Summary: You find out about the death of your brother John Lennon
“What?” You breathed out in disbelief as your heart sunk and your breathing was held.
“He’s gone y/n!” Your brothers wife cried into the receiver.
“I don’t understand” You spoke while your brain was spinning and you felt numbness kick in.
“He was shot! someone shot him and he died on the way to the hospital!” Yoko choked out a sob.
His cheekily smiling face flashed across your mind, he couldn’t be dead, John was just on the phone to you yesterday, you guys spoke about christmas and how yous we’re going to go to your house for christmas to exchange gitfs and have dinner.
“Y/N!, are you still there?”Yoko asked.
“Yeah” You whispered, “J-John, he’s d-dead?” You asked as you couldn’t feel anything anymore, not even the telephone that was gripped so tightly in your hand it would almost break if anymore pressure was applied.
Her sobs on the other line was all the conformation you needed. “Are you safe?, is Sean safe?, i’m going to come to the hospital okay?” You rushed out as you felt numbness all over.
“Okay” She choked out “But be safe driving, come to room 206”.
You slammed the telephone back into its place, swooping up your keys and whipped the front door open as you grabbed your shoes, not even bothering to put them on until you got into the car.
You knew it was probably unsafe to be driving in such condition but you were in so much shock that the tears hadn’t started yet and your main focus was getting to the hospital. Your brothers sweet face kept flashing through your mind, all the memories from your childhood.
Yokos words made you feel sick, you felt angrier for th one who had took your brother life heartlessly, you felt sadness, you felt denial, you felt hopeless and you also felt alone.
Your stomach twisted and turned and you wanted to just fall asleep and wake up and have every just be a sick and twisted nightmare.
After a 10 minute drive you ran out into the hospital and straight to the elevator, pressing the button to get to the floor you needed. You breathed out a breath you didn’t know you were apparently holding in so deeply.
The elevator opened and you rushed out looking for the room door.
She immediately stood up rushing into your arms and she cried into your shoulder. You felt the grief of the poor woman raiding through her which finally made tears spring into your eyes. One by one they dropped into her clothes, but not one of yours cared as you held tightly onto each other.
Yoko was one of your best friends, you both held the same love so deeply for the same man. Your chest tightened even more as you let out a sob that matched hers.
You didn’t have to say any words and quite honestly there was nothing to be said. Nothing that could make this situation any better, you just needed to grieve.
“Mrs Lennon?” A voice called softly which Yoko slowly pulled away from your grasp. It was the man in the white coat that spoke soft with a look of sympathy with you hated. “You can say your final goodbyes” He spoke with a bow as he opened the door for her.
She looked up at you with a look of question if she should be the first one to say her goodbyes, if she would be the one to see him first, to which you nodded as the tears both flowed from your eyes.
She walked in and the doctor closed the door behind her. “And you are?” the doctor questioned.
“I’m his sister” you whimpered as you sat down on a chair outside.
“I see, Y/N Lennon i don’t know how i didn’t recognise you, i’m sorry for your loss” he spoke and walked away down the corridor.
After almost 10 minuets of sitting in silence with your thoughts, remember how amazing your brother was even remembering the silly old arguments you two would share.
“You can say goodbye now” Yoko came out of the room and sat in the chair beside you and gave a comforting squeeze to your thigh.
You nodded and slowly walked to the door, shutting it behind you. His pale face was without his glasses, he didn’t have a shirt on and some of the hospital bedding still had smears of blood on it.
“I’m so sorry this happened to you Johnny” You choked out as you covered your mouth. “I hope you took your glasses with you to heaven, you might not be able to see us properly as you look down on us, your as blind as a bat” You let out a sobbed laugh as you took hold of his hand and brought it to your lips for a soft kiss.
“I’m going to sing your songs at one of my shows, give you the biggest send off in history, i hope i can get some help from the boys, maybe David too, i’m sure the queen boys would too”
“I just hope you know how much i love John, you were my best friend” You spoke whilst tears flowed down your features.
“Goodnight John, take care” You said as you let go of his hand for the last time and walked to the door taking a glance and walked out of the room with your head low.
“You should go get some rest” Yoko spoke from her seat. “Brian will be worried” she continued which you nodded to.
“You should too” You replied. “Do the boys know?” you questioned.
“You know they don’t like me, i don’t think it should come from me” Yoko said, “That’s if the press doesn’t already know, i’m sure someone’s spoke by now”
I sighed softly “yeah, i’ll give them a call when i get home” It was silent between yous has the waterworks had seemed to subside as you took everything in silently.
“Do you need a ride back home?”
“Oh no it’s okay, my sister is going to come get me, she has Sean” she spoke but then let out a sob “Oh God how am i going to tell Sean” she put her hands up to her head.
Which made you breathe out at the thought of her telling her son that his father had died. “I’m so sorry Yoko” I spoke.
“It’s okay, i’m sure he’s going to understand” She nodded. “I’ll talk to you tomorrow yeah, uh about his funeral”
“Yes, goodnight Yoko, please take care of yourself” You spoke as you gave her one last hug and made while way to the elevator.
Once you got into your car you broke down, tears wouldn’t stop flowing. It hurt to much, you felt numb and it was the worst feeling ever. Your heart felt like it had been ripped out and thrown in a fire while you could still feel it.
You don’t know how long you sat in your car for, but you also didn’t care. You would stay in your car all night in this hospital car park for all you cared, but you knew you need the gear home to Brian, you knew it wasn’t safe to stay here all night so you drove back home, for the second time that night you drove your car in silence.
You slowly wandered up the path and to the front door, the lights were still off so that meant Brian was still at the studio. When you walked in the first thing you heard was the telephone painfully ringing. You wanted to ignore it but something made you answer it.
“Y/N?” A soft voice spoke which you immediately recognised which made you feel some what comfort. “I’ve been calling for hours, where have you been? i thought maybe you were asleep but you didn’t answer after the 4th time” Brian spoke into th phone. “I was just calling to say that i’m going to be here late, okay” he continued.
“Y/N?” He questioned after he was met with silence on the other line.
“What’s wrong? are you crying? what’s happened my love? where were you-?” he rambled out quickly but you stopped him to answer his last question.
“I was at the hospital Brian” you breathed out.
“The hospital!, why!, are you hurt!” he exclaimed as you heard voices on the other end.
“John” you choked out the only words you could gather.
“Your brother? is he hurt?”
“He’s gone Brian, hes dead!”
A sharp breath was heard from the other side of the line “I’m coming home” was all he said as the line cut off.
You let go of the phone and slid down the wall as you grived for your brother.
Moments later you heard the door swing open and a panicked Brian calling out your name. You didn’t reply because you were so sure he could here your sobs, even the neighbours probably could.
“My love, i’m so sorry” Brian whispered as he sat beside you and grabbed ahold of you to sit across his lap as he held you like a baby you cried into his dark curly locks.
His silence was comforting, you felt safe in his arms even in this weird position.
“I know, i know sweetheart” He whispered has he rocked you back and forth and stroked your hair.
“H-he, J-john h-“ you tried to get out “It’s okay, you don’t have to”
But you shook your head “He was shot, four times in the chest by some crazed fan” you spoke, “He was in pain for his last moments on earth, it happened at his apartment” you explained quietly as Brian listened to every word you spoke
“Yoko told me, i saw her at the hospital and i saw John too” you continued as you heard Brian suck in a breath. “I said goodbye to him, he still looked as handsome as ever” you finished.
“I wish i was there with you when you found out, i’m sorry i wasn’t”
“It’s okay, you were at the studio” you spoke now with a little calm in you and the tears were starting to dry up a little.
“My love, i would drop everything in my path, no matter how important, i would be there for you no matter what” he spoke “It hurts me to see you like this,John was a great man” he continued which you hummed to “Even when you introduced us to each other and he said he’d only approve if i won a guitar battle with him” he said which made you chuckle a little.
“How about we go to bed huh?” he kissed your head softly.
“I have to call Ringo, Paul and George” you shook your head as you tried to shakily get up.
“Hey, hey,hey” Brian spoke as he grabbed your hips and pulled you back down. “I’m sure they already know by now honey” He spoke sympathetically.
“You just lost your brother my love, i’m sure they will understand if you don’t call them” he spoke.“You can call them tomorrow okay” he murmured into your hair.
“Let’s get you to bed my love, your exhausted” He softly pushed you into the floor softly as he stood up and picked you up bridal style and carried you to your shared bedroom.
He kicked open the door and gently laid you down and went to get you your nightwear.
“I can do it myself Bri” you said as your tried to grab the clothes from him.
“Let me take care of you” he hushed you and started to undo your jeans. Once he had changed you into your nightwear he placed a soft loving kiss to your lips and pulled you under the soft duvet.
He stripped down to his boxers and got into bed bedside you and turned the lamp of that radiated the only light source in the room.
He pulled you close to his chest “I can hear you thinking” Brian hummed as he pulled you even closer if it was possible.
“I just miss him already” you whispered as you felt his heart beat against your face.
“Any requests?” he softly spoke.
“Imagine” you said without hesitation and you felt Brian’s heart pick up a little.
“Are you sure” he whispered worried that it would set you off into tears again.
“Yes Bri” you conformed as you cuddled deeper into him for warmth.
Imagine there's no countries
Nothing to kill or die for
This time when Johns face flashed across your mind, it didn’t make you sad. You thought of the time when you sang the sing with him at your last show.
The way you both goofed around stage, singing and dancing along together.
You, you may say I'm a dreamer
I hope someday you will join us
And the world will be as one
The rhythm of Brian’s heart beat and his soft words were like heaven to your hears and it made your eyes start to feel heavy.
No need for greed or hunger
“Goodnight John” you whispered for a second time that night.
Your eyes finally dropped closed and you felt your deep slumber start to take over as your drifted into a soft sleep, with Brian’s soft words and his heart beat being the last things you heard that night.
You, you may say I'm a dreamer
I hope someday you will join us
And the world will live as one
