ryry

healing - loving - regressor - catholic - he/she/they - plural system w/ BPD - 21

[papasladybuggy]

Hi :) I'm ryry.

I don't know who will see this but I'm back on this Tumblr page. I used to be called chesters-kiddo-corner or kiddo-chester.

I was gone for a long time, but I am here again!

My best friend, dada, and boyfriend of 11 months and 17 days left me today because of my mental illness. He didn't like me being on tumblr. But I like it here. The people are kind and gentle.

Me and my papa Chevy, who lives in my system with me, are gonna post updates here about small things that make us happy. If we can keep going, so can you. I love you, reading this. You deserve to keep going.

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Ryry - usually 5

Mama - Miss Meadow

Papa - big brother Chevy

And other bigs and littles :)

[papasladybuggy]

Keep asking myself where dada is, tiny brain doesn't have the answer :(

Just remembers being rocked and bounced and kissed and loved

[kelpblankie]

🛁 ˖ ⁺ . baby otter bath time ₊ 🐳 ˚ ⊹

[dollyvamps]

the soft quiet moments after bath time and a long day of playing and learning,

mama / dada gently helping put on a themed pull - up and gently massaging baby lotion across the baby's arms n legs, giving them that comforting scent that cause them to become smaller and eventually sleepier, a tiny yawn escaping them before they even knew it,, mama / dada dressed them in a footed onesie with " mama's baby " or " dada's baby " etched onto the soft onesie..

" aww, was that a yawn mama / dada heard? sounds like it's bedtime for my little love ... "

[papasladybuggy]

(while brushing teeth)

"thank you for being my mama."

"of course, sweetheart. thank you for being my love."

"thank you for not leaving."

"i'll never leave my little bug."

<3

[swedishlandscapes]

Traditional Swedish cottage in the countryside. Notice the “dalahäst” in the windows bottom right corner.

[pnglove]

MATCHA LOVER 🍵🌱

[boyhoodjoy]

i love how many regressors love phm. we all saw it and went yeaaaah there's some baby stuff going on here. yeaaah there's some cg stuff going on here. and I'm eating it up

[papasladybuggy]

Play therapy :)

[papasladybuggy]

On adventures with family today <3

Was able to hang out with my coworkers yesterday and have a little snack in our shopping district. I'm thankful for the people in my life helping distract me from losing my ex.

I've been researching Alice Miller's theories, she wrote The Drama Of The Gifted Child and has a big emphasis on feeling your pain.

I'm realizing that I have so much unresolved childhood pain and I bring it into my relationships. As I start to process some of this stuff Ive noticed over the years my regression has become more freeing and joyful.

I got to do a nice meditation with some members of my system today while in transit. It feels so nice to reconnect with them after a year of being front stuck for my ex.

Have a good day all <3

[tinkertoytomorrow]

[papasladybuggy]

I got my stuff back today, including my little lamb. I'm going to give him a good wash and he will not smell like my ex anymore. I never need to go back to his house again. Bear bear came to help me.

I have a lot of anger. But I also know that he was never going to provide for me, despite the promises he made. He wasn't able to. It is my job to provide for myself now. I might not want an external caregiver ever again. Has anyone else decided that for themselves?

[faeberrywine]

ID credit: 763945041 on 小红书

(please like, reblog and give proper credit if you use any of my gifs!)

[papasladybuggy]

Today I was with my best friend! I got some little things, a little toy, and some pochacco face masks, and a pochacco pencil holder! Head mommy says i deserve to take care of myself.

-ryry

[papasladybuggy]

A nice cup of tea. I am healing slowly.

[lilliryth]

Fuck, man. Neurodivergent love. I’m never going to get over it. Depression love says “I will do my best to stay for you.” DID/OSDD love says “Every face of this brain is endeared to you.” Autism love says “I will do anything to reach you, to give you the understanding I never got.” BPD love says “You are a vital organ of mine, and I am one of yours.” Bipolar love says “Wherever I may go, I will come back to you.” Post-traumatic love says “I will always show you gentleness in this reckless world.” ADHD love says “I will try for you, no matter the obstacle.” Anxiety love says “You are my safe space and I am yours.” ASPD love says “I choose to, on purpose, for you.” OCD love says “I will stand guard for you.” Neurodivergent love. Neurodivergent love. Different brains in love, oh my G-d. These colors are uncountable and they are my religion.

[papasladybuggy]

Hanging out with bear bear. Going to sleep soon