So me and my boyfriend aren't talking really as of yesterday... He's been progressively getting worse in his meth use, and whenever we hung out it was just him driving my car, me sitting in the passenger seat, driving for hours picking up, moving, and selling meth. He would always be saying that we can spend time together, just us, but then when I'd go to him it would change that he "really needs to get this stuff done". Like yesterday for example, it was the 4th of July and he had asked me weeks ago if I would watch fireworks with him. So yesterday I told him we could run around and get everything done so we can go find a nice spot for just him and me to go watch fireworks. And then that changes into one of his legit scary drug buddies going to watch them with us, and then that changes to he needs to make money and move this dope tonight so we can't watch fireworks. I say that I don't think it's too much for me to ask for an hour or two of his time to spend with us just focusing on each other. I say that he's enough for me, but I feel like I'm not enough for him. I tell him I miss him. I said I was so angry. He starts crying, saying he hates letting me down. He says he's starting to have really dark thoughts, and I've never seen him cry like this before. We agree that we aren't going to really talk until he gets better, but I asked him if I could just have this one last night with him and he wouldn't even do that. I know where his priorities are at right now, and I don't fit into his priorities. Until I do, I gotta stay the fuck away...