the problem with making competent characters is you have to eventually show them being competent, and unfortunately my brain doesn’t work that way.

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the problem with making competent characters is you have to eventually show them being competent, and unfortunately my brain doesn’t work that way.
I think it’s kind of a given that with no updates I won’t be finishing or winning NaNo this year. Anxiety kind of spiked real bad at the beginning of the month and after that I went on a vacation to see some family and there was no hope of catching up.
Maybe next year!
me as a writer: Oh no I can’t write that, somebody else already has
me as a reader: hell yes give me all the fics about this one scenario. The more the merrier
This one is so hard to accept. Reblogging to knock that into my brain.
Me as a writer: I feel like I’m repeating myself, I’ve already used that theme, I’ve already written that kink, that other character uses that speech pattern so this one in another fandom can’t, I feel like I’m writing predictable things, is this different enough from that other thing I wrote, are people filling out bingo cards by my work? :sobbing:
Me as a reader: oh hell yeah this hit the spot exactly, I hope this writer has written 20 more just like it
As one friend said when I felt I was reusing a theme too much, nobody ever says, Did Agatha Christie write about murder again?
I actually laughed out loud at the last one. A very good point.
“I love this, I hope there isn’t anything else out there like it!” Said no one ever
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Sometimes I don’t mind being alone. Sometimes I relish in the quiet behind the locked door of my house. In the minute sounds that soak in the rugs on the stairs and cushions on the couch. On days like this, the sound of a bird outside is a gentle melody and the flip of a page from the book I’m reading is a whisper. Sometimes it’s an alarm and crack of lightening and I’m startled into a reality that I thought I was comfortable in.
There is comfort in quiet after a long day. There is a peacefulness to being alone after working with large groups.
There is an uneasiness to dark rooms. There is something unsettling in echoing walls.
Sometimes I do mind being alone. I bring my dinner to my table, made solely by me and to be consumed, also, entirely by me the hands that hold my bowl are, suddenly, not mine. Except they are, just, not my hands yet. I don’t know how old she is - five years older, maybe ten years - but the bowl is the same shape and size as the one I know I’ve gotten from my grandfather and the table is still the same one purchased from an online overstock warehouse and the only thing that’s changed is the wrinkles across her knuckles and I have to wonder -
Is she still alone?
Is the room she eats in dark? Is it quiet? Does she have friends she can invite every so often, to fill the looming and lingering uneasiness? Is there another room with a light on, with furniture that’s their own or, even, possibly, shared?
Is she alone?
Is she comfortable?
Or is she still lonely?
Under new ownership. Coming soon. Grand opening next month.
Adam walked closer and pulled a hand out of the warm refuge of his pocket to run a finger across the lettering [of the sign plastered].The ink was dry and the paper firm. A real thing then, he thought, and lifted his hand to shade his eyes, squinting, as he pressed his face against the glass. The inside looked just as it had a week ago - back when the original sign was still up: barren. Empty. Lonely.
Whoever had purchased it had done it recently... and had done little else after that. The floors were dirty and the glass was dusty and the counter from the previous owner was still painted in rough, vegetable-like shapes and colors of their prominent, organic, selling points. The lights that hung from the ceiling were still the same, ancient chandeliers and the bulbs were broken.
Adam took a breath as he took a step back and rubbed the cold from the glass from his nose with the back of his hand. It would make a good pizza place, really, he thought, turning on his heel to get back to his own, running, shop. Maybe he could make friends with the owner, too, like he had with Martin. The two of them - or even the three of them, if Martin gave up his stubborn attitude - could take their lunch breaks outside, enjoying the afternoon with the sunlight fully spread out across the street and a slice of hot, cheesy pizza in their hands.
The weekends were different. It was a time for errand running. For last minute gift shopping. For a quick treat after a week well spent. Adam would open early and flick the lights on in his shop to encourage the morning shoppers in through the doors. He was no Martin, who played to the workaholics demands with caffeine and chocolate pastries. He was no Devin, able to peer into a lesser man's wants and desires, coaxing them behind the drawn curtain to read their dreams of fame and fortune and love. He wasn't Sasha, either, loving the things she collected and demonstrating so to the others who enjoyed lost and broken things.
Adam had other charms, he supposed. A nice smile. A welcoming scent. Still nothing as good as fresh coffee but the spice of a good flower or two was pleasant on its own.
And, then there was....well, what was it?
"Is that shop still for sale?" Adam asked, leaning forward to peer down the line of stores. Martin's bakery led the front of the battalion, with Adam's flower shop taking up the next spot. Devin's metaphysical shop was next door and Sasha came up next. At the rear was a store that had been closed and empty for as long as Adam could remember. Brands had come and gone but the shoppers always went left, not right in through the doors, and whatever flavor of the week tried to settle into the little corner mall never stayed for long.
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Temples are built for gods. Knowing this a farmer builds a small temple to see what kind of god turns up.
Arepo built a temple in his field, a humble thing, some stones stacked up to make a cairn, and two days later a god moved in.
“Hope you’re a harvest god,” Arepo said, and set up an altar and burnt two stalks of wheat. “It’d be nice, you know.” He looked down at the ash smeared on the stone, the rocks all laid askew, and coughed and scratched his head. “I know it’s not much,” he said, his straw hat in his hands. “But - I’ll do what I can. It’d be nice to think there’s a god looking after me.”
The next day he left a pair of figs, the day after that he spent ten minutes of his morning seated by the temple in prayer. On the third day, the god spoke up.
“You should go to a temple in the city,” the god said. Its voice was like the rustling of the wheat, like the squeaks of fieldmice running through the grass. “A real temple. A good one. Get some real gods to bless you. I’m no one much myself, but I might be able to put in a good word?” It plucked a leaf from a tree and sighed. “I mean, not to be rude. I like this temple. It’s cozy enough. The worship’s been nice. But you can’t honestly believe that any of this is going to bring you anything.”
“This is more than I was expecting when I built it,” Arepo said, laying down his scythe and lowering himself to the ground. “Tell me, what sort of god are you anyway?”
“I’m of the fallen leaves,” it said. “The worms that churn beneath the earth. The boundary of forest and of field. The first hint of frost before the first snow falls. The skin of an apple as it yields beneath your teeth. I’m a god of a dozen different nothings, scraps that lead to rot, momentary glimpses. A change in the air, and then it’s gone.”
The god heaved another sigh. “There’s no point in worship in that, not like War, or the Harvest, or the Storm. Save your prayers for the things beyond your control, good farmer. You’re so tiny in the world. So vulnerable. Best to pray to a greater thing than me.”
Arepo plucked a stalk of wheat and flattened it between his teeth. “I like this sort of worship fine,” he said. “So if you don’t mind, I think I’ll continue.”
“Do what you will,” said the god, and withdrew deeper into the stones. “But don’t say I never warned you otherwise.”
Arepo would say a prayer before the morning’s work, and he and the god contemplated the trees in silence. Days passed like that, and weeks, and then the Storm rolled in, black and bold and blustering. It flooded Arepo’s fields, shook the tiles from his roof, smote his olive tree and set it to cinder. The next day, Arepo and his sons walked among the wheat, salvaging what they could. The little temple had been strewn across the field, and so when the work was done for the day, Arepo gathered the stones and pieced them back together.
“Useless work,” the god whispered, but came creeping back inside the temple regardless. “There wasn’t a thing I could do to spare you this.”
“We’ll be fine,” Arepo said. “The storm’s blown over. We’ll rebuild. Don’t have much of an offering for today,” he said, and laid down some ruined wheat, “but I think I’ll shore up this thing’s foundations tomorrow, how about that?”
The god rattled around in the temple and sighed.
A year passed, and then another. The temple had layered walls of stones, a roof of woven twigs. Arepo’s neighbors chuckled as they passed it. Some of their children left fruit and flowers. And then the Harvest failed, the gods withdrew their bounty. In Arepo’s field the wheat sprouted thin and brittle. People wailed and tore their robes, slaughtered lambs and spilled their blood, looked upon the ground with haunted eyes and went to bed hungry. Arepo came and sat by the temple, the flowers wilted now, the fruit shriveled nubs, Arepo’s ribs showing through his chest, his hands still shaking, and murmured out a prayer.
“There is nothing here for you,” said the god, hudding in the dark. “There is nothing I can do. There is nothing to be done.” It shivered, and spat out its words. “What is this temple but another burden to you?”
“We -” Arepo said, and his voice wavered. “So it’s a lean year,” he said. “We’ve gone through this before, we’ll get through this again. So we’re hungry,” he said. “We’ve still got each other, don’t we? And a lot of people prayed to other gods, but it didn’t protect them from this. No,” he said, and shook his head, and laid down some shriveled weeds on the altar. “No, I think I like our arrangement fine.”
“There will come worse,” said the god, from the hollows of the stone. “And there will be nothing I can do to save you.”
The years passed. Arepo rested a wrinkled hand upon the temple of stone and some days spent an hour there, lost in contemplation with the god.
And one fateful day, from across the wine-dark seas, came War.
Arepo came stumbling to his temple now, his hand pressed against his gut, anointing the holy site with his blood. Behind him, his wheat fields burned, and the bones burned black in them. He came crawling on his knees to a temple of hewed stone, and the god rushed out to meet him.
“I could not save them,” said the god, its voice a low wail. “I am sorry. I am sorry. I am so so sorry.” The leaves fell burning from the trees, a soft slow rain of ash. “I have done nothing! All these years, and I have done nothing for you!”
“Shush,” Arepo said, tasting his own blood, his vision blurring. He propped himself up against the temple, forehead pressed against the stone in prayer. “Tell me,” he mumbled. “Tell me again. What sort of god are you?”
“I -” said the god, and reached out, cradling Arepo’s head, and closed its eyes and spoke.
“I’m of the fallen leaves,” it said, and conjured up the image of them. “The worms that churn beneath the earth. The boundary of forest and of field. The first hint of frost before the first snow falls. The skin of an apple as it yields beneath your teeth.” Arepo’s lips parted in a smile.
“I am the god of a dozen different nothings,” it said. “The petals in bloom that lead to rot, the momentary glimpses. A change in the air -” Its voice broke, and it wept. “Before it’s gone.”
“Beautiful,” Arepo said, his blood staining the stones, seeping into the earth. “All of them. They were all so beautiful.”
And as the fields burned and the smoke blotted out the sun, as men were trodden in the press and bloody War raged on, as the heavens let loose their wrath upon the earth, Arepo the sower lay down in his humble temple, his head sheltered by the stones, and returned home to his god.
Sora found the temple with the bones within it, the roof falling in upon them.
“Oh, poor god,” she said, “With no-one to bury your last priest.” Then she paused, because she was from far away. “Or is this how the dead are honored here?” The god roused from its contemplation.
“His name was Arepo,” it said, “He was a sower.”
Sora startled, a little, because she had never before heard the voice of a god. “How can I honor him?” She asked.
“Bury him,” the god said, “Beneath my altar.”
“All right,” Sora said, and went to fetch her shovel.
“Wait,” the god said when she got back and began collecting the bones from among the broken twigs and fallen leaves. She laid them out on a roll of undyed wool, the only cloth she had. “Wait,” the god said, “I cannot do anything for you. I am not a god of anything useful.”
Sora sat back on her heels and looked at the altar to listen to the god.
“When the Storm came and destroyed his wheat, I could not save it,” the god said, “When the Harvest failed and he was hungry, I could not feed him. When War came,” the god’s voice faltered. “When War came, I could not protect him. He came bleeding from the battle to die in my arms.” Sora looked down again at the bones.
“I think you are the god of something very useful,” she said.
“What?” the god asked.
Sora carefully lifted the skull onto the cloth. “You are the god of Arepo.”
Generations passed. The village recovered from its tragedies—homes rebuilt, gardens re-planted, wounds healed. The old man who once lived on the hill and spoke to stone and rubble had long since been forgotten, but the temple stood in his name. Most believed it to empty, as the god who resided there long ago had fallen silent. Yet, any who passed the decaying shrine felt an ache in their hearts, as though mourning for a lost friend. The cold that seeped from the temple entrance laid their spirits low, and warded off any potential visitors, save for the rare and especially oblivious children who would leave tiny clusters of pink and white flowers that they picked from the surrounding meadow.
The god sat in his peaceful home, staring out at the distant road, to pedestrians, workhorses, and carriages, raining leaves that swirled around bustling feet. How long had it been? The world had progressed without him, for he knew there was no help to be given. The world must be a cruel place, that even the useful gods have abandoned, if farms can flood, harvests can run barren, and homes can burn, he thought.
He had come to understand that humans are senseless creatures, who would pray to a god that cannot grant wishes or bless upon them good fortune. Who would maintain a temple and bring offerings with nothing in return. Who would share their company and meditate with such a fruitless deity. Who would bury a stranger without the hope for profit. What bizarre, futile kindness they had wasted on him. What wonderful, foolish, virtuous, hopeless creatures, humans were.
So he painted the sunset with yellow leaves, enticed the worms to dance in their soil, flourished the boundary between forest and field with blossoms and berries, christened the air with a biting cold before winter came, ripened the apples with crisp, red freckles to break under sinking teeth, and a dozen other nothings, in memory of the man who once praised the god’s work on his dying breath.
“Hello, God of Every Humble Beauty in the World,” called a familiar voice.
The squinting corners of the god’s eyes wept down onto curled lips. “Arepo,” he whispered, for his voice was hoarse from its hundred-year mutism.
“I am the god of devotion, of small kindnesses, of unbreakable bonds. I am the god of selfless, unconditional love, of everlasting friendships, and trust,” Arepo avowed, soothing the other with every word.
“That’s wonderful, Arepo,” he responded between tears, “I’m so happy for you—such a powerful figure will certainly need a grand temple. Will you leave to the city to gather more worshippers? You’ll be adored by all.”
“No,” Arepo smiled.
“Farther than that, to the capitol, then? Thank you for visiting here before your departure.”
“No, I will not go there, either,” Arepo shook his head and chuckled.
“Farther still? What ambitious goals, you must have. There is no doubt in my mind that you will succeed, though,” the elder god continued.
“Actually,” interrupted Arepo, “I’d like to stay here, if you’ll have me.”
The other god was struck speechless. “…. Why would you want to live here?”
“I am the god of unbreakable bonds and everlasting friendships. And you are the god of Arepo.”
I reblogged this once with the first story. Now the story has grown and I’m crying. This is gorgeous, guys. This is what dreams are made of.
This is amazing!
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North Stitch - the newly started fashion line by Dakota. The small clothing store fills up the last store on the very end of the outlet mall Adam’s flower shop occupies. It’s a gender neutral clothing line with a very open arrangement and minimalistic, modern interior.
One of my favorite tricks for designing alien species/cultures is to take a real animal with an interesting lifecycle and think about what that biology would translate to if they had human intelligence
Example: silk moths as a base species
Because the moths themselves don’t eat and only live long enough to mate and then starve to death, the entire culture is made up of children and adolescents. The older children raise the younger ones, with families being made up of hatchmates from different years.
Because molts and eventual transformation into a short lived adult happen on a set schedule, families have a cycle— when your oldest set of siblings cocoon to become adults, you wait at the mating grounds and try to adopt their newborns after they pass. If that fails, you take any ‘orphans’ you can find.
Because death and birth are nearly simultaneous, they have a religion based around reincarnation, and infants with markings similar to a parent are often given their name. Claiming the offspring of a beloved family member is vitally important, because you want to be able to protect their soul and keep them close.
Because it’s hard to track the offspring of your male family members, there are sometimes major fights when a family sees an infant with familiar markings in another family’s clutch.
Between mating seasons, their culture is extremely food-oriented, because everyone is growing and silkworms eat nigh constantly. They spend most of their lives outdoors but sleep and shelter from bad weather in large family dwellings made from wood and the remains of the silk cocoons of prior generations.
everyone is really vibing with the silkworm aliens I see
Adam’s house is a brightly lit small, and cozy space. Originally owned by an elderly women, Adam saw charm in the old kitchen and painted walls and kept them as they were when he rented it out. There’s only one bedroom, a large living space, and a little kitchen. The furniture is worn but comfortable, and covered in blankets and cat hair from a fluffy Siamese named Princess.
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The Green Room
The flower shop Adam owns and works. It’s one of the many small open shops squished in a line making up an outlet mall off one of the bus streets of the city. A bakery sits on one side of The Green Room with a metaphysical shop on the other. [x][x][x]
me: i’ll post all of october moodboards and snippets to inspire my nano project
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NaNo 2021 Reveal: What the Flowers Told Me
Genre: Romance Subgrene: LGBTAQ+ Intended Audience: Adult LGBTAQ+ Fiction
Adam knows a lot about flowers. He should, considering he owns one of the town’s more popular flower shops. He understands their moods, their preferred lighting, differences in soil types, but what he doesn’t understand is Dakota. He knows what the bouquets of sunflowers and forget-me-nots symbolize, but not why Dakota keeps giving them to him. He also doesn’t know how to tell Dakota he’s asexual. Maybe a striped carnation? How about geraniums?
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That’s right, we’re back with another romance! Follow Adam’s confusion around his shop, along with a curious Dakota, as the two try to figure out each other - and their feelings! - through tropes, cliches, and flowers! An asexual romance that’s meant to be lighthearted, a little silly, and a lot of wholesome.
You may remember the title and this year I’m actually putting ideas to paper! All throughout the month of October I’ll be (re)introducing characters, tossing out scenary ideas, and talking about some plot to get ready for November!
Tonight on My Husband Doesn’t Know How to Baby Talk
“Ma’am, are you aware that these, right here are your hands? They belong to you. And you get to decide what happens with them. So when you use these hands to pull your binky out of your mouth that is not necessarily a dad problem. I’ll fix it obviously i just want you to acknowledge it’s not my fault”
Husband: ma’am it has been reported lately that you do in fact have tiny little toes and a little button nose, do you care to comment?
Penny Rose: Babbles in Baby
Husband: RIVETING!
Penny Rose: Does that High Pitched Baby Yell ™️
Husband: Let it out friend! Feel your feelings!
Me: Hehehe silly husband doesn’t know how to do baby talk
All of tumblr collectively at my husband:
Penny Rose: does a sad baby scream
Husband: you don’t even have to understand taxes yet! I can explain them but you’ve got several years before that’s relevant!
Penny Rose: wide eyes, staring at her father, almost intrigued
Husband: I lied to you Penny your mother does our taxes. Do you want to know about arbitration? I know all about arbitration.