oneiric academia

my thoughts and some words i like. words that aren't my own are credited to their authors.

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The true mind can weather all lies and illusions without being lost.

The true heart can touch the poison of hatred without being harmed.

From beginningless time, darkness thrives in the void, but always yields to purifying light.

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The age demanded that we sing

And cut away our tongue.

The age demanded that we flow

And hammered in the bung.

The age demanded that we dance

And jammed us into iron pants.

And in the end the age was handed

The sort of shit that it demanded.

— The Age Demanded, Ernest Hemingway

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"I wish I wrote the way I thought;

Obsessively, Incessantly,

With maddening hunger.

I'd write to the point of suffocation.

I'd write myself into nervous breakdowns,

Manuscripts spiralling out like tentacles into abysmal nothing.

And I'd write about you a lot more than I should."

- Benedict Smith

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we did not fall in love in october

but as the world grows colder

and the days get shorter

we might as well be falling in love all over

again, this october

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“I have love in me the likes of which you can scarcely imagine and rage the likes of which you would not believe. If I cannot satisfy the one, I will indulge the other.”

— Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

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after depression, my days are spent challenging myself to be the happiest i have ever been

in this moment, i cannot think of a time where i have been happier

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the game master comes home tomorrow

she started a game no one wants to play

and now everyone is losing

why would you make me play?

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her marks on your neck

are bruises on your heart now

you used to love the pain

because she knew how

striving to be as masterful

lips hesitantly touch skin

overthinking the motions

nibble to let insecurity in

jealousy cascades

blue veins red with fire

losing feeling; turn to stone

i am not the one to desire

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i knew what i wanted

i went in and got it

did all the things that you said that i wouldn’t

i told you that i would never be forgotten

all in spite of you

— alive by sia

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i know there were people before me and that i shouldn’t feel insecure

but some days i wish i could ask you

“were they better than me?”

not because i want you to tell me i’m the best you’ve ever had

or that your past lovers are dead to you now

no, i want you to be honest in such a way that i have no choice but to trust your words

no matter what they may be

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i don’t like to use the word hate

but if you compare the love i have for you

to the love i have for others

i might as well hate everyone else

because no love will ever compare

to the beauty of loving you

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am i doing this to fulfill my own desires or to fit into society’s mold of what a perfect teenager should be?

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you never know how unhealthy your past relationships were until you’re in a healthy one

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i remember the screams that escaped from the deepest depths of my soul when i realized you were gone

she told me, “everything is going to get better,” but i was convinced it never could

until i met him

and now the only screams that escape are feelings of love, feelings of being wanted

things i had to beg for to get from you

you will never bruise my soul again

and neither will he because he could never stoop as low as you

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When you go and I'm alone

You live in my imagination

The summertime and butterflies

All belong to your creation

I love you, it's all I do

I love you

—Olivia One Direction

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tightrope walking

as high as birds fly

silently stalking

a boy with eyes like the sky

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i’m staying up late again.

i cant seem to say goodnight to the boy who puts stars in my eyes.

it’s far too beautiful to sleep.