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TW for my entire page it’s depresso espresso

[otimaybe]

A flimsy door, a rotten floor,

a window boarded shut

Chests that won’t close, spilling insults,

an overfilled teacup

Dismissive “no”s, smiles jus for show,

shouted words that cut

A lock, a key, imprison me,

I keep myself locked up

[otimaybe]

I would like to live in forests,

hiding in the tallest trees.

I would like to live in rivers,

flowing down the stream with ease.

I would like to live in mountains,

rocky inconsistencies.

I would like to live in grass fields,

far from all uncertainties.

I’d hide my sin,

in gusts of wind,

To feel that sweet release.

My mind in glints,

of who I’ve been.

So I can live in peace.

I’d like to live,

To breathe, to heal,

I could, I am, I will.

[otimaybe]

I DO CARE I CARE ABOUT EVERYTHING

I CARE SO MUCH IT GETS ME ACHING AND ICKY AND ITCHING MY SKIN FOR RELEASE

AND GRIPPING AND CLAWING AND PINCHING FOR PEACE

TILL I’VE SCRATCHED AND BRUISED EVERY INCH OF MY SHINS

TEARS STAIN MY SHIRT AND THE ROOM STARTS TO SPIN

THE GROUNDS GETS CLOSER THE LIGHTS TURN DIM

I DON’T KNOW WHERE I AM CAN’T REMEMBER WHERE I’VE BEEN

BUT I KNOW WHERE I’M GOING AND THAT I WON’T LIKE IT THERE

[otimaybe]

how much longer till the weekend, how long till we go home

how much longer till the school day ends, i wanna be alone

how much longer till vacation, how much longer till it snows

how much longer till i stop asking how long till i can go

how much longer till i move away, how long till i’m sixteen

how much longer till im dead, how long will i stay here

how much longer till the holiday, how much longer till new years

how much longer till I’m dying, will it hurt to leave?

[otimaybe]

I just made a decision

To marry you. Yay yay

show me the ring

[otimaybe]

oti

anon

[otimaybe]

Yo, why is it that it is but it isn't yet it still is?

that’s classified, but i can reveal that it infact is

[otimaybe]

And I just hate how anytime I’m bullshitting I speak with the eloquence of a 16th century poet but when I try to say anything of like a tiny speck of importance I sound like a fucking frat boy.

Like my entire creative process is just me feeling Big Feelings and writing them down and then going back later and cringing for good minute or two before making it all rhyme and turning stuff like “it just makes me really fucking tired bro” into “and exhaustion taints my mind and paints my under eyes blue” or some shit until i Loose The Write and sit there like “what rhymes with blue … duuuude. Ah shit the frat boy is back better luck next time”

[otimaybe]

it’s hard to feel at home when there’s a bag on your floor

even my things don’t have a place they belong

like me they move from door to door

just stay in the bag all week long

i’ve never slept in one bed for over a week at a time

every night monachopsis comes creeping in my mind

and i never have control over all of my things

half is at mums the other half has gone missing

lost between moving from room to room

tomb to tomb. theres always a bag in my room

[otimaybe]

“what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”

what doesn’t kill me makes me want to kill myself

what doesn’t kill me mutates and tries again

it takes things you cannot ever regain

leaves you in places you cannot escape

traps you, forces you to shut yourself away

isolate

that kills you

what doesn’t kill you has something else close behind

that kills you in a way that takes a lot more time

it creeps through your eyes and settles in your mind

hurts in pretty ways you can turn into rhymes

and hurts in ugly ways that you lock up and hide

it robs you of your pride

it makes you very very tired

kills you and it does it all from inside

kills you and blames it on Suicide

[elvy16]

Me and my bsf based on this picrew thing that we did

@otimaybe

[otimaybe]

my favourite artist<3

[werewolfadmirer]

PICREW TAG GAME!!!

use this picrew maker, and tag your moots!

Me!! It looks quite close to me in irl :3

no pressure tags!:

@whatonearthisgoingon @mrecury42 @mochamoony @yes-ofc-i-bite @acelovesremuslupin @notthesodaa @theheightsarewuthering

[astra-v4lontine]

@bilegyrtheking @btfirelord @thattransgirllora @transcommiefromouterspace @thegenderfluidgokenin @peepawsammywammywoo @kuromiota @akiseochi

[doctor-worm-is-dead]

This is about as close to me as i could get

@keirtheanarchist @otimaybe @banjo15 @k4rlm4rxs-1mm0rt4l-c4t @parallel-system

[otimaybe]

pretty decent

@river410 @noobygg1

[otimaybe]

I know it’s bad when I write easier than I breathe

and the breath that does come, comes in hitches and heaves

and all I ever think about is when I leave

the party, the job, the town, people

the feels

that make it easier to write

gets words spilling out of me left and right

out to the night to reunite with the rivers they came from

whispering light

“it’s alright”

[otimaybe]

I’m sorry I’m a dickhead, it’s just that I’m young

I’m sorry I’m distant, my brain developed wrong

it’s sounds impossible but I promise it’s not

you’d be surprised how easy it is to fuck someone up

when they’re young

when you’re supposed to be mum

and be safe

but I used to daydream of escape

of brilliant places, of far far away

I don’t think I was ever okay

when I was young

[otimaybe]

I can’t tell when I’m hungry anymore

I’m always hurting but I’m not sure

where or why or for how long

this pain in my gut has been going on

when did I last eat?

how am I supposed to feel

the difference between

hungry and full

actually I think I’m just ill

when did I last eat?

I think it’s my heart that is hungry

for safety

and my head that is full and my gut is just aching

from confusion and maybe it’s the caffeine

I should eat something

[knifetheloserboy-deactivated202]

?

[joellalalala]

@theatreandducks @jaydenartemis97 @mistykitten-gxm @er-idkhehe @moonlarkandpinetree @maycelah @silvermuncher @penultimate-peril @mysteriousmsf @fliresiidefrfr @orangejuicefromgeico @ocherine @kronkys-f-art @astraeajackson @solreefswift @underscorep2 @cnjsmnzz @shanelbronynsonicfan @sxftlii-lizziee @taylorswiftfostersitagain @stagedoor-sobber @ann-lol @daggernamedhope @clarityroses2 @leftduckdetective @alaydabug2 @sprout-the-red-panda

[orangejuicefromgeico]

A mix of heart, discman, and VHS :D

TAGATAGTAGAS: @crunchmunchmunchcrunch @forgthetheaterkid @xxvioriththefoxxx @therealranunculus

[forgthetheaterkid]

THESE ARE HORRIFYING

VHS I think!

@lavaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa @sondheim-girly

@indighostoast @notsolaris

[notsolaris]

hmm i think mostly vhs and a bit of discman!!

@silly-activites @caffeinated-object @purple-dinosaur17 @i-love-my-gays @prog-elitist + anyone else

[i-love-my-gays]

I think mostly VHS but also heart

@green-the-corvus @sadly-god @somefuckingcreature @franklyobsessed @that1weirdbandkid @rins-batcave @patheticboytodd @chickencentaur @mildlybizarrecorvid

[the-queer]

VHS but also discman. What about me

@hauntedmoontimetravel @necromancers-incorporated @sillyness-incarnate @anomymous2

[guardian-of-thespirit]

VHS, gasmask, moth and teeth(friendly manner). Tags

@overwhelmedfernfrond,@thespideysavvy,@xoxo-ares,@ruler-of-nothing-important,@rottingangel9,@lunadreamsdespondently,@lyssieslife524,@mauvelsy,@shadowcreature2,@bridgemino,@inspirationallybored,@verdantachillean,@theoneautisticthespian,@themushroomstheyfoundme,@endlessnebula,@elusiveworm,@hauntedfragility+open tags

[ruler-of-nothing-important]

VHS and teeth (not in a bad way just coz i just want to fight anyone i can)

@what-is-going-on-im-confused @sparklywafflefry @potted-plant-official @thatoneartist-inthecorner @frooglet @blacklicoriceisgood @dizzycloudzzz +open tagss

[frooglet]

VHS and heart 😎

Also ty for the tag <333

@aroace-not-arokay @m1kuuuuu @wood-leaf-tee-hee @saltycatgirl @mrecury42 @i-eat-asphalt @ommatophile @onesingularbraincell @14-opossums-in-a-trenchcoat @thatoneartist-inthecorner @the-toaster-rat @1shouldbedoinghomeworknow @coffeeadaykeepsthesleepaway

+ no pressure

+ everyone else

+ open tags!!! (FR OPEN TAGS, DON'T BE FEARFUL)

[saltycatgirl]

Vhs and flame @carrotwritesalot @transcommiefromouterspace @thesaltyblobfish

[doctor-worm-is-dead]

VHS and flame

@otimaybe @anarkittyyy @keirtheanarchist @banjo15

[otimaybe]

VHS and beer

also i can’t help but notice how literally everyone picked VHS…need i say group weird movie marathon?

@river410

[otimaybe]

First poem/song/whatever I wrote.

There once was a little girl

Who’s grades never dropped and who’s hair never curled

They told her she would rule the world

Now she doesn’t even have motivation to work

5, 5, 5, 5, 5’s all around

Why? Why? Why? Why? Why does she sound

So damn disappointed

All this could be avoided

If you had just taught her how to work hard

Instead of telling her she was naturally smart

There’s a not so little girl

Who’s grades won’t rise and who’s hair still won’t curl

And all she needs is for someone to tell her

Just cause you’re not great yet doesn’t mean you won’t get better

3, 3, 3, 3, 3, and a four

Knees, knees, knees, knees drop to the floor

Shes so disappointed

All this would’ve been avoided

If you had just taught her she has to work hard

To make it in life to let down that guard

She put up when she was only eleven years old

All these years she has never told a single soul

she’s terrified of getting old cause the world is cold

And it wasn’t made for gifted kids

Might as well call it quits

There once was a little girl

Who’s grades couldn’t drop and who’s hair couldn’t curl

They ordered her rule the world

She’s struggling to survive it

3, 4, 3, 2, 2, 2, 1

3, 3, 2, 2, what have i done

She failed science

She has to tell her parents

There once was a teenage girl

Her parents were shouting and yelling at her

She was gonna rule the world

But she can’t cause she doesn’t know how chemistry works

If only she knew what it meant to work hard

To push through and try, she would have made it so far

She’d shine like the sun amongst millions of stars

And her parents would tell her how proud they are

But she’s growing too old too quickly,

the world is cold

And it was not made for gifted kids