting but among people who don’t I’m an oddity to be looked after or laughed at.
there’s no way for them to understand because it’s impossible for us to ever interact on the same level when they view their way as right and good and mine as wrong and weird. without analysing social conventions and untangling judgements about people who defy them, allistic people will never be able to fully accept or understand autistic people.
being treated as if I am small makes me feel small. being seen and understood gives me so much strength. I’m endlessly grateful for the the people in my life who give me strength