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i tend to hyperfixate on things, especially characters, so you might see me post about one character a lot and then switch to another

my identity is unstable and may change sometimes

i am not a roleplay blog i have this url because esther library of ruina is my husband and we are married

I will not follow back or talk privately if you are under 18

do not interact with me if you ship incest or underage

other than that, just be kind and we'll probably get along!

look at this ⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️⬆️

astro-the-silly

i really need thumb rodya to come out

#limbus company #LMAOOO

character-design-tournament

Round 7, Match 5 — Distorted Hohenheim (Limbus Company) vs. GLaDOS (Portal)

Distorted Hohenhiem propaganda:

i really like his design because it is supposed to be a visual representation of someone consumed wholly by their survivor's guilt. a distortion is basically a person's inner desires, trauma, and overall their inner Conflict or how they view themselves, manifested outwards. hohenheim's distortion reflects the character's struggle with being defined by everyone who died to get them where they are, how their deaths carry their entire being and perception of themself, where they are now, and how much those deaths take up in their head no matter how hard they try to deny it and close up about it, conveyed with the crossed arms restraining their own body, how little their arms budge until they are defeated, and also the fact that they are quite literally only made up of the clawing arms. this is most easily reflected in this battle sprite they wear a stained and weathered lab coat, being the head researcher at both jobs they worked at, most notably the job they had during the catastrophic site burial event that lead to all the deaths of everyone they loved. their dress(?) is soaked in blood, still running, almost thick and viscous with the sheer volume of it, perhaps from being mixed with powdery rubble and debris. the hands are gangly and clawed, all defining features and traits redacted out to be nothing but red dark outlines, the implication of a death rather than having to face the actual corpse. their head is shaped like a magnifying glass, their only defining facial feature being an eye, because ever since losing everyone they now only observe from afar, distancing themselves from their emotions and everyone around them in an attempt to avoid feeling so strongly for anyone ever again. in their fight, their eye is literally at the top of the room moving around and observing the fight, while you fight them. it is cool as fuck. this person is a husk, nothing but the deaths of other holding up a single eye meant only to observe and nothing more after losing everyone who made them who they are today. i'm very normal over this design and anyone who's interested in it can flock over to me (@firebuug) for additional info or whatever. i love you distorted hohenheim you will forever be the winner of my heart even if i did vote against you like once or twice throughout this tournament.

GLaDOS propaganda:

N/A

The better design is...

Distorted Hohenheim

GLaDOS

Voting ended onJun 4

(Your usual reminder that you're encouraged to vote based on design regardless of any personal feelings for or against the characters themselves or the media they're from!)

#man this is actually really difficult. doing my best to put my bias aside #glados is a really cool and iconic design that fits her type of character perfectly #but i really love hohenheim's symbolism and uniqueness

flowerpatchgarden

happy pride month

baeddoll

the polyamorous sadist would like you all to organize yourselves into a wack-a-mole type arrangement

mollyjames

Wait hang on... was I traumatized as a teenager? *thinks about it for a bit* Well I can't remember anything traumatic so it's probably fine.

mollyjames

HEY

o-velocity

i’m being haunted

crabussy

"I just find it hard to believe some people who claim to be systems. why do all their alters have strange names and unique appearances and weird mannerisms?" queer people are disproportionately at risk of experiencing childhood trauma. autistic people are disproportionately at risk of experiencing childhood trauma. there are countless studies on this if you want to hear it right from the source. childhood trauma is the driving factor behind a massive majority of DID/OSDD system formations. I trust that you can connect the dots here!

crabussy

if you intentionally choose to disregard peoples' existences based on their appearance or behaviours, you have biases that you absolutely need to deconstruct before people like me can ever feel safe around you.

you can start by saying nothing about how you "just can't believe it" when someone you don't know exists as a system where you can see. you can keep going by trusting the people in your life when they share extremely vulnerable information about themselves.

crabussy

telling someone that you're part of a system feels like exposing your soft underside. I've cried from terror almost every time I've had to reveal it to someone I care about, and I don't cry easily. if someone tells you they're part of a system, they're placing a monumental amount of trust in you.

please don't break that trust.

crabussy

actually, another thing!!! you are seeing systems who:

1. actually know that they're systems (this is rare. being online makes resources on figuring it out WAY more accessible) 2. happen to exist in the same online space as you, the tumblr user reading this 3. are, as a result, usually younger and/or autistic and/or queer, which are all factors that can influence individual alters' identities.

so of COURSE you think we're all like this. you're looking at one damn tree instead of the whole forest!!! there are systems who are 60 years old and never had the resources to figure out what was going on. there are systems who are 30 and barely use social media for personal reasons. there are systems who are 20 and don't tell anyone because of the cruelty they've faced every time they try. there are systems who are 15 and are SO relieved to have answers to why everything felt weird and wrong their whole life, so they shout it from the rooftops. your limited interactions with systems in specific online spaces does not represent the majority of systems on earth.

even if it did represent the majority of systems on earth we STILL deserve to be treated like people. this should not be something I have to beg for!!!!!

ariados

your femmes are out of control (pokesona doodle for once)

skweebs

Made this guy from my favorite Gerard Donelan comic

batsandboba

“scientists don’t want you know” is a phrase that always cracks me up because if you actually meet a scientist they will be shaking and crying like an overstimulated chihuahua with the need to let you know

questions-about-blorbos

Do you think you love your Blorbo MORE than the majority of the fandom does?

Yes, I think that

No, I do NOT think that

Voting ended onMay 20

Every poll on this blog is about fictional characters only. This request was sent to us and we made a poll in response to it. Send any Blorbo-related question you want to our inbox and we’ll make a poll on which people can vote with their own Blorbos in minds

#yessir