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paris suggestion

[vgadvisor]

[subaru-copilot]

im so sorry that you're doomed by the narrative but i really need you to answer my message on Microsoft Teams

[paris-suggestion]

i lost my rose matcha vape

[paris-suggestion]

this cart tastes like spiders

[thej0ry]

What would you do if you were scrolling through recommended tumblr posts and one was from someone you don't know and it was just a picture of your dad captioned "fucking hate this guy" and it had hundreds of notes

[bill-nye-official-blog]

this weed tastes like the lake I nearly drowned in as a kid

[ewaneneollav]

your edible will never kick in because you are a bad person

[floral-comet-whump]

@paris-suggestion

[paris-suggestion]

I DONT WANT TO BE A HATER ANYMORE!!!!!!

IM IN LOVE

[gouged-doll]

david black

[paris-suggestion]

and why should it stop?

[paris-suggestion]

cannot go a whole 24 hours without getting my head slammed into something or being jabbed with some sharp object OK I GET IT I FUCKING GET IT

[paris-suggestion]

I STILL HAVE ACCESS TO MY SPREADSHEETS

[paris-suggestion]

everything about the military is just the lamest shit imaginable

[paris-suggestion]

[paris-suggestion]

waking up in the middle of the “night” except such a thing can’t exist out here. im used to living on a ship’s schedule but not when its this small. not when its just two people. so i mean it literally when i say that we “share” time. due to general relativity and the maritime conventions, nobody rlse experience it like the two of us do. anyway i wake up in the middle of the night because i can never make it through the night anyway, im too fucking anxious to sleep more than a few hours at a stretch. i wake up thinking im somewhere else, with urgency over things that haven’t been my problem for a long time. lorelai is still awake.

me: i dont think its that hard to understand why i did what i did. 

her: why did you do it?

me: …😐

in my head it made sense but i cant put it into words. i cant explain it even now. there isnt a way to make anyone understand how it felt to live inside of it. but it just seems pathetic now, and i feel sick when i try to give name to it. feel like my tongue might be cut out the next time i try to justify it. 

[paris-suggestion]

i used to live in a different world and even there i was experiencing a reality that nobody else seemed to experience and yes i became crazy. i know it seems like i overreacted but that isnt even right, i just reacted in the wrong way

everyone lives in the consequences of this so why does it still feel like nobody understands it. im not paranoid. i dont think anybody ever understood what i was afraid of even as it was happening because they just didnt care. and i cant make them understand. even if they get it now it wont do me any good, its too late for me to change anything

i might have fucked everything up in a way thats going to ripple through the fabric of spacetime for a millennia. how can i ever adequately apologize for that? it seems insulting to even try

[paris-suggestion]

waking up in the middle of the “night” except such a thing can’t exist out here. im used to living on a ship’s schedule but not when its this small. not when its just two people. so i mean it literally when i say that we “share” time. due to general relativity and the maritime conventions, nobody rlse experience it like the two of us do. anyway i wake up in the middle of the night because i can never make it through the night anyway, im too fucking anxious to sleep more than a few hours at a stretch. i wake up thinking im somewhere else, with urgency over things that haven’t been my problem for a long time. lorelai is still awake.

me: i dont think its that hard to understand why i did what i did. 

her: why did you do it?

me: …😐

in my head it made sense but i cant put it into words. i cant explain it even now. there isnt a way to make anyone understand how it felt to live inside of it. but it just seems pathetic now, and i feel sick when i try to give name to it. feel like my tongue might be cut out the next time i try to justify it. 

[strokingout]

hold on i have to do everything