I’m making myself sick imagining a Steve Harrington who was raised in the kind of household where boys don’t cry, where men were “strong”, where being in charge meant being the loudest.
where his mother didn’t comfort him when he cried or scraped his knee, where his dad told him to man up.
he carried that shitty mindset into adulthood, he was strong, he didn’t talk about that uncomfortable weight on his chest, he didn’t cry about the ache in his throat or the pounding in his skull. Steve was a man after all.
at first he doesn’t like Eddie, the guy talks about everything, every thought in his head, even the unpleasant ones. What kind of guy tells people about those things? Why did Steve feel a tug in his gut when he heard Eddie complain? Why did a part of him want to fix it all?
and why did he start crying on that late night in eddies van when he turned to him, stopping his constant talking for once, to ask if Steve was alright?
who had ever cared about Steve being alright?
