because yuu's geniuenly my favorite character....... im still torturing them
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Yuu occasionally forgets details about their old world. First itâs small things like favorite snack brands, a classmateâs face, the route home from school. Then one day they realize they canât remember their own bedroom clearly anymore.
Nobody at NRC fully understands how lonely being magicless is. The first years mentions it rarely but in a casual way, like 'oh yeah we forgot', but Yuu constantly lives with the awareness that if something goes wrong, they canât protect themselves the same way everyone else can. They're thankful to have friends that protected them during the overblots even tho they felt utterly useless...
Ramshackle is cold because the dorm was abandoned for so long, and sometimes Yuu stays awake listening to the building creak, realizing thereâs nobody in this world they truly belong with.
Grim notices when Yuu is homesick before anyone else does. Heâll start fights or act extra annoying on purpose just to distract them from crying.
Yuu keeps souvenirs from every dorm. Not because theyâre sentimental, but because theyâre terrified that if they ever go home, this world will disappear like a dream.
Some nights Yuu quietly wonders whether their family thinks they disappeared⌠or died. (I think I saw something about Yuu's original world being paused or something like that in one of the novels but im not too sure so...)
Ace is one of the first people to realize Yuu smiles differently around others versus when theyâre alone.
Yuu gets used to being needed only during crises. They become âthe reliable prefect,â but secretly start feeling like people only come to Ramshackle when everything is falling apart.
Malleus visiting Ramshackle late at night becomes important because heâs one of the few people who understands isolation. Neither of them says it directly.
After every overblot incident, Yuu becomes more afraid. Not of the overblots themselves, but of losing the people theyâve grown attached to.
Thereâs a version of Yuu that stops talking about going home because they realize NRC is home now⌠and that realization scares them more than anything.
Crowley promising âweâll find a way home soonâ starts hurting after a while because Yuu can tell he doesnât (want to) know.
Yuu sometimes sits in on magic studies they can never use anyway. Not because they expect to learn magic, just because they want to feel included.
The students eventually stop calling Ramshackle âhauntedâ and start calling it âhome,â and Yuu nearly cries the first time they overhear it.
If Yuu ever made it back to their original world, the loneliness would hit in subtle moments. Reaching for their phone to text Ace about something dumb. Hearing thunder and thinking of Diasomnia. Turning around to tell Grim a joke before remembering he isnât there. And the worst part would be knowing nobody around them could truly understand why they miss a world that technically never existed.
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