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2016.12.06. – It's been a while.

I don’t know how much to say here. So much has happened in the last few years that I’m not sure what’s worth saying. In all honesty, I’m surprised so many thousands of you still follow me.

I’ve done a lot of living. I’ve had boyfriends and heartbreaks. I underwent my first apartment move-in with a boyfriend… and then had to undergo my first apartment move-out without said boyfriend. I’ve made friends. I’ve lost friends. I’ve learned a lot. I’ve gotten relaxed a lot. I think I’m a better person. I would say I’m all around happier.

I guess I’ll give the current state of affairs.

SCHOOL & WORK I am finishing up my seventh semester of college. Wow!! I remember I had first announced I was accepted to Columbia on this blog way back when. Assuming things go as planned (fingers crossed…), I will graduate with my Bachelor’s in English Literature in May. I will also have a concentration in Public Policy. I do have a job offer as an adviser to global NGO development, but I’m not sure if I will take that, as I’d have to relocate. So I will have to do some more hunting and see. I’d like to stay in NYC or D.C., maybe even Chicago or Philly. Public sector, of course, is my primary interest. Although I have been getting some leads in biz dev… Who knows!

~LOVE~ In August, I had a breakup with the man I thought I was going to spend the rest of my life with. It was pretty mutual, but still quite painful. I think we’re both still somewhat reeling. I know I will survive—if I could survive my breakup with Matt (some of you may remember, my high school sweetheart!), then I can survive anything, haha. I have been recently dating a “famous” rapper (WOW) lol. I don’t know if that’s going anywhere, since he’s going on tour in January. We shall see…

FRIENDS I’m still friends with Kerri! I’ve dropped the ball there, as I’ve been so overwhelmed with school and work and such. She’s been a real gem of a human and has been so understanding. I need to reach out to her and see how she’s been. Is she still on here? I doubt it, but maybe… Is Olivia on here?? I miss her! I haven’t seen her in a minute but I’m rooting for her too. We keep in touch occasionally and I love her dearly as well. I hope to be reunited with the both of them. I have some fantastic friends here in NYC, of course. Lilly from college, Alysse, Andy, Andrew, Alex, Rich, Nina, John, etc. I am so fortunate for all of them. I love them deeply. I keep in occasional touch with Matt from my hometown (my high school sweetheart). I believe he has a long distance girlfriend in Texas now?! Or he’s moving down there?!? I’m not sure. He’s graduated from school in Philly. I’m so prof of him. Oh! And Bobby. Of course Bobby. He’s doing great it sees! He’s in Spain right now!! He’s finished school and is doing some traveling and then picking up and moving to LA to do the whole movie/TV thing. I’m so immensely proud of him. A little hurt he didn’t pick NYC though… I joke! Some of you may remember Nicole? My childhood bestfriend. She’s engaged!! We’ve drifted apart over the years, so I don’t know if I’ll even be invited but oh my goodness. Engaged! I can’t believe it. I remember talking about this day back when we were in elementary school. I’m tearing up!! Ahh.

FAMILY Well, eh. They’re ok. My brother (19yo) is in college now—I’m so proud! The 15yo is in high school at a votech school. He’s been struggling with some depression. So has my mom. My parents got divorced which was really rough. I don’t know what else to say. This is ever tumultuous…

HEALTH This is where things aren’t so great. My nutrition and weight is better. I’m at a healthier weight. I’m doing ok there. Not great, but ok. I haven’t been hospitalized since I was last posting on here from the hospital, which I guess is good. I was recently diagnosed with epilepsy, which is really destroying my life. Not so much the epilepsy, by the treatment itself. I’m on an intense medication with many side effects called “Zonegran.” It has a ton of side effects and I’m very sensitive to them, but I don’t have any seizures! And it’s also resolved my migraines. I was only diagnosed 2 weeks ago, so maybe things will get better soon. I hope so. IF ANYONE HAS EPILEPSY (PTE/COMPLEX PARTIAL) AND CAN TALK TO ME ABOUT IT, PLEASE DON’T HESITATE TO REACH OUT!!! I’m so alone and have no idea where to go next with all of this…

Anyway, life is good. Things are ok. I’m getting there. This blog has seen me through from some of my lowest of lows to, now, some of my highest of highs.

I know things will only get better.

All my love, forever, Xoxo C