jessamy joy

I want to taste infinity in every moment it is there I am there

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I am bones

supporting the structure

containing marrow of god

I will not break

I will not break

I will fucking run

heavy muscled and thick with incense

my license is legacy

my mouth is sermon

kiss the wild veins

that river through my matter

beaded sweat drips

flanked tenderness hidden within

powerful gait

I will move you

we will go further than you could imagine

our bodies will carry into cloud

mustang heart beating

I am drumming drumming

closer to dancing

home is oxygen

home is breath

it penetrates to the core

it carries us closer to life

death

life again

the rhythm is my hymn

I will fucking run

the fields are endless

I tore down your fences

they were never real anyway

they were dead wood

waiting for me to chop

kick

destroy

jump over

I will not break

I will bend like the trees in the wind

I am breathing myself to life

-jessamy joy

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you used to call me the moon

but she is just one of my cells

thank heaven

I am peeking hues at dawn

and strobing rainbow rich light

at sunset

a soul igniting tune coloring

the autumn air

the little glisten of brilliance

on the tips of waves

soft purrs riding hummingbirds wings

electricity in magnetized touch

I can fly, I can fly

the wind is my thoughts

those invisible currents

shaping the world

the trees! they are my growing bones

I am changing

I am so much more than just the moon

you couldn’t see me

so I couldn’t see me

when you vanished

I reappeared

my eyes are earth, how did I not see?

how could I not hear

the whispered voice of now saying

“you are whole. you are worthy.

drink it all in, it’s already within”

holy shit! I just want to cry

until I can see the ocean of me

how many times will I be reborn?

let it be as many galaxies as there are

let it be endless

let it be the one thing that is forever

I want to taste infinity in every moment

it is there

I am there

-jessamy joy

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my throbbing heart grows

on a tree in the garden

on those highest prongs

bursting with verdant aeon

reaching

reaching

towards the madness of the sun

dare I pick the starry fruit of transparency?

I must

to transcend the fragility of myself

I must

become blue like the sky

only to fade into liminal clarity

one day your hands will long

to envelop the roundness of me

to pick our love

ripe with rapture

sink into it, fanged

frenzied

drink the juice

of erotic devotion

as it colors us

permanent

but I gave myself to the birds

the garnet jeweled mosaic of me

consumed

scattered

to the sky, the earth, the in between

thrust into the mess of it all

and in the chaos is life

in the chaos is poetry

-jessamy joy

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I used to fear the inevitable

that stomach pit moment

the realization of dead end

the echo of the shadowy destroyer

it all falls apart so easily

doesn’t it?

my inhales are spirit

my exhales are prayers

I am in communion with impermanence

she is an intoxicating mistress

she never stays

she

never

stays

even though I beg

please! you are beyond time divine

please! you turn me into pools of gold

please! we could birth a galaxy 4 million light years from here

please! you are pleasures tongue

you speak

in morphing movement perpetual

in the silences

between pearled moments

threaded

and glamorously worn

she knows what I need

my souls explosion of desire

she’s never cared much

for the head or heart

what pulls your invisible into vision?

what colors the tears in your eyes?

how do you become the moon and sun?

who are you

when everything has been lost?

she knows

the world is ours for the taking

if only we can let go

if only we can flatline

and resurrect into the unknown

-jessamy joy