Phoebe

18 | pwCDD | chronically exhausted

[orangepawscollective]

🐾phoebe🐾

cir/cirs • it/its • ny/nym • zyi/zyir

18 years old

nonhuman pwCDD

tag system below:

#🐾-rambles : for rambling/light venting

#🐾-vents : for heavier vents (will be tagged with a trigger warning beforhand)

#🐾-syscourse : for system hot-takes/syscourse

#🐾-[name] or #🐾-[emoji] (depends on if uts a part i allow to be identified or if a part i prefer to keep private): if whoever if fronting wants to identify themselves they will tag it with their name/emoji, or will use phoebe if blurry or wanting to stay unidentified

[thesweetiepienovels]

“No one is coming to save you.” I disagree ! I believe many people made up of many small moments come to save pieces of you , even if just briefly. The mentor who believed in you . The friend who said they’re proud of you. The family member that makes you laugh . The random person who held the door for you out of nothing but kindness. The teacher who took extra time to help you understand. The person who smiled at you when you walked into a store. The little kid who looks up to you. The person who randomly complimented you. Being “saved” isn’t about being whisked away and all your hardships gone, it’s about the people and things that remind you life is not all hardships, it is kindness, love, gentleness, softness, care, thoughtfulness. It is many moments made up of your lifetime that keeps you going and showing you the world is still beautiful, and will always be. Despite.

[the-io-collective]

a lot of ppl are mad at me for saying "your entire system shares a brain" and i think that says smth abt sysblr.

[saffronbaklava]

that coffee and pastry will save your life btw

[meanbuddhist]

identifying a maladaptive coping mechanism is so bitter sweet like that’s great now i know what i need to stop doing. but that’s literally my something

[podcastwizard]

you don’t realize how important lunch is until you’re wandering around thinking about how unloveable and untalented and uniquely cursed you are and then it’s 4pm and you finally eat lunch and you go Oh. oh right.

[sartres-keyhole]

there's a special kind of horror in realizing you've developed some sort of PTSD from the psychiatric system, and the only treatments available are The Fucking Psychiatric System

[stainedinink-deactivated2026041]

reblog to give the pervious person a nice rock

[fairycosmos]

this lifetime is very bizarre and then youre not even supposed to also be bizarre. Ok

[lifeafterpsychiatry]

It's always "stop harming yourself or we'll have to lock you up!!!" and never "what do you need to change to want to harm yourself less and how can we help you make some of these changes?" and that's why we're not getting anywhere

[tragicburnout]

can’t be abandoned if i don’t get attached

[wholeheartedsuggestions]

no one is coming to save yo- wrong!! everyone who has ever shown you love and/or care is saving you a little bit.

[luminote]

Inspired by a work of Donte Collins.

[orangepawscollective]

one thing people dont tell you about the tti, is that even if you make it out without having more trauma than you came in with, the stories of people who werent as fortunate get passed to you. you look up your facility to try and find community and see story upon story upon story of mistreatment, or you see posts of parents asking if a facility was beneficial, with comments saying "never send your kid there". you slowly realize that what happened to you there was not normal, that even if your experience was "positive" there was something underlying it that was negative.

they dont tell you that the tti becomes ingrained in your brain. that everywhere you look you will see someone that looks like a friend, an enemy, a staff. you will hear a story, or read a fiction book not even set in the tti, and go "that could've happened there" or even "that is exactly what happened there".

even if you dont come out traumatized, you come out with a totally different view of the world. you come out with labels, a record, a new piece of medical history. you come out different yet everyone expects you to be the same person you were when you went in, just less "crazy".

[severified]

at the end of the day, it’s you and your long distance best friend against the world

[bat-luun]

[said with increasing amount of distress] i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this i got this

[agoraphobe]