between the candle and the star

Zari (noun): she/they/xe, 30s, Pakeha, Aotearoa New Zealand. LARP, TTRPG, hot union shit, librarianship and books/TV/movies I enjoy.

[pariahgraph]

aight I guess I'm doing a pinned

I'm Zari, I use she/xe/they pronouns, and I am a Tangata Tiriti/Pakeha New Zealander. I work in tertiary libraries. I can be found on Archive Of Our Own as Pariahgraph. If we're mutuals or have DMed on this webbed site before, you can have my Discord or Signal.

Everything else about me you will have to learn from my sporadic personal posting over the course of years.

If you're after extras or commentary for my I Was A Teenage Exocolonist fic, extras for my series "Children's Work" can be found under #children's work tag. If you want the reading order, it's here. If you're after shitposting or extras for "shame on me baby, i ain't gonna change", the tag is #shame on me baby tag. If you want the same for "STRIKE A MATCH ON ME!", you want my #firestarters tag.

I have a ko-fi here, if you've been possessed by the urge to purchase me a beverage. I don't sell anything on there.

[churrotowns]

since it’s pride month, throwback to this beautiful cover and this wholesome interaction between two icons

[creetchure]

my daughter has a smile to fix the world

[pariahgraph]

I'm sure theres more to ask here but for the iwatex oc meme 14 FOR MILES AND HIS SWARM OF MITTENS!!!

14. What are they like in the Life on Earth ending?

I've already answered this for Miles!

I'm actually not sure if the triplets or Nimbus would be born in a Life on Earth ending. I think if they were, Cirrus specifically would die pretty young.

[fuckabilitypolitics]

tbh it's cruel to tell young girls on here that lesbians and bisexual women don't care about body hair and weight and skin and so on and so forth because they're going to find out it's a lie one way or another. wlw are not magically exempt from having patriarchal beauty standards engrained in them and from punishing other women/girls for it and it isn't helping anyone to pretend we are.

[himynameisemail]

[mrhealyourgirl]

the sinister sniler

[lesvegas]

A few years ago while trying to find ways to commit suicide as painlessly as possible, I came across a PDF of Dr. Paul Quinnett's The Forever Decision. Thinking it might go into actual methods of suicide (I read an article once that actually did that and was trying to find it again) I started to read it, and I think I only got about two pages in before I was crying too much to actually see the words.

I downloaded the PDF to my hard drive and I open it again whenever I'm feeling too suicidal to do much else, but not enough to start booking a ride to the hospital. And every time without fail I only go up to a few pages before backing off and choosing to live another day just because suicide suddenly seems even more unbearable than whatever the hell upset me in the first place.

All the book really does is [I'm pulling a summary from GoodReads here as, again, I've read no more than 5 pages] "discusses the social aspects of suicide, the right to die, anger, loneliness, depression, stress, hopelessness, drug and alcohol abuse, the consequences of a suicide attempt, and how to get help."

But it also starts with the author kindly asking the reader to complete the book before going through with anything, and for some reason I'm compelled to really just try to read it all before finalizing everything. Despite not yet completing it (hopefully never will) I think I can safely say it's saved my life at least a few times now.

It's intentionally legal to copy and redistribute this book to keep it as accessible as possible, and it's very easy to find, but here's a link for it anyways.

[pariahgraph]

6 grady, 12 catch, 14 miles, 19 patch

6. How do they feel about the Gardeners? Do they know they exist?

Grady only learns about the Gardeners in Peace timelines. She empathises with them, but thinks they need to own some blame for the escalating war between Gardeners and humanity. She takes exception to people who don't question that they are doing the right thing.

12. If they could choose their own augment, what would they pick?

God, anything. Perfect pitch, maybe. That would be fun...

14. What are they like in the Life on Earth ending?

Miles' Ren never escapes the facility. Miles -- or rather, Aodhán -- is born outside the Vertumna Group, and is conscripted into the military for lack of any real options and because he's technically military property. There's no one who could possibly sponsor Aodhán into any other kind of life and no real prospects for anything other than being a cog in a machine that transparently does not care for him.

He defects to the Vertumna group the first chance he gets.

19. What stat would be associated with them? (Ex. Marz and persuasion, Dys and bravery)

Organisation.

[pariahgraph]

2 grady, 12 miles and patch, 15 nimbus? also 18 nougat

2. What's their augment and why? (If they don't have one, explain why.)

Grady has a cognitive enhancement that significantly increases her working and short-term memory. Her parents thought it would make her smarter, and they were right.

What they didn't anticipate though, is that it means Grady really struggled in Helio classrooms. She was able to compensate by being pretty good at actually *studying*, but her augment doesn't help her much and can actually hinder her in environments where she doesn't get to actively engage and participate. She got chided about eye contact and quiet hands a lot as a child.

With that said, Grady does really love her augment! When she's in a busy and chaotic kitchen, she can hold a lot just in her head and sort of enter a flow state where her command of her environment is near absolute. She likes it enough that in timelines where Reliance and Erosion are born, she gives them both her augment and learns that the people who told her she was a difficult child were just inflexible. Her kids are brilliant.

12. If they could choose their own augment, what would they pick?

Miles would choose not to have one. He has complex feelings about his augment and the circumstances of his conception and birth.

Patch would choose the one she already has, but milder -- something like what Grady has, with less of a cognitive load and risk of sensory overload.

15. What would their relationship cards be called? (Ex. Anemone's Loyalty, Dys' Secret)

Nimbus' Insight.

18. If they could, would they become a Gardener?

lmao Nougat's not really an OC -- maybe. It would depend on a lot of things, but primarily if her partners were coming too. It would need to be all of them or none of them.

[pariahgraph]

15, for one or more of them clouds?

15. What would their relationship cards be called? (Ex. Anemone's Loyalty, Dys' Secret)

Cirrus' Resilience, Cumulus' Sincerity, and Stratus' Industry.

[3liza]

why is pjackk back unbanned?

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^^^ i spent all night and yesterday compiling information about a "phantom report bug", where people are getting emails from tumblr support about TOS reports they did not file. pjackk was banned off one of these phantom reports, i told tumblr support about it, and now he's unbanned. i think @garaks-padded-bra was also banned erroneously off a phantom report, so hopefully that will get reversed soon as well

PLEASE CHECK YOUR EMAIL FOR PHANTOM REPORT EMAILS. if you spot any, even if theyre old, tell me about them so i can add them to the list (linked above), and report them to tumblr support. POLITELY. tumblr support wants to fix this.

[3liza]

i gotta be real with you guys im just sort of stunned tumblr has been running an open-front ZenDesk form for tumblr TOS reporting this whole time that doesnt require any kind of validation except a fucking email address. this one fact alone explains every single "why did so and so get banned for no reason" event of the past X years. however it is equally baffling that i didnt notice it before now. i would say it is baffling they implemented it in the first place but like i said, the management of their website is verifiably not well

[penguin--person]

IWATEX OC ask game 💫

What's the meaning behind their name? Why did you choose it?

What's their augment and why? (If they don't have one, explain why.)

Are they from the Stratospheric or the Heliopause? What do they think of the other ship?

Which canon characters would they get along with? Who wouldn't they?

How do they feel about the yearly Glow attacks?

How do they feel about the Gardeners? Do they know they exist?

What about them changes if peace is established on Vertumna? How do they feel about it?

Do they prefer life in space or on Vertumna (or Earth)?

What would be their preferred gifts?

Which locations are they associated with?

What's their job? Why?

If they could choose their own augment, what would they pick?

Do they have any xenofauna pets? Do they want any?

What are they like in the Life on Earth ending?

What would their relationship cards be called? (Ex. Anemone's Loyalty, Dys' Secret)

What's their favorite season?

Are they happy with their life?

If they could, would they become a Gardener?

What stat would be associated with them? (Ex. Marz and persuasion, Dys and bravery)

What stat bonuses would you get by picking them as your childhood friend?

[sirfetchd]

how it feels to be obsessed with your own ocs but you cant think of what to say about them

[lylahammar]

We’ve found a new game

[coldsnapz]

mny ocssssss. myuu occssss aughghghg myu ocsssssss wailing like a ghoul oever my ocsss

[memegetter]

happy pride month.

in new zealand, our evil government are trying to legislate definitions of women and men, in ways that are legally incoherent but clearly trying to pave the way for more horrifically transphobic legislation. we have an election in a few months but our main opposition party, and all our mainstream news media, are so spineless and cooked that there's a good chance the ghouls will win reelection.

it took 2 whole months for local terf group 'speak up for women' to get 2,000 signatures on the petition that led to this new bill in our parliament.

it's taken five days for this pro-trans 'they don't speak for us' petition to get 17,000 signatures.

this is a show of support that is really heartening for a lot of trans people in our corner of the world.

cis/ish women, if you're from here but haven't signed yet, please do. and if you're not from here and you know any new zealanders, could you send them this petition? a full fifth of our population lives overseas, and there's a good chance they don't follow the news.

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