Now I have absolutely no idea if anyone is gonna know what I'm talking about when I bring up this game but I actually really love the bara men x men game No Thank You.
When I was younger I always had a idea rattling around in my head about Haru. I didn't fully grasp the story when I was younger and was confused a bit by what was happening even now lol. But I still like the game.
Now I have this little au about it where durring the point where Haru regains his memories and his yakuza past/personality comes back. As the whole reason he was supposed to be there was to investigate if the secret detective agency had anything to do with drug trafficking.
Now I would imagine when he regains his memories and has the choice to escape or kill everyone. He takes Yufumi and Maki with him. The reason he takes Yufumi is because he wants to have a family. He wants to have a normal life so if Maki is his "wife" of sorts then Yufumi can be his daughter to raise.
The reason he brings Maki is because out of everyone they have the most in common and in my opion develop the most genuine connection. As I think Maki would embrace Haru's true inner evil nature. As Haru accepts Maki's more cold personality.
The two would leave the bar/detective agency to go to America or maybe Mexico to start a new life as a new family. To get away from there past criminal lives. While taking care of Yufumi as there adaptive daughter.
I'd totally see Lily wearing a pretty patchwork dress custom made by Ragtha. Also with some cute glasses and a pearl necklace. With a long hair wig cause she just wants long hair! And a beautiful hair bow tie to honnor rabbit.
Ooohhh in the au Jax by himself besides Lily is only alive because he's semi abstracted/the literal file of his brain scan. So because of this he gets exsitial really hard.
But in this I would propose the idea of what if Gumigoo was still alive but was just in the void. I mean they deleted Caine and he came back. So I could totally see Gummigoo doing the same thing.
Besides that the reason I bring up Gummigoo is because I would ship him with Jax. I would cannon Gays as a gay closed guy and Lily as a bisexual.
I think if Gummigoo came back then he would probably spend a lot of time around Jax to tell him life has meaning beyond what he thinks as a way to pay Pomnis kindness forward. As he can see that Jax means a lot to Pomni. So they would grow close and Jax would have a gay panic moment before ultimately accepting himself.
But like au jax where he/she is peeled and they become two different people in the circus. With peeled Jax transitioning and embracing being a trans women renaming themselves as Lily going by she/her. While skinned Jax is still just Jax going by he/him. I just think that is a fun idea is allâ¨
Alright I have no idea if anyone is gonna know what I'm talking about. But there's a fears of phathom clips of Caseoh where he crashes out over eating the crust of pizza on the npc. So I can totally see Laxus doing that with the thunder legion it go something like this.
Bixslow to Laxus: "You actually eat the crust?"
Laxus slamming his fist on the table: "Yeah I eat the crust this was like 22 jewels! Imma eat every inch of it!"
With Evergreen and Freed hitten Bixslow with this look
So a few days ago I had a joke idea of making fanart of Laxus and Gajeel dressed up as a pimp named slickback from the boondocks... And what started out as a joke. Quickly became a real illustration and here it is⨠When I actually have proper colouring stuff I'll fill it it. But for now this is this piece
When something precious to Laxus goes missing he goes on a search to find it. Crossing paths with someone else he deeply cares for he has to confront some inner turmoil. If he wishes to keep up their relationship.
The late fall chilling air blew strongly past the many thickly settled trees that lined the forests that surrounded Mangolia. Sending loose leaves barely attached to their branches free. Swirling and dancing almost like a whisper through the air past Laxus'sface. Huffing to himself, his cheeks a light dusty pink. He grabbed his scarf that he tied around his neck and held it close up to his nose to regain any sense of warmth.
His breath came out as small white puffs of smoke. As he tried to focus hard on his walking as he kicked a clear path on the dirt ground. Piles upon piles of leaves had littered the previously spotless hiking trails leaving them abandoned and an absolute chore to trudge through.
Pulling his scarf down he rubbed his reddening numb hands together. Before reaching up and lowering the volume of his sound pods. Music that would normally give him comfort now a mere distraction in this critical moment.
Hands reach up to cup the sides of his mouth he inhaled. âBluebell! BlueBell where are you!? Ugh! I leave you out of my sight for one second and you go scuttling off. I swear when I find you youâre going straight into the punishment cornerâŚâ
Waiting a second he raised one of his eyebrows before an idea came to mind.
âWith the cone of shame Bellie!â Another pause of waiting.
But, nothing that earned a sigh from Laxus. As he then stuck his newly forming frost bitten hands into his thick coat pockets. His face scrunching up as he continued to look around for Bluebell.
âDamn, that usually works. Jeez Bellie, where could you have gone this time? Itâs almost nightfall now.â
Walking through a particular thick brush. Using his arms to smack the thin bare branches out of his face. Carefully back and frothing his steps on the ground to make sure his next step was on actual solid ground. Stealing a glance down at one of his favorite green shirts that had sustained a gross huge mud stain. A testament to him not being careful enough going up the hill towards the forest.
Reaching up to his cheek hissing as he felt a few thin scratches to his face. As a careless step near a huge rock had sent him flying forwards and towards the muddy ground. To be honest because no one was around to see him in one of his few weakest⌠or probably stupidest moments, he just laid there for a good while contemplating just why in the world he was trekking through the woods so late.
Eventually though he did force himself to get up and continue walking forward even with no sense of direction. The only thing truly motivating him was the thought of having to get the guild involved in such a silly situation. Ranking his hand over his face he rolled his eyes.
âGod, I can hear Natus now. Oh Laxus cares about a little baby ducky how stupid is that- AAAHHH!â
Mid mocking statement Laxus had forgotten to mind his footing and when he was lost in thought. His foot that was meant to step on more mossy ground had in fact not. For that matter it met with nothing. Which sent him flying forward past the thick wiry bushes and down another slimy cold muddy hill. He merely tumbled his rather large body down until after moments of screaming did he finally meet the ground. But no Mother Nature couldn't stop there now could she?Â
Oh no if she was gonna get him then she was going to make sure he knew never to come back to her forest ever again. Since when he finally met the ending of the hill his head had slammed onto a rather sizable rock with a loud crack. With everything in his vision going black. Except for in a strange instance before he lost consciousness he could have sworn he saw a mix of two bright colors. A cheery yellow and a dark crimson red?
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âYeesh, god my head. Stupid hill, stupid forests, damned Bluebell!â
Laxus reached up to feel his forehead fully expecting a new open wound and blood. But was fully surprised when he touched bandages? Even his cheeks had bandaids on them? Man he truly wanted some space between him and the thunder legion while he was looking for Bluebell. He hadnât yet told them about the little baby duck that had been following him around. So knowing they had found him only further fueled his annoyance.
âThe fuck? Freed if you were going to bandage me you at least could have woken me up first.â
A deep chuckle rang out through the clearing in the forests. âWell itâs a good thing that Iâm not your personal little lap dog then ainât it.â Laxusâs eyes snapped open looking around until finally he landed on a familiar beloved thorn in his side.
âOf course it had to be you out of everyone I could have possibly run into. Today is seriously not my day.â
He watched as Gajeel smirked up at him. The way he crossed his legs and rested his head in his hand with such smug confidence it truly burned a new level of contempt for the man.
âAwh~ Ainât too happy to see me sparky? Truly wounds me and here I thought we were finally making some progress in our relationship seeing that your just a big of a fuck up as me.â
Laxus tried to stand but as he stepped up his head immediately began to spin around making him rather fully dizzy and nauseous. Causing him to sit back down rather harshly.
âYou're an idiot or something? You just smashed your head in too; take it easy for a second will you. Plus bandaging you up while you were knocked out wasnât a simple task let me tell you. Has anyone ever told you that you move a lot when you're out cold?â
âWhatever, I don't have time for this.â
He watched as Gajeel then leaned back hands on the discarded crunching leaves that surrounded them. Taking a further look around where they were. It seemed to be a cleaning in the woods. There were a few trees around them but what was weird was it seemed like this was a massive ditch connected to the upper ground of the forests by the hill he fell down.
âWhy the rush? Mean you ainât got a happy guild to return to after all.â
That got Laxus, as electricity began to vibrate and pop around his form. As a particular nasty glare was thrown towards Gajeel. Which he could see got Gajeel who jumped just slightly but tried to play it off with a wave.
âRelax, anyway Iâm in the same position as you. But I think I know why you're out here in the middle of nowhere.â
Laxus took a few deep breaths as reached up and turned down his sound pods. Turning them off with a light click. His lightning finally also cooling down.
âAlright then be my guest, why am I out here?â
âProbably because of this little nuisance.â As Gajeel spoke, reaching towards his thick hair searching for something.
Laxus watched as Gajeel seemingly found what he was looking for with a satisfied smirk on the man's pierced face. Watching as the man tugged his arm free of the mess of hair to finally pull out what seemed to be- â-Bluebell!â Laxus shouted.
A little bright yellow baby duck with a blue ribbon around her neck and a little bell attached to it. Angrily, her bill still snapped onto some of Gajeel's hair. Even as Gajeel tried to pull her out of the tangled mess.
âBluebell huh, she like your pet or something? Never actually would have pegged you as a pet having kind of guy.â
Laxus then scooted towards Gajeel which caught the attention of little Bluebell. Seeing her eyes open up wide in shock as the little duck finally freed Gajeel's hair in her mouth. Before letting out small quacks of delight as she waddled over towards Laxus.
âCome here you little trouble maker.â
Laxus lowered his hands to the cold ground cupping his hands together as she jumped up and landed onto his palms. Finally able to let out a sigh of relief as he held Bluebell towards his face as she rubbed her little head against his bandaged cheek. A small smile on his face relieved that she wasnât harmed.
âWhere did you find her? I searched the whole guild, home, and even these woods.â
Gajeel just shrugged before absent mindily scratching his chin.
âTo be honest I donât truly know. All I do know is I was at the guild talking to you one minute then you vanish out of thin air. Thanks for that by the way, not like I was enjoying our rare conversations out in the open when they happen but itâs whatever.â He spoke with a bitter smile, which caused Laxus to roll his eyes.
âBut once you left I wasnât in the mood to listen to another book summary from Levy or consulate Juv for the millionth time today. And with Salamander being his usual annoying self I was not in the mood to fight him. So I came out here to train, when I realized somehow your little BlueBell had hopped into my hair.â
He then gripped the ends of his hair and twisted the long length to the side of him. Wringing out a pool of water from his hair. Which got a disgusted groan from Gajeel.
âShe cried a ton when she realized she wasnât at the guild or that you werenât around. So I was going to find you and return her to you. But then I heard your bigass marching through the forest then eventually falling here. And I bandaged you up and that brings us to now.â
Laxus then lowered Bluebell down to the ground watching her waddle from his hand to inbetween him and Gajeel. Her little head looked back and forth between them. A puzzled expression was clear on her face. When Bluebell waddled towards the arm of his coat and tugged at it with her bill. Before going over to Gajeel's hair and trying to snap at it only for Gajeel to hold his hair up away from the baby duck.
âNope, absolutely not. You tangled my hair up enough for today. Probably going to have to take me hours to get all the knots out.â
Laxus then slowly stood up feeling himself wobble just a little bit but balancing was much easier than before. As his vision didnât blur this time or his head didnât spin as much now. But Gajeel, catching sight of Laxus standing, frowned harshly.
âWhat did I say before? You're really stubborn huh? Well fine but if you fall again and if I have to carry you back to my house I swear to god Laxus.â
Laxus taking slow steps towards Gajeel by his side now. He then took a seat next to him before letting out a heave from moving too much in his state.
âIâm fine Iâve taken worse blows than this. But hey you have your comb with you though right?â
Gajeel nodded before reaching into his pocket and grabbing a thin wide tooth comb. âWhy do you ask?â
Laxus then opened his hand.
âGive me it, I'll help comb out your hair.â
Gajeel then slightly blushed at that before a sly smile spread across his face.
âOh going all soft on me now sparky? Ainât like you to be all tender.â
Laxus groaned before snatching the comb out of Gajeel's hand and grabbing at his shoulders, roughly turning him around so that Laxus could face Gajeels back.
âJust shut up you saying stuff like that is exactly why I donât do this sorta shit with you.â
The comment came out a bit sharper than Laxus had intended it too. And as the words left his mouth he felt a tinge of regret well up in his chest. Even more so when he saw Gajeel's shoulders slightly sag a little. But he didnât say anything afterwards which made Laxus cringe. Taking a section of Gajeel's hair he began to gently comb through the ends and go up the hair's length.
âLook⌠You know Iâm not good at being all soft and romantical. I told you that since the first day we started all this. I donât exactly know what Iâm doing here.â
Laxus watched as Gajeel moved around to cross his arms in front of his chest.
âOh I know you made that perfectly clear when we first kissed, remember. You really know how to kill a good mood, you know that?â
Glancing towards Bluebell, the little duck had been waddling around exploring the area they were in. Before plucking a small flower with her bill. Then waddling back to the two standing in front of Gajeel she held a small little daisy. Big glassy eyes sparkling up at Gajeel with small tears in her eyes. Making Gajeel chuckle.
âWhat is this for me you little monster?â
âQuack!â She yelped loudly.
Making Gajeel pause before looking up towards the side. Placing a finger to his lips in a mock thinking session.
âI dunno, you did an awful lot of damage to my hair. And now sparky here has to do the grouling task of combing the mess you made~.â
âQuack!â
Gajeel then reached out and took the flower from Bluebell's bill.
âWell⌠I think you're offering such a lovely flower. I think thatâs more than enough of an apology payment to make us even.â
Bluebell then let out another excited quack delighted. As she waddled closer to Gajeel's leg and climbed up his pants leg before landing tumbling to Gajeel's lap and curling up into a ball. Closing her eyes as her bell chimed loudly. As little small snores escaped her now heaving body.
âReal nice, she apologizes then falls asleep on me like Iâm her personal bed.â
Laxus then leaned over and took the daisy from Gajeel's hand and tucking away a strand of stray hair that hung around Gajeel's face. He placed the daisy along the strand of hair behind his ear.
âItâs good it means she likes you.â
âHuh she seems to be the only one.â
âHey.â
Laxus looked at Gajeels face but he just turned his face away to avoid Laxusâs gaze. So cupping his jaw Laxus moved Gajeels face back to look at him.
âHey, come on, look at me.â
Gajeel finally locked eyes with Laxus.
âAlright Iâm looking at you, what is it?â
âListen, Iâm sorry. I didnât mean to up and leave you at the guild. And Iâm sorry that⌠That Iâm cold to you while we're in public.â
âIt really sucks. I hope you know that.â
âYeah I can see that. I-I, god Iâm bad at this. But what Iâm trying to say is that I do care a lot about you and I really, really do like you. Iâm just not used to being in an actual relationship much less a healthy long term one.â
Gajeel then leaned his side against Laxusâs chest. Resting his head against Laxusâs neck.
âYou act like you're the only one in that position in this relationship. You know this is also my first real relationship too. Itâs just sometimes I feel like you're mad at me or ashamed to be seen out in public with me.â
âI can see that and⌠I can stand to work on my anger. But I want to make something crystal clear.â
Laxus then placed a hand onto Gajeel's head and placed a kiss upon it.
âI am not nor would I ever be ashamed to be seen out in public with you. You're honestly quite a catch, Gajeel. I don't know if you know that.â
âPlease flattery ainât going to get you anywhere.â
âOh yeah then why is your face all red?â
âShut up! But if thatâs the case then why does it seem like you avoid me at the guild?â
Laxus began to pet Gajeel's head.
âThat is another thing Iâve got to work on. I avoid mostly everyone at the guild if I can, you see that right? But I, Iâll promise to work on it when it comes to you if it makes you feel that way.â Laxus then clicked his tongue. âI just donât want the others to start running their mouths or making up rumors about us, much less you. We deserve our privacy.â
âThank you and I get that but you know well and good as much as I do that there our guild, there basically family to us. Even if they do flap their gums about what they might think is going on between us they never would want any harm to come to us.â
Gajeel then chuckled.
âI think Mirajane would throw a huge party for us if she found out.â
âUgh please donât remind me Iâve had that dreaded thought for awhile now. You know I just donât like my personal business out for everyone to know. But if you want to actively go public about us one day then I wouldnât have a problem with it. Even if you are the best and most beautiful secret that I want to keep all to myself.â
Gajeel then looked up and leaned in closer to Laxusâs face.
âYou should be open and soft more often. I like you complimenting me like this.â
Laxus smirked at Gajeel, inching closer.
âHm Iâll think about it but I think if I do it too often your ego might blow up out of control.â
Gajeel shrugged.
âMaybe so but I love it when you're all romantic.â
âI bet you do, how about you show me how much you enjoy it metal head~.â
âI think Iâll take you up on that sparky been awhile since weâve had some genuine alone time.â
âThatâs true but let's remedy that.â
âJust shut up and kiss me already.â Gajeel spoke which caused Laxus to laugh.
Not having to be told twice Laxus leaned down and finally kissed his beloved. As the sun began to set around the two engulfed them in its remaining warmth. The two enjoyed what little bit of sunlight they had left before night fall came. But not worrying much about the cold as they had each other to keep the other warmth throughout the night.
Hm.... So I'm thinking right, while I work on my Akane x Fuyuhiko fanfic. That my next project not yet on the previous list but will be updated shortly. Will be about Mad Dog x Courage from the show courage the cowardly dog.
Because for the longest time I've seen the fanbase ship courage and Katz. But I then remembered the episode "The Mask". And it got me wondering how come nobody yet has shipped Mad Dog and Courage?
I believe this is because either most people forget about Mad Dogs character or they want to ignore him being there because of what his character exactly is which is a abuser.
The reason I bring that up is because I mainly wondered. What made Mad Dog like that? Of course his actions are not ok and there is no excuse for it. However there has to be a reason. As I believe he did love Bunny but in his own warped way of showing it.
So if I were to do a fanfic on Mad Dog and Courage it would be about Mad Dog becoming a better guy. As Muriel loves Courage so I think a parallel to that would be of course Mad Dog and Eustace. With Mad Dog seeing himself in Eustace and doesn't like it as he abuses Courage often.
And since Courage gave him a second chance at life he would protect Courage from Eustace but also want to get better. Because he doesn't want to be like that. He probably has a "wait do I look like that moment" when Eustace is well being himself.
The fic itself would be about the rough journey of a abuser making a constant choice to be better. And how even if you do get better people you have hurt in the past have the right to either forgive you or don't. You just have to live with it and move on.
I would show this with Bunny and Kitty's reaction to him getting better. With Courage representing new people who enter your life and know about your past and see the work your doing and chooses to be by your side.
So some headcannons I have for Akane would be like:
1) I'd imagine she would like clay art/making stuff that is practical in very day use. Since she's so food oriented I can easily see her making custom plates and cups for special occasions.
2) I can totally see her having half siblings. Since its been stated she has 7 siblings I'd like to imagine that she would be related to Mondo and Daiya. With Mondo being older than her. This one is more for fun lore than anything but I would like to point out how Akane and Mondo have similar eyelashes so they might be half related. (This also has to do with the fanfic I have in the works but that's for another time lol) I can also see her being related to Yuta and Aoi mainly because of how when they express themselves they are very similar in exaggeration.
3) Since Akane isn't.... The most brightest she has a big heart. And she cares a lot for others and wants to take care of them. I think she would be a very labor/physical type of person to show appreaction. Like getting you a gift, making you a meal even if she can't cook she'll get you food somehow, or clean for you, maybe do some errands for you if you were to tired to do so.
4) Because of her past too I can totally see her wanting to be a good Mom and having a big family because she's used to having a community around her.
5) This one is a bit sad. But because of what we know of Akanes past I don't think she properly knows what it looks like or means to be treated right.
What I mean by that is when Akane was very young she was often sexually harassed and was assulted to the point that the very reason she's good at parkour is because she got good at running away from creeps.
Because of this I don't think she would know what it would be like if a normal guy were to just ask her out normally and not be weird about it. Or if a guy was treating her right by just giving her regular complements or simple gifts. She'd probably be on gaurd wondering what he would want from her because of the nice treatment he's giving to her for free. I think she would become very flustered and confused but happy when she realizies it's just because they want too.
Though the bright side of this is because of all that. She is very direct with people so when a guy is straight up with her and wants to make a actual commitment to her I'd imagine she would be very sweet and smitten in her own way. Going to the ends of the earth for her partner seeing that they would do the same for her.
is growing up and becoming an adult who participates in normal adult activities bad?
listen, I write about non-con, murder, infanticide and cannibalism. so even if you write about any of these things I do, or some other things that would have been disgusting and shockingly wrong in real life, even if you don't age your characters up, nothing is ever bad or wrong as long as it's fiction.
I don't know how many times I have to say this but thought crimes are not real. stop letting the imaginary cop in your head shame you and keep you from creating the art you want to create. stop asking strangers for their opinions when it comes to your hobby, something that you do for yourself and your own enjoyment, something that doesn't harm or affect anybody in real life in any way, shape or form.
write whatever you want, however you want. you have all the power and the freedom to do that.
I dunno if other people can relate to this. But I struggle very harshly when it comes to my relationship with art/drawing. Because of my autism what's supposed to be a freeing activity turns more into a session of stress. As my perfectionism tends to take over and I worry about every single detail being perfect. This worry more often than not stops me completely from drawing or makes it so that when I am drawing that I can't enjoy it. And it sucks because I love the end product of when I draw. I dunno if other people can relate to this but I thought why not voice my thoughts and see if other people feel the same?
hi russthechaotic! i love your blog and i hope youâre doing okay abd taking a posting break for personal reasons! i just wanted to send some positive energy your way because i remembered your tumblr exists. have a great day!
Awh thank you I truly appreactite you sending this!!! And a bunch of things have been happening and I've been away from my Tumblr but things are better and I hope too make a return soon to Tumblr.
I just thought of this when creating things you need a strong visual library. And you gain that through expiernce and knowledge. So when creating things make sure you do your research but also live your life. Because often when creating we reference things we expiernce.
Themes and messaging when writing is a bit interesting to think about honestly. Like most times themes help keep the center idea at the forefront of my mind. So it helps keep the story consistent.
While messaging is a good thing to keep in mind remeber people come from everywhere and there mindset is different than yours. So people might take your message and think differently about it than you originally did.
Here's another tip/advice. Reach out to your community. Either in person or online. Trust me you'd be suprise how many people that are talented in your community and you don't know it. Networking and building friendships are not only a benefit to you but also brings community together!
Drafting!!!! I can't stress how important drafting and planning means when doing a project. As you can't always have everything planned when writing however; you can have a better understanding of the story along with themes. Plus important story beats you want to hit. With a outline allowing you to problem solve how to get there.
