Surviving isn't living

Feeling down? Cheer up please

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

I know i'm not special. I can be replaced easily, they forget about me in no time. It's okay, I guess, I'm used to it. I'm the friend everyone needs when they need someone to rely on, but I'm not the friend who stays in their lives when everything is going well. I wish I was, but I'm not. When they need me, I'll be there, if they don't, they forget about my existence. And when i need someone, there is no-one to turn to.

[suicide-hesitation]

[bitrates]

Sensitive people are the most genuine and honest people you will ever meet. There is nothing they won’t tell you about themselves if they trust your kindness. However, the moment you betray them, reject them or devalue them, they become the worse type of person. Unfortunately, they end up hurting themselves in the long run. They don’t want to hurt other people. It is against their very nature. They want to make amends and undo the wrong they did. Their life is a wave of highs and lows. They live with guilt and constant pain over unresolved situations and misunderstandings. They are tortured souls that are not able to live with hatred or being hated. This type of person needs the most love anyone can give them because their soul has been constantly bruised by others. However, despite the tragedy of what they have to go through in life, they remain the most compassionate people worth knowing, and the ones that often become activists for the broken hearted, forgotten and the misunderstood. They are angels with broken wings that only fly when loved.

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

You know what sucks? Wanting to be loved so desperately. Because he fell in love with me very hard, while I fell in love with the idea of being loved. I've never felt those butterflies, nor did I really crave for his kisses. And the moment you know that's what happened, your heart shatters. You'll break his heart while yours was never full.

[imjustanothernormalgirl]

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

Don't forget, forgive.

And even though you tell thel the truth, tell them you want to go with them but can't because of circumstances. Even though you tell them what's happening in your life and why you can't go: they tell you you're a liar. Those words hurt me a lot more than they intended to, yet, you've spoken them and I will not forget it even though I probably will forgive you over and over again.

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

For me, the worst feeling ever is talking to someone about something you really want to share and that person isn't listening and you stop mid-sentence and this person just doesn't seem to notice.

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

I've had a lot of bad days lately. I mean, I was annoyed by everything, I cried myself to sleep, had a few panick attacks. And there was a time I didn't ask anyone for help, now I did. I have a few great friends who kept talking to me, even if I was stubborn, convincing myself I'm not worth it, they kept on convincing me. And there is this girl who just keeps telling me how beautiful I am and that I'm smart and great and so much more, even though I tell her "No, I'm not.". And it's the first time in a long time I do not feel like annoying someone with my story and drama, she listens and tries to help... maybe that's what true love is...

[there-will-be-violence-deactiva]

 For you 

You are beautiful.💗  You are strong.  You are important.  Everything will be okay in the end.  Don’t give up on the person you’re becoming .

(if you want, show/tag someone to let them know they’re not alone and they are going to be OK )💖💗

[introverts-hideaway]

[purplecloudedthoughts]

I"m tired of feeling like I’m too much. Like I care too much. Like I drink too much. Like I love too much. Like I’m sad too much. Like I break too much. Like I push people away too much. Like I question everything too much. Like I fuck up too much. Like I fall in love too much. Like I blame myself too much. Like I eat too much. Like I feel alone too much. I just want someone to tell me, “You’re not too much for me to handle. You’re not too little. You’re perfect for me.” I wanna stop overflowing, I wanna just be. I want to feel wanted. I want to stop choosing people that try to fill their holes with pieces of me, because I’ll never fit right. I want someone who just wants me to be me.

I’m tired of collapsing (via pinkypromiseimnottheoldsam)

[in-the-shadow-of-happines]

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

And it's only 9:30pm

[queerlysad]

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

I just want to kill myself, I am a failiure, I can't do anything right and everyone leaves me because I'm not good enough. I'm sorry you had me in your lifes, but I don't think it will last long anymore. Soon you'll never see me again and I hope your happy and you find your happiness, because you deserve to be happy. I never deserved my happy ending, but you still deserve yours.

[perfectlydifferenthottube]

Getting happy again

I once told my story about a girl I fell madly in live with. This girl has left my live, not completely, but enough for me to have my heart back. It was broken, in a million pieces. Anyway I got to know another girl more and more. I spend whole evenings with her: wandering around and then just talk for the rest of the evening, while watching sundown and tickle each other and laugh and ... it just feels right. And I know I'm starting to get feelings for her, but I don't know if she does for me. Because I'm a broken piece and I hate myself most of the time and I just want to be enough for her and I want to love her. And she makes me whole again and makes me forget I'm just playing happy, because at that moment: I am happy. She's worth so much and she doesn't realise it. And I really want to tell her, but I don't even know if she likes girls and It's a bit blunt to ask right away... so I have to wait...

[asking-the-death]

[brokenheartedpoems]

Have you ever just laid down and thought about how you have so many ‘friends’ but in actuality you have no one? It’s not like you wanna think about it but you do. and you start to cry but you don’t want anyone to hear you so you start to silent cry and it’s the most painful feeling because you wanna scream and let all your emotions out but you put your hand over your mouth, close your eyes, and lets the tears and your fears consume you.

(via brokenheartedpoems)