Apollo/Myce

Artist | Transmasc | Plural [come for the pain, stay for the beauty] «He/They/It»

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Welcome to oops-im-so-sorry !

Hi, you can call me Apollo or Myce; i go by a few names so anything works. (He/They/It)

About Us

I make a lot of art about gender dysphoria, religion trauma, and mental illness. I make it for myself as well as anyone who relates. Sometimes catharsis comes in community, and I’d like to provide that.

I am transmasc/FtM and an adult! I can legally drink in the U.S. if that is any indicator of my age. I am/We are plural, so youll see different art tagged by different “me’s” but generally you can refer to us as our page name.

We are also clean of SH since 2019! It’s been a hard road and while we never feel 100% better, we improve every day. Art is just how we channel those feelings into something constructive.

What You’ll See on This Page

Art and mental health related posts. I won’t be posting fandom content, for the most part. Some stuff you may see. . .

- Vent Art

- (Artwork of) Gore/Guro

- Eyestrain

- Body Horror

- General Violence

- Suggestive language and visuals

- Surreal vibes and aesthetics

- Poetry

- Journal-like entries and posts

- the worst of my self i am willing to publicize

Trigger/Content Warning

I really want people to feel comfortable and be ok. If these following topics are not good for you, please proceed with caution and love towards yourself. . .

- General discussion of mental illnesses and their symptoms

- NSSI

- Self Harm (direct and through neglect)

- Suicidal ideation/thoughts

- morbid ideation

- wishing severe harm on oneself

- disordered eating discussion

- derealization/depersonalization

- dissociation

- masochism that goes past sexuality

- misgendering yourself

- religious themes involving trauma

- isolation, alienation and a general sense of not belonging

- gender dysphoria

I do not condone any of the behaviors my art depicts, it is really important i emphasize that. If you or a loved one are struggling, yadda yadda yadda blah blah blah you know the spiel. Take care, yeah? Find what works for you and rely on the people who love you, but remember to be strong for them too. Someone will miss the space you used to take up.

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[06] when they upped my sertraline I felt really awesome. Of course, I don’t alter the dosage of my meds for the fun side effects! But I’d be lying if I said the thought hasn’t crossed my mind.

TEXT:

“Less is more when more is taken”

- Tia

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[05] not the biggest fan of this one. Um, idk. The feeling of getting better feels more like the anticipation before a jumpscare more than anything else ;; i am trying to keep up semi-regular art but it’s really hard.

TEXT:

“AAAAAAAAAAAAA”

“Right now i feel very little, and the quiet is UNSETTLING”

- Maus

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[03] can you tell I was listening to femtanyl when I made this? I really like “PUSH UR T3MPRR” lately. This might be my favorite recent piece. I’ll transcribe all of the text below haha. Major TW for a lot of things.

TEXT:

[background]

“INFECT ME! :3” / “Welcome home, it’s the place where nobody hurts you but everything feels wrong”

[yellow text; top to bottom]

“Ask where’s my body, I’ll say where it will be. Promise not to get mad and end it with a please”

“Hurt me” (x11)

“Switchblade on my neck, give me a pearl necklace and then dye that bitch red”

“Leave my rancid body rotting naked on the floor of the abandoned apartment building you bought out next door, share me with your friends even though I taste like bile, rip me up and bite again just so my corpse can smile”

“sweat on my hips c*m on my lips working so hard just—“ (cut off)

“Cant think straight when all I do is spiral!”

“Sick sick make me sick vomit blood ulcers in my throat lesions in my thigh”

“I’m sorry” (x4)

“Make my skin taste like you no matter how much I scrub, blood under my nails and acid in my lungs”

“I am contagion i am disgusting i am contaminated” (x2)

“Infect me infect me im ur fucking battery”

“HARDER FASTER” (x4)

“Just a stupid girl on a horrid fucking planet, tell me to k*ll myself and I might just fucking plan it”

“I WAS MADE FOR THIS” (x2)

“Sorry that im always asking to be violated, but you know that I can’t c*m unless I know im hated :D”

“I WAS MADE FOR THIS” (x3)

“Put the viscera inside me make me urs forever, blood and skull brains and soul were always tethered”

“Let me PLEASE please please sorry sorry”

“Pull the veins out of my arms Cut them into ribbons, Twist them like a bendy straw And drink a slurpee with them”

“DONT FORGIVE ME”

“Set fire to the bleachers then spit on all my teachers fuck until I reach her WAIT WH—“ (cut off)

“IM SORRY IM SORRY ILL LET YOU BEAT ME IF YOU PROMISE JUST TO KEEP ME BECAUSE ANYTHING is better than being Alone and no painkillers can fix that”

“I’m only here to serve, drink until I swerve, hope I learn my lesson and get what I DESERVE”

-Maus/Lamb

[frogoru]

Canvas

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getting better is nice but scary. It’s like youre becoming someone else. I guess it’s a better person, and thats probably a good thing. I’d like to be me when I heal. That would be nice.

[girltalk]

　　 　　˚ 　　　 . ✧　　 　　˚ 　　　 . ✧　　 　　˚ 　　　. ✧

you deserve the same happiness

that you wish for others

　　 　　˚ 　　　 . ✧　　 　　˚ 　　　 . ✧　　 　　˚ 　　　. ✧

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[02] im not sure what to caption this one but I really like how it came out. I’ll explain a little of the thought process: it’s hard to hide your body. Sometimes, the bag tears and it all comes spilling out. Be more careful next time you take out the trash, yeah?

TEXT:

“What did you do?

Who was that?”

-Maus(?)

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[04] something something it’s hard to grow up feeling wrong and afraid of your body when nobody MADE you feel that way. Not that it’s worse than anything someone else has been through. I had a lot of bus rides like this i think. Only one sticks out in my mind, though. It is the one where I wished I was born with no ex characteristics at all, because being a girl is scary and being a boy is impossible(?). I didn’t have the words for those feelings unfortunately. But now I do and that is makes things easier.

TEXT:

“I was on the school bus.

I was just thinking about life and my body I was wondering if I could avoid getting myperiod because it sounded scary.

I wished I was born different

But it happened anyway. It doesn't matter how hard you hope, things will go how they will. I think life doesnt care”

-Indigo

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[01] Healing is really hard because it changes things. I guess I’ve been healing for seven years. Thats ok.

TEXT:

“ive been getting better.

most people would be happy about that, I guess.

But I feel wrong. it's not that healing hurts, maybe I just hate change.

I don't like changing. I want to go back to [CENSORED] a lot of the time. But maybe it's because I miss the attention. (<- Nobody Noticed)

I get plenty of attention for good reasons now.

So maybe it isn't that.”

-Maus