it's conjOined twins

| lana | multifandom but mostly spn | deangirl or girl!dean ?¿ | tumblr + 00's dvd covers lovechild | read the pinned post |

[paganroadboy]

i was daisyfangfairy but i changed it

im looking for bringing some life in this blog.... again. but im feeling like im at this point of my life where i really need some kind of secret cozy corner (even though i was doing really well in a past few months)

and also im looking for the mutuals and maybe potential online friends, who knows

(and also im bringing apologizes in advance for possible errors in my writing as english is not my native language, but i know it quite well)

about me:

lana

23

she/her

bi

pink is my favorite color

im lovechild of 00's vibes, various 14-17th tumblr aesthetics and 2020 indie kid/kidcore. i see myself as an empathetic person with deep interest in life itself in all possible forms. im currently in progress of getting my masters degree in family psychology and wannabe future sexologist. my hobby is film and mobile photography.

my fandoms:

supernatural

coraline

euphoria

911

holy emo quartet

stranger things

arcane

american horror story

dexter

the boys

house md

desperate housewives

scrubs

death note

im also a big fan of classic disney animation, pixar and tim burton movies

my beloved ships:

wincest

crowstiel

rules

buddie

zaundads

byler

petekey

ryden

lawlight

(diclaimer: i do not tolerate any incest form irl. i ship only two adult fictional characters)

my music:

charli xcx

lana del rey

pvris

holy emo quartet

paramore

nickeback

whitesnake

type o negative

tv girl

halsey

easy-e

tbh my music taste is very various, im listening to pop, indie, alternative, rock, pop punk, punk rock, tumblr era songs, gangsta rap, 80's pop, 30's gospel blues and god knows what else

im welcoming everybody (except minors) who is ok with all mentioned information♡♡♡

im planning on sharing my life, my room decorating process (im moving to new place very soon), my thoughts about different shows and ships and my photography 🤍

[paganroadboy]

sorry for dissappearing, last week was craaaaazy (in a good way)

but i literally don't have enough time to sleep, let alone blog

this december is on a cosmic swag level. my life suddenly turned into a carousel of events

[paganroadboy]

i think i accidently fell in love a little bit....

i was at my friends little party and he introduced me to his coworker

she has so tumblr coded playlist and she told me she is a lesbian

and then we were in a taxi, drinking gin and listening to her playlist and it felt so fucking romantic

i feel like she got something big and tender in her

she had touched something that no one had touched since I was 16 (when i had first and last romantic thing with a girl. now i know that there is corner in my heart with "only girls allowed" sign on it and no boy can enter it)

[paganroadboy]

god, i think i've completely forgotten how to flirt idk how to chat with her

she messaged me "it was an awesome trip🤪" after i got out of the taxi. does that means anything or nothing

omg im really feeling myself 16 again

with the same level of awkwardness and my heart is wide open

[paganroadboy]

all I want now is an endless taxi ride with her and lovers by anna of the north playing in the background

[paganroadboy]

guys we were chatting about half an hour ago and she admitted that she flirted with me when we were in taxi

am i cooked

[paganroadboy]

update: we went on a first date!! we were at a very beatifully designed bar. she asked me "what if i kissed you?" after it. i said that it'd be nice. omg im smiling like crazy while typing this

[heaveninmyhead]

teen sam's polaroids .

[fvckthistown]

[paganroadboy]

rewatched 4x14ep and came to conclusion that sirens are the most vile, terrifying and destructive monsters among all non-biblical creatures in supernatural.

molding themselves into the most perfect dream-came-true form for their victims, bending their will, making them to kill their loved ones and then dissappearing, leaving them alone with what they had done.

they don't want murders. they want you to do the most terrible thing you could ever do in your life. they want to destroy your soul. they don't need it for survival. they do it for fun.

pure horror in flesh.

[paganroadboy]

idk what specifically you wanted in your inbox, so heres some random questions!

do you watch sports? if so who's your favorite team?

favorite spn character besides sam&dean? why?

favorite scent?

what got you into spn?

hii!! i love random questions bc i think they're most fun to answer

1) no, i don't watch any sports, only super bowl music performances. i think basketball is pretty interesting and sometimes i can watch it for a while when im changing channels but i've never gone further in my knowledge of this sport than who LeBron James is

2) its really hard to choose but i'll stick to crowley, bobby and ash

i love crowley with all my heart and it was really hard for me to watch the show after he's gone. i love his mannerism, his devil side, his human side, his sense of humor and the fact that he never underestimated the winchesters

bobby is the best father to boys, he was better than john could ever be without even trying, and his brain is like the library of alexandria

ash... i wish we had more of him. he's literally the most kind and smart badass in the whole world and i miss him so much. there is something fabulous about him

3) floral or bakery scents. jasmine, rosehip oil, lilac, lavender, mallow, freshly cut grass, peony, neroli, iris, lily, etc. cinnamon, chocolate, marzipan, banana nut bread, freshly baked bread, strawberry cheesecake, apple pie, brownies, etc.

4) it was october 2014 (my 6th grade) and my bestie at the time suddenly started constantly pestering me with "you must watch this show!!". i started watching and realized that i just couldn't stop. i've been watching it non-stop for three weeks in every spare minute i had. i was like "fuck school, fuck sleep, fuck chores", it was like a drug, seriously. this show is like a first love to me (and its a hundred times better than my real first love). after these amazing three weeks i started going down the rabbit hole of spn fandom and now we're here

thanks for the questions, it was very interesting to answer them!!

[paganroadboy]

ur a dean girl. im a sam girl. we should unite and end all misguided hate

abolutely agree, im a dean girl but i really love sam very much

[paganroadboy]

have you ever heard of the tv show hannibal? i think with our shared interests you might like it as much as I do.

i physically breath it in and think about it as much as i do wincest

hii! yeah, i've heard a lot about it and it sometimes appears in my tiktok feed, but i haven't watched it yet :( for some reason i always put off watching this show but i'll watch it, i promise :')

[paganroadboy]

go drop something in my ask box, im bored

[paganroadboy]

rn im full in my spn rewatch era but i gotta warn all my followers that once 9x07ep of 911 will be released ill become the most desperate buddie believer

[paganroadboy]

the art of supernatural magazine covers p4

(p1) (p2) (p3)

[paganroadboy]

*aggressively subscribing to every wincest shipper blog i can find*

[paganroadboy]

wincest eras:

1 - 3: young, wild, reckless. tangled together like a rats king. playing, teasing and pleasing. still processing their feelings. rushing at full speed and hitting stop signs.

4 - 10: tired, desperate, constantly pushing off their limits. fighting either with each other or with each others demons. dying, lying, trying to save the world.

11 - 15: more stable and secure. domestification complete. husbandification accepted. struggling to get a quality couple time. finding solace in themselves.

[paganroadboy]

supernatural magazine

001 issue

2008

[paganroadboy]

dean hiding there with his eyes glowing in the dark like a fucking animatronic is frying me

[paganroadboy]