My Words (honest things I'll regret sharing)

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Tiptoe through my mind,

Mindful of the sharp debris.

Leave me untouched-

Only soft edges, please.

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I fear the discomfort

Bloated and heavy

As much as I fear

The ache of my bones

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You could say his eyes were blue

They were sunlight reflected on rain soaked slate

And the swirling depths of a storm tossed ocean

The very elements of earth and sky

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Violently devoted

Obsessed and possessive

Under the microscope

A pathetic specimen

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Pass the needle

It pulls the thread

With steady hand

You guide our heart

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A shift in pattern

Small enough to notice

Time stamped for reference

It ended everything

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The stomach flip

When you miss a step

But repeated steadily

Over and over

Describing the panic attack

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Light through the cracks

I raise a dust cloud

Open the boxes

Search for what remains

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​There's darkness within

​I saw it because I have it too

​A complicated sorrow

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Hunting this thing down

Tucked deep below the surface

I cannot let it get away

Traveled too far to lose this

It changes shape with focus

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Moments I could bottle.

Keeping them inside.

The quiet conversations,

Low gravelled voices,

Kiss me now.

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In Springtime we re-awaken,

Winter's sleep at last abandoned.

To run through grass and leafy copse,

And reconnect to one another

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The older versions of myself

Still linger in past memories

A whirlwind of crazy chaos

I miss her so much, sometimes

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My stomach erupts, like an active volcano

It splashes into the basin, and soaks the mat on the floor

A violent and lumpy cascade

I will no longer consume coleslaw

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Amusing myself with a little piece I might call A Vengeance Against Coleslaw as l have been rather ill this morning.

(But on a serious note, I do struggle with eating. I can just look at something and my mind will go "not eating that". Coleslaw has been on my safe foods list for years. So today's development might have now caused me some issues. Like the time a saw a peach with terribly cratered skin and now I can't touch or eat them!!! FML).

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On the day of departure,

It shredded my heart.

Cut the breath from my throat,

Tore my soul apart.

Still, it pulls me back.

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My young hands stole cheap trinkets.

Teenage lungs inhaled weed with friends.

I partied with spirits and cocaine.

I used men's bodies to feel something.

I'm left with the anxiety, I forgive myself.

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I'm sorry but I grew up tough.

I developed a shell,

I protected myself,

Never lowered the shield.

But inside here, I am nervous,

Sensitive and quiet.

I've learned to mask,

So I cannot just let you in ...

Yet.