sorry im venting again i just dont have anyone else it feels like . you dont have to read this but if you do im ok w a public response if you do.
i want someone to take care of me. want someone to notice im stressed and need to be small. every day i feel more unwanted. i thought a 2 month break would help. i hate being baby sat. i want my own daddy/mama and i wanna be somones special girl not just another little they talk to. i want to bond
i cant bond with others. i need extreme patience and persistance at the beginning. i cant small talk, which means im never ginna be able to bond with anyone because im too much to accomadate. im not gonna make them reach out first forever. but i dont have mental energy to reach out first every day anymore because when I do, I get randomly blocked. no one even messaged me while i was gone. no friends. i hate being babysat bc no one ever is online when i do finally manage to regress. and no one wants to reach out to me first. why does everyone else get to be special. i hate everyone and everything. and you know the cgs i have talked to immediately got sexual i hate myself. i hate myself so much. why am i not allowed to feel loved. i guess this is what i deserve
It sounds like you need some therapy, I'm sorry but I can't help, and will have to ask you not to vent about this stuff in my ask box,
If you're in school talk to your school counselors, I am not qualified to help you, I'm just a young adult on the internet trying to offer a space for people to relax,
I do wish you the best, Fido, but I cannot help,
