Hello tumblr, I bring you a fragment and a summary of a new story I’m working on 🙈
"D'you have a deathwish, Thomas Ryder?" I asked coldly as I began circling him. Perhaps, on that day, I was a shark.
He took a moment to answer.
I huffed a little, a grin returning to my face.
"Then why didn't you run?"
I was in front of him again, and he returned his gaze to meet mine.
"There was no need, you didn't pull the pin." He said it like it was the most obvious thing in the world, but still, he remained expressionless.
"You're observant, that's good." I paused for a second before speaking again.
"What are you willing to do for this cause?"
I asked bluntly. Hopefully, this was, at the very least, entertaining for the spectators.
"Whatever is needed." Once again, his reply was dry.
I was inspecting him, watching for a slip of emotion, doubt, fear, anything.
"What are you willing to give for this cause?" I asked again. I couldn't have cared less for the unorthodoxness of my methods, for how it would be perceived by the public, or for anything, really. I was living through my own hell, so what if I gave a piece of it to others?
"Whatever is needed." He repeated. He let nothing show.
I took a step back and inspected him again. Anything? How brave. Perhaps he did have a death wish. It didn't matter; we´d just have to go through this whole humiliation ritual again if this was his form of suicide; it had to be, it surely had become mine.
With that, I turned around and began walking towards León, who was watching the whole thing with a hand on his chin and a defeated expression. I heard a confused commotion behind me; 'What? Was that it?'
I hated bureaucracy, I hated procedures and obligations; if I was forced to replace Leila, then I'd make the whole process as distressful and meaningless as possible for everyone involved. So what if I based my pick on lack of self-preservation? So what if my selection was based off of nothing?
Truth be told, I pitied this man for the torture that would ensue. The constant bloodbaths, the explosions, my cruel disposition. Nothing mattered after her.
"Are you happy now?" I asked my tired brother.
It’s my first original work (no fandoms) and I’ve been cooking it up in my head for ages. It will be posted on Ao3, the first chapter is pretty much done. It will be a multi chapter story with themes of grief, trauma, anti-capitalism, revolution, queerness, horny??
I’ve tried to write many iterations of the story but I like this one the most. It’s heavily influenced by Star Wars (no one’s surprised), especially by Andor 2 and the rebel operation on Yavin 4. If that means nothing to you, that’s okay, it’s mostly for reference, but it’s a completely separate story.
The story will be set in a made up jungle-city in a made up country, but it follows the dynamics of the real world.
It follows Kira, the protagonist, as she deals with the loss of her lover (Leila) during a particularly traumatic mission, and her struggles to move forward with her life.
She’s the commander of a highly skilled, special forces squadron of their coalition to fight against a totalitarian, capitalist government that’s destroying their country (basically, a rebellion/revolutionary organization), that operates from a base in a little city in the middle of the jungle.
Her brother León, the general of the coalition, tells her it’s time to stop wasting away her life in grief and find a replacement (he said they need someone to fill the role) for the space Leila left in her squadron, since she’s refused to do so for nearly a year now. Reluctantly, she agrees on the condition that she gets to choose the new person.
She bases her pick on near randomness by throwing a grenade to the crowd of candidates and choosing one of the people who didn’t move (she’s so goofy <3)
The guy she picks is a mysterious man named Thomas, who appears to have no emotion at all; no reactions, barely any words.
As time goes on, she develops a weird obsession with getting him to break, to show anything, any emotion whether it’s good or bad. She pushes his limits for her own entertainment.
Eventually, they might learn to understand each other as they realize just how similar their pasts and traumas are, but it’s a rocky road as their personalities clash in many ways, and their coping mechanisms are different.
Essentially, it will follow the process of adaptation of the team (found family dynamic, btw) to this new situation, as Kira relearns empathy and Thomas learns vulnerability.
I must say, Kira is pretty malicious for a big part of the story, as she’s pretty much abandoned her old self and become a worse, sicker version of herself, but she’s got a fierce, strong, unpredictable but overall fun personality (lots of trauma will do that to a girl 😔)
One last important factor, it that a lot of the characters are bilingual, and their native tongue is Spanish, so there will be some dialogue in Spanish even if the overall story is written in english (my native language is Spanish btw). I am working on finding the best way to translate everything to make it as accessible as possible, i’m even looking at some coding hacks to make it easier to translate on the spot without changing the formatting of the story, but the Spanish of it all is important for the story.
If you took the time to read this, thank you, i love over explaining everything <3
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