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the combination of bpd and adhd is like convincing urself you're a failure and it'd be for the best to unalive but then getting distracted by some random thing and completely forgetting ur train of thought for a while and it's just a neverending cycle
splitting on ur therapist is just a way of life, really
asking someone to push plans later in order to sleep longer and then not sleeping anyway? couldn't be me
signing up for the metaverse just so i can finally fulfill my dream of deleting myself
brain: ok, here's the energy to do a task
me: great, I'll work on one of the urgent/important tasks i haven't been able to finish
brain: ah no, actually anything except those
me: today i will do dishes
me, that night: tomorrow i will do dishes
me, the next day: the dishes will simply live in the sink, as it is their new home
the amount of time i think about getting things done vs the amount of time i get things done:
a graph i am thinking about making
heya! i hope you're doing okay <3
i hope it is okay for me to ask ( if it's not, then, just don't answer this, m sorry:(((( ).
im doing some research on bpd because im pretty sure that i may have it? i recently found out that im autistic, and im basically having an existential crisis. not that it has nothing to do withthis, but,
what are your symptoms for bpd, personally? i cant go to a therapist or anything because they're just... not good. last therapist basically kind of denied my autism by saying it was aspergers and that it had nothing to do with it.
i hope this is okay, ahhh, sorry if its not 💗
Hi! First of all, I'm sorry for the wait in a response! Things got really hectic for a bit in my personal life. I hope you are doing okay <3 It's absolutely OK to ask and I'm glad you're seeking out information, when I was dxed with bpd I was super overwhelmed! (Note that I was professionally dxed but this is a self-dx supportive space!)
Everyone experiences bpd differently, that's why the DSM has multiple criteria and people don't always experience all of them. (Of course the DSM has its issues but just as a starting point ya know.) For me the major symptoms were very unstable moods, a lot of distress (+sh), really unstable relationships (not just romantic but close friends too) where I dealt with idealization & splitting. Fearing abandonment and taking desperate measures to avoid it. And dissociation. A lot of people experience impulsive/"reckless" behavior as well. I hope that helps! Kind of underpinning everything is not really having a sense of identity/self.
Not being autistic I don't have much experience about how you might experience comorbidity (multiple dxes because they can sometimes share symptoms or affect each other) but I know there are ppl on here who do.
I know that's a lot but I hope that helps and if you have more questions/that didn't quite get at it please let me know!
One more thing, I am so so sorry about your experience with a therapist. <3 You didn't deserve that dismissive behavior and its honestly pretty abhorrent. I do want to say, that if you ever feel comfortable trying out therapy again (understandable if not) not all therapists are like that, I am lucky to have a great therapist but did have some very invalidating experiences with therapists before finding her.
When you say something foolish in front of friends and then realize it that night lying in bed and then you can never talk to them again
had a BIG MOOD SWING and was unironically like "god it's like i have bpd" and then i remembered yes i do
turning message notifications off then checking obsessively anyway
why am i this way
[insert aesthetic post that says "im so tired" in italics with a background that invokes sadness and the word tired repeating, each time becoming more transparent]
"am i the literal worst or did someone just make me feel that way for an extended period of time until i believed it": a novel by me
me: hmm, they havn’t replied in a while, i wonder what’s up
my brain: they hate you and are cutting you out
me:
me @ me
"Am I Splitting Or Are You Just Irritating": a novel by me