my own little coping hell

jace/23M/queer/csa and trauma survivor/ask me abt my daddy issues

[kaijuno]

[guooey]

trying to recover from a teenage brain that formed during the self-deprecating meme era of the internet 

[rinnetenseisdiedbadly-deactivat]

parents be like "your mental illness is so hard to deal with" my brother in christ you are the one who caused it

[homoidiotic]

[feralg0blin]

[fresh-horrors-device-deactivate]

The next time someone asks me how I ended up as an artist Im just gonna show them this

[anxietyproblem]

[naramdil]

there’s a creature in my chest and at all times she’s banging a drum and shouting “GUILT! GUILT! WE LIVE AND DIE WITH GUILT!” 

[thriftedspacesuit]

I actually don't recall ever seeing a positivity post for ppl w ongoing amnesia caused by trauma disorders. I'm not talking just repressed childhood memories, I mean perpetual long-term memory loss. I mean continuing to forget non-traumatic things that happened or ppl you knew a few years or even months ago. I mean struggling to retain any information you're learning if you don't constantly go over the same material over and over again, and losing it all once you stop repeating it

If you have amnesia like me, you matter. We navigate the world a bit differently but that's okay. Just bc our brains are broken doesn't mean we can't live happy and fulfilling lives. Be patient w yourself when learning new things. Surround yourself w compassionate ppl who love to tell you stories abt past exploits you may have forgotten. Also, hey, who else gets to watch a movie for the first time every time? Above all be kind to yourself.

[werewolbachia]

be kinder to your past selves

[werewolbachia]

there might be no permanent state of the self but those bitches were still you! show them some kindness, they were trying and living how they thought they should even if you wouldn't want to go back to them

[lousydrawingsforgoodpeople]

[ptsd-queer]

also if u haven't read it, here's a link to the body keeps the score

[ptsd-queer]

thinking bout how every almost every adult in my life failed me when i was a teenager and im angry but its this like, tired, kinda resigned anger

[adhd-queer]

anyway some Stuff happened that caused the move to be pushed up so much from April to three weeks from now so we won't have any furniture at the new apartment, or money to get groceries at the new place and bills are going to be really tight so if you're able/willing to help my c/sh/pp is $soupboy420 & v/nmo is soupboyx

[adhd-queer]

hey uhh I hate to ask again but some bills came out and now I'm over $114 in the negative and I just found I'm losing my shift differential so my paychecks are gonna be smaller, I could really use some help. Thanks so much in advance!

[bananonbinary]

 tbh i fully believe that healthy kids should be getting in some stupid trouble.

like, a child that’s in trouble all the time, frequently skipping school, getting caught doing crimes? that’s a kid that desperately needs literally any positive attention. that kid needs help. obviously.

but a child that is perfectly well-behaved, never speaks up for themself, is seen and not heard? that’s a child that’s afraid. they also need help.

[deadshrike-deactivated20220125]

mothers are insane they'll come into your bedroom exhibit mental illness then just leave

[deadshrike-deactivated20220125]

places for moms to display symptoms:

- parked in the car

- your bedroom

- kitchen

[hampop]

-any sort of event that you were meant to enjoy (ie a theme park, a birthday party, a holiday)

[killy-deactivated20241228]

[killy-deactivated20241228]

To the person who reblogged this five times in a row: I see you. I feel with you

[deadshrike-deactivated20220125]

mothers are insane they'll come into your bedroom exhibit mental illness then just leave

[ashstfu]

i never think more than two months into the future otherwise i start bawling and puking and clutching my stomach