Do Not Go Gently

[permanent-failure]

I feel so intensely, I don’t know how to regulate my emotions. I feel that I’m failing. I’m failing you, I’m failing myself. I have thoughts that you’d be better without having to deal with my constant intensity that I’ve suppressed for so long. It’s started to seep over into my outer world where you can see it and I’m ashamed that I’m the way I am.

I know I talk about killing my self regularly, I know you you don’t like it and it’s not yours to carry. I know I gave you even more trauma when I slit my wrists last month, I even failed there too. I acted in a way that wasn’t me, I ran away from the person I love and hid.

I’ve locked myself away from you today because you hurt my feelings with the tone of your voice. That’s something so small, an emotionally healthy person would have brushed that off…I know that I know better but I have no control anymore.

I read that there’s a part of the brain for those with adhd that’s significantly smaller or doesn’t work as it should, that impulse control doesn’t exist and I do feel that I don’t have that at all anymore. I’ll get triggered and feel this intensity, like a 100 foot wave of a lifetime of emotions I’ve never dealt with hits me and I’m choking. My lungs fill up and I feel that I need to end it. I’m tired of enduring, of surviving, being paralyzed and paranoid. I feel like I’ve wasted the person I could have been & I don’t want to drag anyone else down with me.

[thequotegarden]

Imagine meeting someone who wanted to learn your past not to punish you, but to understand how you needed to be loved.

[dsamuelsonart]

Spin Cycle. Oil on canvas, 8 x 10"

[yurei-of-the-artist]

Dmitry Khramtsov, "Rapunzel".

[shisasan]

Anaïs Nin, Delta of Venus, originally published: 1977

[girlonabreak]

Someone being patient with you is one of the softest forms of love

[mortem-et-necromantia-deactivat]

[in-turbulent-motion]

Ph: Craig Schlewitz.

[permanent-failure]

It's my 13 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

What a wild 13 years.

[goonch-blog]

Ah Leon’s brilliant ceramic teapots and mug.

I AM IN LOVE.

[destroymylife]

[memeuplift]

[whispersinthecosmos]

The Witch, 1893 by John Maler Collier

[i-am-a-lost-teenage-soul]

[whitepeopletwitter]

[uzumaki-rebellion]

America 2020.

[opiatediaries]

I have a heart built for war, but I have never fought a fucking war like this.

[invaderxan]

Heard some important information on Twitter today, and thought I’d post it here for anyone who may not have heard it. This is actually a thing, devised by human rights organisation called Karma Nirvana.

Reblog to save a life?

[morbidology]

One of the most photographed, and arguably one of the most believable, stories of UFO’s is that which was spotted on 30 March, 1990, in Belgium. The Control Reporting Center (CRC) confirmed that there were unidentified triangular objects flying in the sky. There were a number of reported sightings of the unusual object which was said to be spotted with lights that were allegedly as bright as stars and changed colour. After a second radar confirmation, two F-16 jets were sent to intercept the UFO; they obtained radar lock on three occasions but each time they locked, the UFO would drastically change their position and then accelerate exceedingly. When the F-16′s locked for the first time, the UFO accelerated from 150mph to more that 1100mph and changed altitude from 9000ft to 5000ft and then up to 11000ft in less than two seconds. These changes in altitude at the speeds that were reported would be life threatening to any human pilot. Over 13,000 people reported witnessing this spectacle. After an hour, the UFO disappeared from the radars.