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aspiring fairytale character

[paperstarsfairy]

“from my rotting body, flowers shall grow and i am in them, and that is eternity.” -edvard munch

hi <3 welcome to my silly corner of the internet. for the sheer sake of anonymity, i’m going to say that my name is fairy.

i consider myself to be a bit of a conundrum. i’m a wannabe poet and novelist, who spends all day dreaming of future stories instead of writing them. i regularly check out far too many library books, and hoard them until they’re due, but only end up reading a fraction of them. i try to appear like a good christian, despite the fact that i’ve never connected with organized religion.

i love boygenius, phoebe bridgers, jon guerra, the cranberries, gungor, rich mullins, and chris renzema. indie and worship are my top genres (along with lofi but that’s just because it’s the only music i can write with). early 2000s tv shows, like one tree hill and the o.c. are my guilty pleasures. greta gerwig is my favorite director.

i try to believe that fairytales could be possible, and bare my soul in pinterest board titles. sunflowers are my favorite flowers. les miserables is my favorite book. i’ve been told im an old soul, but i think that just means i’ve felt disillusioned with everything since childhood. i hope to become a librarian someday.

please don’t hesitate to reach out if we have similar interests <3 i love making new friends. i’m 18, but please don’t be weird. anyone creepy will be blocked instantly.

i hope you have a lovely day and stay safe 💛

[horrorhimejoshi]

most of them being my relatable characters too

[paperstarsfairy]

do you ever think about how similar connor murphy and riff from west side story are? maybe it’s just cause they’re both played by mike faist. i like to think that in an alternate universe, they met, and found safety and understanding in each other. i like to think that maybe in an alternate universe they saved each other.

[theunfortunate-author]

my daily affirmation as an author

[melonwah]

[buggotbrain]

THE FAMILY STONE THE MOVIE THAT YOU ARE

[paperstarsfairy]

just ended a toxic situationship that i let go on for way too long. pretty sure i should buy myself a gift as a reward.

[paperstarsfairy]

genuinely so sick of people romanticizing sylvia plath and her suicide. i hear jokes about her “sticking her head in the oven” all the time in media, and im sick of it.

i love sylvia plath, and understand her to a terrifying degree. i also do not think that it is ok to make light of the tragedy of her life. she was an incredible poet, and i feel like that gets overlooked in favor of romanticizing her suicide.

i think she’d be so disappointed to know she’s been reduced to a motif for girlbloggers

[greengalaxies]

Getting very annoyed at the phenomenon of reading really good books (the virgin suicides and now the bell jar), and looking them up, just to find nothing but those insufferable "I'm just a girl/femcel" posts.

These books are about violence commited against women. They are about misogyny leading women to self destruction. Esther Greenwood is one of the most realistic and raw potrayals of depression and medical misogyny/malpractice.

Scrolling through the tag of the bell jar just to find aesthetic post after aesthetic post of half naked women pouting, with some caption about how romantic it is to be mentally ill, tagged with the titles of books meant to be a portayal of grief and mental anguish, is a spit to the face of the authors.

[toiich]

Audrey Hepburn and her pet fawn, Pippin, 1959

[paperstarsfairy]

just got laid off from work due to budget cuts. honestly i’m amazed i even made it this far

in other news i got hit on today

[paperstarsfairy]

how do i explain to people that im not like other girls in a “i relate more to a 25 year old mentally ill man from a russian novel than i do to my peers” way and not in a “omg im so quirky i like wearing converses with my prom dress” way

[paperstarsfairy]

pierre bezukhov is literally such a diva like sir what do you mean you’re the antichrist because of the number of letters in your name

[pilarsofsalt]

bonus shout out to whatever the fuck I've got going on with myself

[madonnamadeofasphalt]

You'd think people who follow a religion where one of the main tenets of faith is that literally the most righteous and perfect man possible got sentenced to execution by imperial occupation forces and died horribly after many hours of torture would be immune to the "good things happen to good people, if you're unhappy it's probably your own fault" kinda thinking, and yet

[serviceberries]

give yourself a sense of place and time. rotate your wardrobe when the weather changes. update your playlists every month. write down three things you did today. do it everyday. message your friends good morning. buy yourself different flavours of tea based on your mood, the packaging, the weather, your heart. save the little paper labels; stick them in your notebook until the inside cover is full of little colored tags. have it hot in the winter. have it cold in the summer. learn to make apple cider, raspberry cordial. spend the summer knitting a scarf for the colder months. spend the winter sewing loose flowy blouses for the summer. open the windows, five minutes a day if it's cold, all day if it's warm. give yourself a sense of place and time and weather.

[paperstarsfairy]

my favorite part of the n2n proshot is when diana brings out gabe’s birthday cake, after “it’s gonna be good”, and henry (with the most dumb happy grin) asks whose birthday it is, and natalie says it’s her brother’s, and he goes “i didn’t know you had a brother” (still grinning stupidly btw), and she says she doesn’t and that he died, and you can see him slowly connect the dots as to why he wasn’t allowed to come to her house

also i just like henry’s smile, he’s so cute