Depressed, Worthless Waste of Space

I’m a burden and everyone knows it. Welcome to my depression and self hate blog✌️🏳️‍🌈

[betyourefine]

I can't remember what happiness feels like

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[moonblacckkk]

[sadallthedamntime-blog]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[yousaveeveryonebutwhosavesyou]

[betyourefine]

I kinda wish that I didn't exist

[betyourefine]

I'm so sick of myself

[lostdeepindarkthoughts]

[myopressivedepression]

[canadad-deactivated20171111]

*apologizes for being distant* *apologizes for being affectionate*

[tiaraturnabout]

*apologizes in general*

[yo-its-matt]

*apologizes for apologizing*

[boazpriestly]

[phoenixryder21]

I’m beginning to see the appeal in self harm. At least then I could feel something…

[phoenixryder21]

It’s funny. I’ve felt this way for so long I don’t really feel it at all. Happiness seems such an indistinct, abstract idea incapable of being achieved. Crying seems exhausting and I simply lack the energy for it. I’ve lost myself to a world of silence and nothingness

[phoenixryder21]

There was a point when I felt everything too much. Now I feel nothing at all. I suppose it doesn’t make much of a difference, the desire to stop everything continues either way

[phoenixryder21]

I think the worst thing I’ve felt is nothing at all

The feeling of absolute numbness consuming every part of me is worse than any pain or sadness I’ve felt. It takes me over and leaves me wondering why anything matters. If it ever even mattered in the first place. It makes me wonder why I keep trying and wear a mask for everyone else’s sake, because does any of it mean anything? When I’m numb I’m not so sure it does. It’d be so much easier to just slip away…

[mjalti]

me: hello me, internally: did i say too much