Multitransitional Experiences

Icon is the multitransitional flag by eldorr, banner is the alt multitransitional flag by vampitsm

[our-multitrans-experience]

This is an experience blog for those who are multitrans/multitransitional.

That can either mean transitioning in multiple directions at the same time (transmascfem, transmascneu, transfemneu, transneuxen, transmascnull, transxenfem, transmascfemneu, etc.) and/or having multiple consecutive transitions that you consider to all be significant (FtMtF, MtFtM, FtMtFtM, MtFtMtF, FtMtX, MtFtX, XtFtM, XtMtX, FtXtMtX, MtXtF, etc.). Multitrans is an opt-in label, so not everyone in either group will consider themselves multitransitional.

I wanted to make this because I’m (probably?) multitrans myself and I was having a difficulty finding dedicated blogs for the concept. I was hoping I could make a blog for sharing our experiences and stories.

I can clean this intro up later and add more information, but right now I’m just trying to get this blog off the ground. I’m going to tag some of the other experience blogs that might have overlapping subjects. This isn’t an obligation to promo me, just me making the offer. @our-queer-experience, @our-transfeminine-experience, @our-transmasc-experiences, @our-nonbinary-experience, @our-multigender-experience, @our-honeybee-transfem-experience, @coffeebean-transmasc-experience

[our-multitrans-experience]

Being FTMTF in a way that has no bearings on perisex people because I was cis F as a baby then a cis boy as a child and teen and a cis man until 21. I was AFAB but then forced to be raised as a boy and a man and mocked for every feminine thing I did.

It took years to accept that yes when I was a boy/man I was actually cis. I was just cis in a way that a lot of people don't actually understand and accept as cis. I had to accept that to accept it was possible for me to transition and allow myself to be a woman.

I thought I had to be a man because I had dysphoria and based on my AGAB the only ever accepted transition was to manhood in my eyes- even though everyone in my life wanted and forced me to be a man I thought it was the answer for me. Turns out it was because I wasn't a man and was forced to be one.

Some people have claimed I'm a detransitioner but they don't understand that I don't fully get along with and understand detrans women. They talk about a girlhood before transition that I never once had. They don't often consider getting bottom surgery, or discuss insecurity over infertility and mourning that they may never be able to birth their own child. They don't understand being bullied for being too feminine.

I've only found true understanding to the fullest extent with other transfem intersex people who got their assignment socially flipped to male at some point after birth.

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[our-multitrans-experience]

multitrans experience is being a tomboy and a femboy and getting euphoria and dysphoria from both at any given time

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[our-multitrans-experience]

might be silly but in my eyes a lot of pokemon are #gender goals for me

nihilego for transfemnullxen, xurkitree for transneumasc, sylveon for transfemmasc, etc etc

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(I don’t play Pokemon but I trust you on this.)

[our-multitrans-experience]

The multitrans experience is originally being transmasc because I felt dysphoric about my body, then realizing that I felt that way because of IGM and medical abuse from being intersex and am now transfem

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(Sorry it took me so long to post this)

[our-multitrans-experience]

i remember looking at an image of a queer person describing themself as "a drag queen trapped in mans body trapped in a womans body" and it really stuck with me.. thats such a fun way to describe it, i always smile when remembering it...

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[our-multitrans-experience]

Multitransitional experience is "more trans per trans" /ref

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[our-multitrans-experience]

multitrans experience is: how do i even outwardly present the way i identify if i'm multiple things ..

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(This is honestly quite real)

[this-is-multigenderphobia]

more internalised multigenderphobia I think-

even though I think using both transmasc and transfem labels would fit me, the erasure of multigender people and people often using transmasc as synonymous with trans man and transfem synonymous with trans woman, I feel like I can't use transfem label. I know transmasc & transfem labels originate from non-binary community, and they original meaning is the direction one's transitioning too, but with the fact that labels' meaning a bit evolved, I feel like I can't use both labels even though I kinda transition/want to transition to both masculinity&femininity in some way. And kind of fear of being attacked by others doesn't help either. Even though I know my closest friends are supportive (or at least believe they are...), I'm a bit worried how would they react if I used the transfem label (because of being SETE [someone expected to estrogenize] /I'm not sure if I'm perisex or intersex (I'm suspecting something but can't check it for sure)/ + AFAB + socially imposed female).

Heya anon, I get it. It is pretty rare to see people use transmasc and transfem as not another binary or considering non binary people as the main users, so I understand why you'd feel that way, so did I. You absolutely can use the labels, them evolving doesnt negate their original meaning nor your personal interpretation of your gender journey through the labels. Transitioning towards both masculinity and femininity is a super valid reason to use transfem and transmasc label.

On the last bit, there is a lot of discourse going around, but that's inevitable unfortunately. My specific stance is that transfem and transmasc shouldnt be exclusive to a certain sex/agab/sig, because the idea that you're not "trans enough" unless you try and transition in a man-lite way doesnt sit right with me at all. It's entirely exorsexist and multigenderphobic, not to mention intersexist at its basis, so I am of the opinion that there's nothing wrong with being transfem or transmasc even if your experience isnt what people typically associate the label to.

I understand your fear a lot, I tend to dive too deep into these kinds of discussions but do understand that everyone has a different experience of gender and view of their journey, and that labels are just words we use to briefly and broadly communicate a meaning- they arent the end all be all of human experience, and before labels people described their gender in all types of "funky" ways, unconventional, bizzare and personal, it might help you to go look for some of those older descriptions to realize that your view of yourself hurts no one.

It is important to remember that that means transfems as a whole dont have necessarily the same experiences and so to listen to other people w different lives, so everyone gets support and help. It doesnt meant that you are wrong for feeling a certain way. That's a feeling that's sure to have been thrown towards every single trans person out there.

You're welcome to give @our-multitrans-experience a look too for some other perspectives. And as always, you are welcome in the askbox anytime you need anon.

[our-multitrans-experience]

multitrabs experience is finally getting a job so that i can start transitioning the way i’ve always wanted to

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(Congrats! So happy for you!)

[yourfaveisintersex]

Peril from Wings of Fire is an intersex transfemmasc (link) AGABpunk (link), and she has hyperestrogenism that causes severe Premenstrual Dysphoric Disorder (PMDD)!

Intersex flag-only and 7-stripe transfemmasc flag edits under the cut!

[aetherive]

Transxenuline || Transxeninine

[Image ID (left): a rectangular flag with seven horizontal stripes in the following colors, from top to bottom: gulf stream cyan, grey teal, rhino blue, woody brown, medium orangy red, dust orange, and pavlova. /end ID]

[Image ID (right): a rectangular flag with seven horizontal stripes in the following colors, from top to bottom: pavlova, moss green, camo green, timber green, dark pastel greyish blue, dark lavender, and pastel pink. /end ID]

Alternate Transxenine Combination Flags.

plain text: Alternate Transxenine Combination Flags.

— (Alternate) transxenine + transmasc and transxenine + transfem flags, because I literally looked for like. An hour. And still couldn't find any but I'm sure they exist elsewhere

— Alternate names for these can include: transxenuline/transxeninine, transxeninemasc/transxeninefem, transmascxenine/transfemxenine, ect.

— The flags aren't supposed to have correlation to blue = masc and pink = fem or any deeper meaning other than I just thought the colors were pretty and it was 2am when I made these flags

[our-multitrans-experience]

Finally sending this in.

I’m xenic, but, like, female-to-male-to-xenogender. And in a way that aligns a bit more closely with ftmtf experiences than ftm experiences. At least from what I’ve seen of both groups. I don’t know. One of the categories of xenogenders I hoard is dollgenders. They’re really really amazing and I like them. But “ftmtf dollhood” has such a strong association with kink and I hate it.

I’m really really ace. I have no interest in ever having sex with anyone. I don’t like to think about or talk about sex. So this really bothers me. Even though it probably shouldn’t. I usually present very masc/“butch” (can I call it being butch if I’m not interested in women?), which is what I do like dressing like. But I think I would have the courage to do more of the frilly dollcore stuff that I also like if this wasn’t in the back of my head all the time. That it might be interpreted that way.

I should just call myself xenic with no specifications. People don’t need to know my personal history. But it feels important to me.

Just getting this out of my head.

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[respirgender]

if a flag for this already exists, consider mine to be an alt. flag made by alex (it/⦻/ark/he).

ocean themed transfemmasc flag. symbol from flaticon (link).

[image ID: two nearly-identical rectangular flags, both with 5 horizontal stripes. the colours of the stripes, from top to bottom, are: very light yellow, light pink, muted purple, muted indigo-blue, dark-ish royal blue. in the center of the second flag is a starfish symbol, which is a gradient from very light yellow to light pink. the symbol is outlined in dark-ish royal blue. end image ID.]

[learn-how-to-love]

Extremely funny phenomena I’ve seen is trans bigots on this site doing their equivalent of the conservative bit of “well I’m going to start wearing a dress and going in women’s restrooms and see how YOU like it!” And having no response when the people they’re trying to get a rise out of are like “okay that’s awesome I hope you have fun”

[neopronouns]

flag id: a flag with 6 stripes, which are blue, light green, white, light yellow, orange, and pink. end id.

banner id: a 1600x200 teal banner with the words ‘please read my dni before interacting. those on my / dni may still use my terms, so do not recoin them.’ in large white text in the center. the text takes up two lines, split at the slash. end id.

pantransitional/pantransitioning: transitioning in all directions within one's experiences

[pt: pantransitional/pantransitioning: transitioning in all directions within one's experiences. end pt]

for anon! the flag is in a six-stripe format like this transitioning flag and uses a range of colors to represent transitioning in many directions, with the inclusion of white, yellow, and orange inspired by the pangender flag.

tags: @radiomogai, @liom-archive, @macchiane, @genderstarbucks, @sugar-and-vice-mogai

tags cont: @prettypinknarc, @skrimbliest

dni link

[no-fear-queers]