[Autoplay] And Silence Gives You Space

*Please read rules and characters list before interacting* mun and muses are of age, so NSFW will happen. Ask and messages are open, feel free to stop by with questions and memes. I'm just jumping back into this after years of being off of Tumblr and Roleplay so please bear with me.

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;ooc been kinda MIA, but Ive been having some pretty intense migraines going on so idk when I’ll fully be back

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now why is platonic cuddling so frowned upon in society fuck you man if i wanna cuddle my bff i will fucking cuddle my bff youll need a fucking crowbar to pry me off you son of a bitch

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wishlist:

you jog shirtless past my house every morning au

we’re the only single people at this wedding table lets get drunk and bitch about everyone au

“i’m a radio host who indirectly mentions you and flirts with you on my show but you’re so goddamn clueless, please just notice me i’m so desperate for you it’s kind of sad (see: welcome to night vale)” au

‘we take the same elevator every day and due to a misunderstanding I assumed you didn’t speak english and I’ve been talking to my friend about how hot you are for three weeks and apparently my friend has known from the start but you agreed not to tell me bc you both think its hilarious what the fuck’ au

you’ve been sleeping at mine because your house is being renovated and we aren’t even dating, yet every time you wake up to the baby crying and sigh, “i’ll go” i feel like we might as well be married

“you’ve been awkwardly inching your way towards the human sexuality section of the bookstore i work at for like fifteen minutes are you looking for something in particular or –?”

“We’re both cosplayers and we somehow always manage to meet each other at cons dressed as a popular ship and people want photos of us in compromising positions and oops now we’re kissing” AU

preacher’s daughter falls for a bad boy

“I’m in a bookshop and I really need that book can you get it for me??? Wait you’ve read that book? let’s have an in depth conversation about it.”

“You’re afraid that you’ll lose me in big crowds so you always hold my hand but now you just hold my hand when there’s only, like, five people around and I’m getting vry suspicious”

“Our dogs whine whenever they’re apart so we spend pretty much every day together” AU

“I walked in on your ex yelling at you so you grabbed me and kissed me  so she’d go away and I’m kind of freaked out I literally just met you last week” AU

“i accidentally took your laundry but just so you know you have awesome taste in underwear” au

the walls are really thin and i can hear everything you’re saying could you please shut the fuck up new neighbour au

awkward teenage seven-minutes-in-heaven au

foreign exchange student au

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*switches language to talk shit about you*

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//Happy munday! Finally got around to doing this, enjoy my face pff

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;ooc taking a break, theme is unfinished and character page is a mess, but I’ll work on it later

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;ooc Blog going under construction finally expect to see a new icon and blog name sometime in the future

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so there’s been a worrisome trend reappearing on my dash lately and i’m not sure if it’s just because of poor judgement or if people just aren’t aware– but i’m going to address it as simply as possible. no worries. mama teru is here to make it all clear. here’s the informal kinda salty guide to…

HOW TO WRITE CHARACTERS WITH MENTAL ILLNESSES ( without offending every single person with a mental illness in the process!! )

mental illnesses effect a lot of people, me included. i happen to also have a mental illness that is very misunderstood within the media and roleplaying community– DID. it’s really heartbreaking to see people portray nearly every character with my mental illness in a very, very negative light– and i’m sure it’s hard for others to see, too. SO, I MADE A CHECKLIST. do you think you’re well enough informed to write a character with a mental illness?  let’s find out.

   ☐  i have the mental illness i gave my character.

there’s the big one. you pass this– you’re fine. pass go. collect $200. roleplay away to your gay little heart’s content. for those of you who DON’T have the illness that you give your character, you’ve got some work to do. ANOTHER CHECKLIST.

  ☐  i have researched the mental illness thoroughly and carefully.   ☐  my research did not consist of reading a YA novel that sorta talked about it.   ☐  i REALLY REALLY REALLY researched it. researched it hard af.   ☐  i realize that this is a real mental illness that effects REAL people.   ☐  people with mental illness probably follow me, so i’m going to be respectful.   ☐ i won’t give this to my muse to make them seem ‘more edgy.’

if you missed a check on that list, DON’T GIVE YOUR CHARACTER THE MENTAL ILLNESS. if it is integral to your character– work on it. understand how it effects the people who have it in a REAL way - don’t go to the media ( which UNCEASINGLY misrepresents mental illness, ) and remember that people with the mental illness you want to give your muse ACTUALLY EXIST, they are not quirks or little add-ons to make us more interesting. they are draining and hard to cope with, and misrepresentation is rampant.

that’s it. now go, run with your little respectful writing and well-rounded muses, and be secure in the fact that you’re probably not going to step on anybody’s toes unless you stop being understanding and respectful of the fact that these are REAL THINGS that effect MANY REAL PEOPLE, so you should portray them in a REAL WAY. thanks.

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ALL YOUR FAVORITE MALE CHARACTERS AS FATHERS

ALL YOUR FAVORITE MALE CHARACTERS UP AT 3AM BOTTLE FEEDING THE BABY

ALL YOUR FAVORITE MALE CHARACTERS FALLING ASLEEP WITH THE BABY IN THEIR ARMS BECAUSE NEITHER HAVE SLEPT ALL NIGHT

ALL YOUR FAVORITE MALE CHARACTERS MAKING FACES AT THEIR BABY TO MAKE THEM LAUGH

ALL YOUR FAVORITE MALE CHARACTERS GIVING PIGGYBACK RIDES

ALL YOUR FAVORITE MALE CHARACTERS AS FATHERS

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I can’t drown my demons

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The demon was incredibly surprised when the human leaned into his side, his eyes widening to the size of dinner plates at the contact. He hesitated for a moment before awkwardly wrapping his arm around the human’s shoulders, not sure how else to comfort him.

When he nodded though, Perci couldn’t help the smirk that tugged at the corner of his mouth. Even through all that, humans were still greedy and would do anything to get what they wanted and be free from their pain, including selling their own soul to the devil’s son himself. But the human didn’t need to know that little fact.

Perci unwrapped himself from the human before tilting the blond’s head up toward him and kissing him deeply. It wasn’t conventional, no, but kissing to seal a contract made things more interesting and it always caught the humans off guard which he loved.

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Andy knew he was making the biggest mistake of his life, yet he didn’t seem to care. He didn’t even feel unsure of his actions at this point. The kiss was a little surprising, but Andy was too weak to pull away, so he let it happen, suddenly feeling calm wash over him liked he’d never felt it before.

He really did feel better and the blond felt grateful just for that, even though he probably just sold his soul to get rid of withdrawal symptoms. Andy thanked the demon, getting off of him and grabbing his backpack, not really sure what to do next. Maybe he’d crash at a friend’s place if he found his way to one of their homes. Most addresses were forgotten, since he usually only went for parties.

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I can’t drown my demons

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Perci watched as the human suffered from their choices. Usually he’d love this but the fact that he was going to be out of a soul left a sour taste in his mouth. He needed to fix this so he could make a deal.

The demon sat down next to the boy and rubbed his back soothingly in an attempt to help him calm down enough to the point where he could speak coherently. “I can help you, you know? All you have to do is say the word and I can take all your pain away.” he stated softly, reaching out and brushing some of the sweat damp hair away from the human’s face.

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Andy couldn’t help himself as he curled up against the demon, having needed some sort of contact to comfort him and he didn’t mind being held, as it eased some of the pain. He didn’t want to believe that this demon could help him, but Andy was getting desperate, homeless and on death’s bed.

The blond calmed down enough to stop crying for a moment before nodding. Of course, he was unsure what he’d be getting from this, but anything to make the pain in his body go away was completely fine by him at the moment.

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I can’t drown my demons

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Perci stayed in the area, waiting for the human to decide what he wanted to do. He knew that he’d choose the deal, they always do when they were that far gone. But it still took longer than he expected. Humans were finicky like that though so he couldn’t really hold it against them.

The brunet was walking down the street around the middle of the day, killing time like he always did when he stopped in front of the opening to a dark alley way. He just knew there was a broken soul in the shadows, he could sense it. So he decided to investigate, taking careful steps into the dark and frowning at what he saw.

“I didn’t think it was possible for you to look worse than you did last night.” he mused, going over to the human and looking down at his shaking form. “You’re gonna die from your withdrawal symptoms at this rate.”

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Even if Andy was thinking about the demon, he didn’t actually expect him to step out of the shadows like that. He couldn’t help but scoff at the demon’s comment, only for it to sound like he was coughing. If he was still at home, he’d be able to go to the ER, but he wasn’t at home; he didn’t have one anymore.

The thought of being homeless was what really killed Andy. if he survived going through withdrawal, he’d be forced to live on the streets. Even if he was starting to make a living for himself, that all didn’t matter anymore.His parents had influence in the city and he was positive they’d already made sure he wouldn’t be able to get back up on his feet. That was what he ‘deserved’.

Andy’s tremor’s pulled him from his thoughts though, as he leaned his head back trying to find some form of relief. Movement only made it worse though and he felt like his whole body was spinning and weightless. He couldn’t even stop himself from crying as he ran his hands over his face. He just wanted it all to be over already.

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I can’t drown my demons

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Perci hummed softly, raising an eyebrow at how intuitive this human was. “Well, that’s how most demons play. They try to make your life a living hell while trying to steal your soul.” he explained, picking at his nails absent mindedly. “I, on the other hand, actually do honest work with my time here. Once the contract is sealed, you’d get the body you want most.”

The demon knew of people like this human. Born one way but desire to be another. It wasn’t uncommon on his travels. “Think about it. Once you make a decision, you can summon me and we’ll get started.” he stated, pulling the glasses out of his back pocket and handing them to the human before using his powers to vanish.

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Andy’s life was already a living hell, so he didn’t know how it could possibly get any worse, but he wouldn’t take any chances. This demon was most likely be lying anyway. He scoffed, watching as the demon disappeared and he only realized then that he didn’t have his glasses on. The blond put them on and soon realized that his ride home bailed, so he grabbed his backpack and walked, which took longer than he thought and even then, police had to escort him home, because they thought he was underage, which was more than unpleasant.

The arguing wasn’t what made Andy cry, but more so the fact that his parents couldn’t admit that they’d fucked him up so horribly mentally and emotionally that he’d turned to drugs. All of the blame was put on him and he had until midnight to pack up and leave. They were doing him a favor by giving him time. So Andy packed what he needed, managing to stuff everything into one bag. He was still on the pills from the party, which caused him to be a bit slower than usual, but he managed to be out of the house by midday.

Not a few hours later and Andy was siting in an alleyway, holding himself and shaking violently from withdrawal. His head spun and he couldn’t see straight and all he could think of was the demon from the night before. Somehow, Andy thought in that moment whatever the demon gave him would be better than what he was experiencing in that moment.

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I can’t drown my demons

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Perci raised his hands up in surrender when the human pushed him back, letting him keep thinking that he had free will to leave their little conversation. “Why? Because I’m telling the truth?” he asked, following after the blond and grimacing when he vomited. Disgusting. Humans were disgusting all the time. 

“I’m a demon. You already knew that but I’d consider myself pretty powerful when it comes to others.” he hummed, crossing his arms over his chest. Of course he was more powerful. Any demon that said otherwise was dead by the time the words came out of their mouth. “I can give you anything you want….for a small price.”

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Andy grimaced at the tasted, only partially listening to the demon as he tried to wash down the taste of bile with some beer, which wasn’t much of an improvement. “Yeah, my soul.” He stated when the demon mentioned a ‘small price’. He already understood how it worked from shows and movies; real life didn’t seem to be any different. The blond grabbed water then to wash out the tasted of puke and beer---the best thing he’d done for his body all night.

It’s not going to be exactly what I wan’t though, is it.” Andy stated. He’d learned enough from watching horror movies to know that demons only existed to fuck people over. Of course, he was tired of dealing with the body he was born into, but the bigger consequence would be coming home and having his parents disown him because he ‘destroyed’ his ‘precious’ female body. No way was he going to take this deal while still living under the same roof as his parents.

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I can’t drown my demons

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Perci watched as the human tried fleetingly to get up, an amused look on his face, at least until they rolled over and he noticed they weren’t exactly how the presented themselves. “Sure you are. Which is why you can barely hold yourself up.” he sighed, tucking the glasses in his back pocket and recasting his more human looking disguise as he helped the blond to his feet. 

“Tell me, what is it that you want more than anything before you OD on drugs? Money? Women? Power?” he started, looking the human up and down once before smirking knowingly. “A penis?”

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Andy was grateful to be helped to his feet, but he bristled at the last thing the guy mentioned. He knew too well that life didn’t work that way and he could never get what he wanted, even if he sold his soul. “Shut up.” He muttered, shoving himself away from the guy and walking towards the counter, grabbing a half empty bottle of beer and taking a swig from it.

He leaned heavily against the counter until he had his forehead pressed against the cool granite. This was how most nights ended, but he didn’t want to expel the contents in his stomach just yet. That didn’t stop his body, though and he lifted his head over the sink, puking out everything he could to try and make himself feel better. In a sense.

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I can’t drown my demons

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Perci couldn’t keep the grin off his face as he watched the humans scatter like insects after lifting a rock. It was marvelous. That’s when he noticed a boy collapse as he ran and the demon couldn’t help himself, walking over and kneeling in front of the blond.

He could tell the human was high off his ass on whatever drugs were at the party which made this even better. He was more susceptible to his charms like this. “Oh, seems like you’ve had a bit too much fun for you’re system to take.” he mused, picking up the glasses that and fallen to the floor and turning them over in his hand some.

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There should’ve been some fear or adrenaline running through Andy’s system, but all he could say was that he felt numb to the point where he couldn’t even remember why he fell or why he was running in the first place. He could only groan in response to the demon, rolling over to face him. He couldn’t see much without his glasses, so he just stared blankly, realizing that his glasses probably fell off his face.

“I’m fine...” He muttered, rolling over back onto his stomach as he tried to scrambled back up to his feet like a puppy on waxed flooring. Andy couldn’t manage finding any balance though, sliding right back to where he started, only to feel his stomach turn in reaction to everything he took that night.

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I can’t drown my demons

Wandering around the earth for 1,000 years was great an all, sure he got to see societies rise and fall, mountains get replaced with seas, but it was still boring. The only fun Perci really ever got to have was when he was around humans. Whether he was making them scream in pain or pleasure, it was always a good time. He’d been feeling especially sadistic that day though and really needed someone to mess with, which was when he sensed that someone was using a Ouji board nearby and it peeked his interest. The brunet easily made his way over to the house that a party was apparently going on in, already able to tell that it was over flowing with drugs and alcohol, and snuck inside unnoticed. It was fairly easy to blend in with the crowd, especially since no one was paying attention to him in his human disguise. Once Perci located where the kids were messing around with the Ouji board, the demon decided to have a little fun for a few minutes, waving his hand subtly and moving the glass piece around the board so he could answer the questions.

After a few moments though, that started to get boring. The kids were running out of interesting questions and everyone was starting to loose interest. So Perci decided to fuck it, letting his disguise dissipate and showing off his real form before snapping his fingers to turn off the music. “You know, you really shouldn’t mess with that stuff. It’ll invite something you don’t want into your home.” he mused, smirking evilly as he used his powers to tear apart the room and send the people in the house running while he laughed.

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It was never easy to be sober for Andy. His parents gave him hell constantly and pressure from other people and even himself became too much for him to handle. He turned to the sweet song of partying and doing drugs to cope and he couldn’t keep himself from staying away, even after each hellish morning coming off of whatever he took the night before. The thing was, nobody cared who or what he was, just if they were having a good time.

At some point in the party, somebody broke out a Ouija board and Andy felt compelled to speak with the afterlife after being off his face on Acid, weed and some pills a friend gave him. Everything seemed to go fine, they asked dumb questions and the ghost answered, that was, until a demon came up from nowhere and started destroying the place.

Everyone pretty much scattered, but the world seemed to slow down for Andy. He got up and barely even made it out of the living room, his eyes still on the back door in the kitchen as he fell flat on his face. He knew drugs would be the death of him, but not like this. The blond tried to sit up, his glasses sliding off his face and clattering to the floor. At least he could say he tried.