theres this thing a lot of white people do (and i myself have been guilty of) where we wanna be in on the jokes about white people, but also wanna preemptively excuse our mistakes, so we try to be cute about it like "omg im soooo white and stupid. white people suck and i am the worst one. i was raised in the suburbs ive never seen a melanin in my life. im so clueless let me tell you all the crazy things i used to believe-" and its like stop stop stop it nobody wants to hear this. its not cute its cringe. please. kill the instinct to turn your ignorance into an endearing character flaw. it doesnt work that way.